did a new blogskin.. this skin i feel abit of low.. sad.. shattered feeling.. =\ cos it's blue.. hm.. sii told me b4 blue = sad or somethin liddat la.. thn somemore the pic of the girl look abit low.. best is i made her into a angel.. with wings.. it show more.. to me at least la..

cos to me.. a angel shud be happy.. cheerful.. but she dun look reali liddat.. so it gives a extra sadness in it.. erm.. i tried to make the whole skin into pink la.. like my fave colour.. but hor.. FAIL -__- lol! so i stick to this colour.. i wanetd to even make my font colour to blue juz to suit this skin.. but hor i reali dun like la =X stil choose my pinkish edition in the end..

spend the whole day at home doin this.. haha.. well.. sian la.. oh ya.. talk to mum about my lappie thingy.. heng ar.. she willin to buy for me.. =) but wil be more ma fan lor.. cos need to pay by instalment.. thn need to go that retarded poly again.. sianness! 10th april i need to go AGAIN! got IT workshop.. call successful computin.. ok it sound very bored.. sian! somemore 9am to 5pm!!!! RAHHH!

die lor.. dunno how to wake up liao.. sian! anyway tml got dance.. i mean.. onli men emi wil be goin.. sian.. nvm la.. gonna dance myself.. and wil be meetin kelvinggggg lol.. acc him go take levis com de form ba.. so sian lo.. lucky can meet someone tml lol.. help kill abit of sianness.. hope he wont "jia sai la" "why u so BEN" that much la huh.. -___-

oh ya.. i needa say somethin here.. most of u noe i'm goin thru a shitty period la huh.. =\ my mood reali isnt gd recently.. i didnt noe i'll be affected this much.. =\ but it prove to me it did la.. hais.. anyway if my attitude is extremely jialat recently forgive me ok.. =\ wanna noe the seriousness? it's til the extend of me wanting to stop dancin.. =\ to give up everythin.. =
but emi spoke to me abit juz now la.. somehow wake half me up.. lol.. hopefully my dream wil be saved.. and hopefully my mind wil be awake n i wil be more zhen zuo ba.. =) everythin wil be ok =) life's gonna rock when my sch starts!!! more busy me! yay yay yay!! projects projects! =)

and hor.. he chat with me today lei! lol! i mean the G ar.. hehe.. 1st time sia he wil come n talk to me lol! somemore chat ALOT! thou stil got communication barrier la -____- but happy =) haha.. aiyo.. sian la.. dunno wat's in my mind now.. haha =X

it's nt i hate u.. it's juz i dunno how to face u.. i stil cant accept the fact.. the blow.. but hopefully i'll have more time.. i wish to hug u too.. but i cant even face u.. hais.. the way u look at me brings tears to me.. the way things are.. killed me.. everythin crashed down upon me.. everythin.. gone...

Truly Alone..
Felt sucky.. dunno why.. =( everythin's well today but juz my feelings.. dance at esplanade.. tink i got my baby freeze le.. as in no prob le.. learnt boa's "moto" too.. i tink life love to play ppl.. =\ it's like.. when now.. everythin in my life's goin very well.. but shit happens stil..

my study life finally is gonna start.. the fees finally have been settled.. registration done after few weeks of brain cracking.. my dance.. finally i get to learn breakin.. and finally am gettin abit of it.. my crew.. finally we can put more commitment in it.. finally not so slackish.. BGR.. i finally managed to pick myself up and not to tink bout it anymore..

-BUT-

i feel that ppl ard me is "leaving" me.. i dun mean reali leave me.. but aiya dunno how to say la.. =\ it's juz like.. the bond.. the frenship isnt like last time.. due to many diff reasons la.. some cos of bf.. some due to work.. some due to school.. some is cos of diff aims in life.. and some even over small stupid things.. =(

i dunno. but i juz feel that everythin's not the same.. it's startin to change.. rather obvious.. even myself.. i feel that i used to be so KPO.. so busybody.. tryin to tell ppl wat to do.. but i tink about it.. i myself have to learn so much more b4 i can reali tell ppl wat to do.. =\ i keep tellin ppl in my crew "dun give up" "try ur best" al these encouraging words.. hopin to be able to push them further.. =
i keep tellin my fren how to handle BGR.. i keep tellin my fren how to handle frenships.. even how to handle stress.. sometimes i blame them for not bein gd at handlin stuffs.. but afterall i juz wish to help them.. i juz wish i can help al my frens ard me with their problems..

but no.. i was wrong.. i'm bad at expressing myself.. i'm bad with words.. i'm bad at controllin my emotions, my anger.. i often use the wrong method to pass the message to them.. =( maybe i shud have juz kept quiet n dun care bout them so much.. afterall.. it's their life.. not mine.. i shud have care for ONLY myself ba.. maybe thn i wont be so tired n drained out.. =(

i always thot the bond between clover is stronger thn anythin..
i always thot nothin could tear us apart..
i always thot no more quarrels..
i always thot we're "transparent"..
i always thot they understand me..
i always thot they have seen the change in me..
i always thot they appreciates me tryin to change my bad points..
i always thot they be there for me when i need them..

but no.. i was wrong.. =...........(

there's so much unhappiness in them towards me.. but i didnt noe.. i didnt noe i made them feel so tired.. i didnt noe i made them feel so exhausted.. =( fine.. i guess.. letting them go.. is the best way.. they need real gd frens.. not a fren filled with flaws like me.. =\ i can never be a GOOD fren.. my stubborness.. my temper.. my attitude.. i've tried my very best to change them.. i reali did! but i failed.. and now.. i'm very tired le.. =(

the SIAN feelin is in me already.. i had so much hope for everythin.. i have so much dreams.. now.. i tink i'm reali reali realii tired to even tink about them.. =( maybe i'm a failure.. in everythin.. =( maybe i shud learn to love myself n ONLY myself.. maybe that way.. i'll feel so much better.. =\ i give up everythin.. EVERYTHIN..!!!

if by leaving me makes u girls smile n more relax in life.. pls leave.. i dun wish to have frens who have to tahan me n suffer themselves.. =( i'm not worthy of ur frenship.. i can never be a gd fren.. u girls can find better frens out there.. this is not onli to clover.. but to ALL my frens.. sorry.. i'm a let down..
=..........................(

Retarded Poly -__-
today went to RP to do my matriculation.. @_@ sian lor.. slept at 6.. woke at 9.. OMG -faint- sibei tired ar hurhur!! RP's reali reali BIGGGGG! and very WHITE ar.. lol! like so bright sia haha.. duhh it's a new sch.. not white n die liao.. but reali no colour de sia.. onli white -_- was suppose to meet mikal at yishun but i was late so i ask him go first cos his mum with him ma.. not very nice..

thn when i reach RP i'm damn blur la =\ but lucky the signs are reali obvious lol! and the ppl are reali helpful lei.. frenly too.. weird.. dunno why everyone say they nt nice.. thn my stupid ATM card got prob.. cos my account got limit de.. as in my transaction in a day is 1000bucks max.. but i needa pay my fees at 1163.25bucks.. so i had to go back to OCBC thn extend the max thn transfer money into RP's account.. =\ so sucky lor..

thn i have to go back to RP to continue the matriculation @_@ took photos.. damnit! i nv make up! RAHHH! sucks man! thot i could have at least one student card with nicephoto.. sian! my student card since pri sch sucked til now.. hurhur! -sian- thn gotten my student account id n password.. alamaki dunno how to change them lol =X nvm la.. can memories de lol!

thn i saw hazel n kaykiat.. haha! hazel shouted for my full name LIAO XINWEI! sibei loud lor.. walao -___- i thot wat sia.. thn they ask me wat course i'm in.. haha i tell them thn they say "aiya transfer to our course" -_____- business lor.. lol!!! no way!!! thn i went to the laptop roadshow.. aiyo sian la.. saw a lappie nice.. and light.. 1.7kg nia lei.. but hor no money.. hais.. SIAN! hopefully my mum wil wanna buy for me ba.. =(

after that went home lo.. oh n i saw this honeystick "clover" flavour =\ lol.. i bought alot.. wanting to give clover.. but.. aiya.. i dunno la.. hais.. a test is given to us is wat i feel.. =\ forget it.. dun wanna talk bout it.. thn i reach home at about 2pm.. superrrrr shag!!! =\ tired like siao.. even lazy to go online.. lol! watched tv n slack on my bed.. haha..

thn at ard evening went to meet my fren to chat.. talked alot sia! lol! til 1.30am lei lol! our mouth NONSTOP remix lo! =X sian la.. so bored.. and tired sia.. =\ anyway my sch wil be startin on 17th april.. =\ so fast hor! lol! ok i shudnt complain..iw an it to start ASAP! too slackish le la.. =\ sianness.. alot of thing on my mind.. but dun wanna tink.. i got no more strength le.. gonna slp real soon.. now doin a damn tricky game from jarel.. haha.. my brain's obviously not workin.. if nt that means i'm reali stupid =\ lol!

ok gone to continue the game!! byebye....................................

call me a retard.. cos i'm officially in retarded ply now -_______________- oh n someone msg me on frenster.. al i can sayis.. nothin to do with ya.. it's juz me n her.. thanks

Mixed Feeling..
i did a pic this afternoon.. the bg is my name "wei" i love that character alot.. haha =) and with the lyrics of "wo deng de ren hui shi shui" by renee.. theme.. pink.. my fave colour =) and with my fave photo.. haha.. ok shud name this "my fave" lol .. so orh biang.. -_____-


today reali mixed feeling sia =\ got sad.. happy.. misses.. anxious.. sian.. alot alot.. lol!

Happy..
i finally got my baby freeze!!! yay!!! damn happy.. and kelving! it's not tai gor de ok! i can do it le hor!!! #$@!##^&)*^&*!!!!! muahaha! damn shuang!!! and i hope my tops gettin better.. i try my 6step.. sibei slow today =\ cos my right backside very pain sia =X ok hip.. hip very very pain.. they keep sayin skarly is muscle tear.. =\ OMG! dun scare me!!!!!!

*so U-G-L-Y*

Sad/Disappointment..

she didnt come for dance.. fine.. watever the reason i dun wish to noe.. anyway another sad thing.. i'm gonna be a RP student le.. ma de.. sian! Retarded Poly! kaox!!!! RAHHH.. called NYP today.. but they say my result wil onli be out on 1st week of april.. wth lor -____- dunno wat they tu-ing also.. kaox.. sian la.. go RP le ba.. haix.. hopefully life there wont be bad =

Anxious(qi dai)/Sianness..

chatted with him (G) this noon.. they're comin spore next month lei =\ shud i feel happy or sian? OMG.. it sucks man.. i dun wanna see him.. =\ but i miss him.. argh! F la! =X let's see how wil the next meetin up be ba.. he said he'll meet us when they're here.. hais.. hais.. hais......... =(

Misses..

i saw my didi today.. =( weineng.. wah! i F**king miss him like mad lor!!! was at city hall mrt platform with mikal.. thn suddenly he say "ehh weineng lei" thn i thot he wanna tell me wat thing bout weineng.. end up i look up thn saw weineng =\ OMG that moment i cant believe my eyes!!!!! it's like WTF!!! luckily he stil can recognise me lol! he ask me wher ei go thn say home lor.. thn he's gng back to boys' home =\ he's stil inside.. hais =( but hope he guai guai abit le la.. and he say he that time find me fine til wan die.. -___- hello! is i find him find til wan die lor!! &^%#$%&! but we both change number that's why la.. haha! thn he ask me fri thn contact him cos his home leave ma.. yay!! i miss him so much!!! =( wish i did hug him juz now.. hais.. miss miss miss ar!!!!!

Afterall..

rahh! shudnt feel emo.. it's a gd thing =) i finally found my baobei didi le.. another one more to go.. mr pang wee kiat! lol!! anyone got his oinfo tell me hor.. xie xie ni.. =) today overall a happy day la.. got my baby freeze.. saw didi.. and oh ya.. i sae salini.. haha.. she's diploma holder now! wah seh! not bad huh.. miss my class so much.. haha.. 5NB.. always in my heart =)

*BIG MUACKS TO EVERYONE IN MY LIFE*

*MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS*

i hope things have not changed.. like wat kelving say.. a knot in the heart.. i hope it's untied.. or it'll be untied one day.. hais.. i need time to recover.. =(

3 pics in a day..
this is how seriously bored i am.. =\ ok not relai bored but i just need some time alone ba.. hais.. dunno wat to blog bout.. maybe juz say abit of wat happened ba.. had a talk with emi.. well.. things arent reali lookin gd in the first place.. but i reali dun wanna continue the conversation la.. so i tell her tml thn talk.. hais.. thn the person i regard to whom lied to me talk to me too. i dunno but i juz feel i shudnt talk bout anythin today.. might juz flare up n i dun wanna do anythin rashly.. watever it is.. tml thn say ba.. hais..





did this 3pic for FTC ppl.. ehh wanted to do more la.. but reali CMI le lol =X that kelvin.. idiot! do for him thn dunno y today keep scoldin me ask me jia sai!! #^?*(@*(!!! but i noe he stil tink i'm nice =X muahahaha! sibei BHB.. wanted to send jarel n norbin.. but the time is 3am +++ lol.. so offline le.. aiya jarel wil come here steal de la.. hor hor hor.. haha =X hope u al like it la.. =)

wanted to do for emi n some of them here.. but i tink of wat happened i got no mood le =\ cos al is bout dance.. hais.. watever la.. wil get the mood back one day.. anyway did some surfing on pictures n sw one that gives me ling gan for emi's blog.. juz no mood to do it nia.. dun wan it to turn out U-G-L-Y.. wil do it when i'm better..

i noe she feel sad.. wat about me? it hurts ok.. 10years of frenship.. shows me wat? lies? my god..

Amiss..
i feel very wrong recently.. like somethin's amiss.. i guess somethin's happening.. dun ask me why or wat or who.. i dun wanna say.. i feel that someone had been lying to me recently.. ALOT infact.. al i can say is i'm not stupid.. remember i'm extremely sensitive n i noe humans inside out.. especially when it comes to my frens ard me..

if u reali did lie to me.. after readin this u'll feel it n i hope u'll talk to me.. if u reali didnt lie to me.. thn gd for u.. u're also someone i cherish i dun wish u'll lie to me.. al i can say is if i realise u reali did lie n didnt talk to me.. i'll HATE u.. i mean it.. u noe very clearly that i hate it when ppl lie to me..

i'm sure if u reali did lie u noe who u r la.. we can read each others' mind ok.. or shud i say we USED to be able to read each other's mind.. watever it is.. i hope u haven change.. i'm startin to see the change in u after u're hangin out with "them".. al i say is if this carries on.. we're gonna drift.. i hate them n dun make me hate them more..

i'm not having a gd start for today.. alot of things i'm thinkin.. i dunno wanna say i'm lucky to have this kinda dance crew or shud i say i'm unlucky.. why i say this? cos lucky.. cos they're reali nice ppl.. we're not only a dance crew.. but also frens within.. lucky.. cos we al somehow somewhat understand each other..

unlucky.. cos i feel that they're always forever on and off.. for a moment they go "ehh let's BIA for our dance la be the best!!" like so damn F**king enthusiastic.. for another moment.. u see them slackin there.. dun even wanna care.. this is wat ppl always mean by action speaks louder thn words la.. wanna be a gd dancer? dun juz say it la..

i had enough of al these le.. i dunno.. but i had this f**king thots of having a new crew =\ a crew who reali wanna work for their dreams.. but of cos i stil love my dance crew now.. but i seriously hate their attitude! SERIOUSLY i mean =\ ppl.. i noe most of u read my blog.. but i dun care.. like i say "freedom of speech"

and if this carries on.. and if i stil dun feel u guys are workin as hard as me.. dun blame me if i drift from u guys.. like wat emi was worried about "wat if xw join sch dance n drift from us?" if this thing carries on.. i cannot promise i'll drift ornt already.. cos i dun wanna be dragged down.. i noe it's selfish.. but sorry.. i have to move on with my dreams.. i've been slackin too much n my dream had been waiting damn long..

had enough of al these nonsense.. lies from my best frens.. it hurts ok for ur information.. especially when it's comin from YOU.. i needa work on my dream and i dun allow anyone to drag it down.. sorry if i'm selfish.. -lotsa disappointment-

3rd design =)


wah surprising sia.. i can actually finish doin a blogskin in 2hrs lol =X i started this at 6am thn do til now wor =) this is specially for sharon =) she likes belle ma.. so i use her as a theme.. she wanted it black too so here u go sharon =) i kinda love this design too haha =X like very classy, mysterious.. sharon.. suits u man!! lol.. anyway i'm doin the html later when i wake up ok.. haha now my eyes kuku liao.. CMI le lol =X hope u like it =)

i love the pic without the navigation bar =X cos the navigation abit tak link ar =\ but bobian i needa put somethin for the bars rite -_______- and of cos the theme is belle.. w/o her in the skin thn why the theme is her.. lol =) anyway i love this pic ALOT!!!! proud of myself once again hehehehehehe! =)

DRAINED..
OMG i tink i'm sick =\ rahh! having terrible headaches.. and dun have any mood for anythin today =\ slacked my day at home in the day time n went to dor's mum's funeral juz now.. sii ask me why i like so shag.. ehh gd question..

ok i guess i'm reali sick =\ been so quiet today n juz feel very easily irritated.. =(

wanted to do some photo designin but got no mood for it..
wanted to prac my 6step n baby freeze n wanna try chair but no space..
wanted to watch tv but no show..
wanted to eat but i realise i'm fat..
wanted to chat online but no one's here..
wanted to watch youtube video but cant find..
wanted to slp but cant slp..

omg.. wat a sucky day =\ tml's dance lesson's cancel too.. RAHHH! well.. guess tml wil be blading day thn.. it better turn out gd.. if nt i tink i'll juz die la.. bored til can die lor! walao =( i hope i'm not sick.. but i juz took my temperature n ok fine.. i'm sick.. -__- havin slight fever now.. sian!!

guess i need more rest n guess i need to slp earlier.. monday gonna do my poly registration stuff n i gotta wakey early.. my god @_@ can someone do it for me? argh! freakin irritating la.. headache headache!!! feel like juz killin myself now.. OMG.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

DRAINED..
OMG i tink i'm sick =\ rahh! having terrible headaches.. and dun have any mood for anythin today =\ slacked my day at home in the day time n went to dor's mum's funeral juz now.. sii ask me why i like so shag.. ehh gd question..

ok i guess i'm reali sick =\ been so quiet today n juz feel very easily iritated.. =(

wanted to do some photo designin but got no mood for it..
wanted to prac my 6step n baby freeze n wanna try chair but no mood..
wanted to watch tv but no show..
wanted to eat but i realise i'm fat..
wanted to chat online but no one's here..
wanted to watch youtube video but cant find..
wanted to slp but cant slp..

omg.. wat a sucky day =\ tml's dance lesson's cancel too.. RAHHH! well.. guess tml wil be blading day thn.. it better turn out gd.. if nt i tink i'll juz die la.. bored til can die lor! walao =( i hope i'm not sick.. but i juz took my temperature n ok fine.. i'm sick.. -__- havin slight fever now.. sian!!

guess i need more rest n guess i need to slp earlier.. monday gonna do my poly registration stuff n i gotta wakey early.. my god @_@ can someone do it for me? argh! freakin irritating la.. headache headache!!! feel like juz killin myself now.. OMG.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

was surfing ard the net.. emi gave me this webby to create graffiti =) ok i admit i'm definitely not gd at graffiti designin ok -______- sianness..

was surfing ard the net.. emi gave me this webby to create graffiti =) ok i admit i'm definitely not gd at graffiti designin ok -______- sianness..

I'm a designer!!
hiak hiak.. i suddenly feel so proud of myself.. i feel like a designer sia! =X my sec design =) specially for my darlings clover! muacks muacks! hehehe..



ok i tink i'm seriuosly addicted to photo designing =\ lol.. been doin this like 2days le.. ytd was VIP today's clover.. tink later can do individual.. actually wanna do stellarnine de.. but tink i wil die.. lol! 10ppl lei!! walao -faint- this pic different feeling ba.. from the previous one.. i reali hope it's different..

dun wanna get stuck at a certain kinda style.. or watever u call that.. i realise many ppl their deisgn like u can see everywhere de sia.. tink that's wa ppl mean my influence ba.. hmm not me.. i dun wan.. haha.. gonna have my own kinda creativity n design.. so glad i stil can design things..

cos i've been slackin so damn much til i thot my creativity cells are dying lol.. =X tink they're dead la.. these are new ones.. muahahah! LAMEEEEEEe.. -__- ok.. back.. wah seh i see like almost everyone is using my previous pic as frenster pri pic i damn happy sia!! haha.. muacks muacks.. love u girls so much!! =) thanks for appreciating man =D

anyway hor this pic.. the words hor is i create de hor lol =X gonna get some credit myself =X hehehe.. the whole things' MINEEEEEEEEE.. muehehehehe! madness.. i reali nt enuff slp liao @_@ today shag ar.. went to esplanade break.. listen is BREAK not DANCE ok @_@ lol.. juz do 6steps n abit of toprock n my toopid baby freeze la =
6steps ok ba.. toprok didnt do much.. baby freeze as usual la.. sianness! i bang my head again.. rahhh.. but hor not pain lei.. but very loud lol.. tink i seasoned liao =X but after that got the concussion feelin la @_@ haha.. thn i twisted my right wrist -_- but nvm xi guan le not pain also haha..

thn walao the MOSTT painful de is my backside =Xok in a nice way is my hip.. walao dunno wat's wrong i tink is muscle la.. pain like F*** ar =\ even walkin also wil pain sia.. =( now i like sitting on a "rock" liddat.. warao.. PAIN!!!!! hurhur.. ok nvm.. enuff nonsense.. anyway today felt gd that i can "break" at esplanade la.. hehe.. at least i dare.. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN!!

yea it's poppin' ben's birthday today! haha.. wished him thru sms and he's damn funny "HOW U NOE?!!!!!!" lol tat's his reply.. cute ehh.. he said my memory damn power.. lol.. of cos! =X BHB.. haha..

oh and erm.. the sad thing is my pri sch goodie fren's dad passed away ytd =( ok i forgot is dad or mum le.. =X [sii dun laugh hor!] and she's damn poor thing.. =\ 2years ago her mum passed away.. now.. her dad.. hais.. why sia.. =\ reali sad.. but hopefully she's strong enuff la.. she stil has a sister.. hopefully they'll support one another ba.. -dor.. jiayou! huggs-

oh n erm.. emi's nt feelin reali gd.. jarel either.. well hope u two can be stronger ba.. jiayou jiayou =) and kelving.. his nick.. forever emo sia -_______- gonza aint lookin gd either.. aiyo.. why liddat.. =( in fact my day started out aint gd either =\ but well.. i'm juz unlucky for that moment.. i believe i'm a lucky girl! yay =) i AM a lucky girl =D

oh man.. it's 24th rite??? wtf! this date.. =\ haish.. sian.. one month ago de ytd.. =\ OMG! F***.. rahh.. forget it.. i tink i'll juz hate every month de 24th.. =\ suay day of the month =\ hopefully every month wont have 24th! *pray pray* =X

god i pray that everyday wil be a better day for everyone.. pls k.. pls help us to live our life to the max and live it meaningfully.. happy things to happen n optimism to be install in each and every human =) amen!

(_-_) ZzZzZzZzZzzz.......

A lil surprise for my 5 dance babes.. =)



i did this since ytd nite @_@ my com restarted a few times n now FINALLY i got it done.. =) i dare to say this is 100% origanal work from me.. except the graffiti.. ok thn i correct my sentence.. make it 95% thn.. -__- i was browsing thru my photos n realise i can do smoethin out them..

but end up onli my own photo's from my library -_______- i went to al their frenster to steal the pics.. muahaha! hey girls.. be proud ok! damn hard to do hor.. look at the time now.. i haven slp dao lei =( lol.. juz wish to cheer u girls on la.. realise that these 6 of us are the MOST regular ones.. yet these 6 of us are the ones who always felt left out -______- haha..

see la.. ask u al egt a crwe name dun wan -_____- i actually wan do another design with our new crew name.. end up -______- ok nvm i replaced this design.. with the words "hiphop never stop".. we staretd out as a hiphop crew.. we shall continue with the name =)

so i hope by doin this pic u girls wil feel the existence ok =) hope this lil somethin is sweet enough to help each and everyone of us be more firm n determined and heal al the unpleasant incidents that happened.. =) actually wanna do one for clover.. lol.. but my eyes now i half close liao =X my god! i'm damn tired.. go slp le.. wan an! and zao an -______-

hope lil things like this can touch my dearest 5girls n hope this lil thing can erase al the grudges we had and al the unpleasant quarrels =) *3 cheers to VIP -for now use first la hor.. =X hipphipphooray! hipphipphooray! hipphipphooray!

-DROP DEAD-

Sianness
went to esplanade dance today.. shiok sia! FINALLY learn bboy-ing from kelving liao.. -_____- FINALLY! lol! =X today nt many bboy so not so paisei haha.. learn 6steps, toprock n baby freeze.. sian la.. stupid baby freeze! RAHHH! my right elbow kana cut (AGAIN) -_____- this time 4cuts sia.. =\ not painful.. didnt realise til emi tell me.. haha =X

my 6steps better le sia! muahaha! kelving corrected my lil lil mistakes.. like leg too far, hand too behind.. blah blah.. shuang lei!!! finally can do a better one liao.. thou it's stil nt a gd one la.. but at least i got the steps hehe! and hor walao my left palm got blister liao -______- so fast sia! sian.. but aiya nvm de la..

price muz be paid to learn somethin =) sure got more injuries to come de =\ sian! rahhh! thn we dance our own dance today also lor.. we decided to use "get on the dance floor" for 8th the show.. -_____- back to the old dance.. cos the songs we choose reali CMI la.. =X somemore not enough time le.. so have to dance old de lor.. sianness..

hmm tml dance again.. hehe.. shuang.. can pract my 6steps =) walao i watch a video.. this bgirl jess.. from spain.. walan ehh! her footworks like FREE sia =\ sibei fast! rahhh! i got half her can liao.. and her kong fan.. wahh -faint- and one bgirl whom al of us dunno is who lol.. her footworks also very ZAI!!! rahhh! i love footworks nahh.. sianness.. nvm gonna work hard on it.. hehe..

but like i say la.. not reali learn to battle or wat.. juz learn lor.. if can battle thn gd lor.. lol.. =X i got a aim sia.. me n emi wanna battle this girl.. haha =X but ehh.. dunno lei.. she's gd at things we aint gd at.. and i tink la.. we're better at things she's nt so gd at.. aiyo.. dunno la.. we juz learn nia.. cannot compare haha =X

today i slept at 10am sia @_@ thn hor walao i wake up at 3pm awhile cos sii wanna go out.. thn i went to see my msn awhile.. WARAO!! hurhur.. he came n say hi lei!!!! RAHHHH!!!! but by the time i see he offline le.. =( he online at 2.23pm lor.. walao.. why i nv wake up 30min b4! hurhur! -bang wall- sian liao lor.. dunno muz wait til when thn he online liao lor.. -________-

-a dancer shud noe al kinda dance.. be it ballet, jazz, hiphop, break.. i wanna be a ultimate dancer!! and i'm gonna work hard on it! =)-

HAO LEI AR!!!
i'm dying.. -________- lol! been doin my blogskin for like 6hours!!!! @_@ finally done! hehe! nice ma nice ma??? comment abit ok.. muahaha! i tried my best le na.. but hor i got idea or another skin lol =X next month.. hehe!

i tink i reali gave my heart n soul to this skin.. haha.. cos my fren call me i dun even wanna pick up.. i didnt chat with anyone online.. i didnt eat my dinner -_______- ehh no.. is supper.. lol =X madness! but shiok lei.. wahseh.. imagine i go poly i can do tis more often.. hehehe! shuang!

i lvoe to be busy! yay! =D today.. no. is ytd.. lol.. ytd went to dance at esplanade.. haha.. hmm onli few of us.. jyun, emi, si n me.. we quite slack today ar.. but seriously me n emi was reali mad with someone.. i tink i shud say.. and i noe shir u'll read my blog.. tell him for me pls..

mikal.. seriously make me very sian.. i start to see the bochap mentality in him already.. wtever it is.. i dun wanna say much.. no point sayin.. him himself noe how we deal with ppl liddat.. he himself witness alot of such ppl, such incident.. now he himself is one of them.. correct me if i'm wrong.. but i tink i give up.. i'm not gonna care bout anyone.. maybe onli those few that i'm more close with..

my life had finally go on the smooth side now.. i tink i better spend more time on my own life rather thn bein a busybody.. afteral.. the life's not mine.. i dun have a say.. had a chat with jyun.. hmm tink she's rather loaded with prob recently =\ but she's the kind who keep things to herself.. =( hopefully she can be stronger ba.. am always here for her =)

juz thn chatted with kelving.. lol.. emo-ster sia.. -________- =X tink i got successor liao.. lol.. i no longer emo now.. he take over.. haha.. ehh why not i go start a emo club la.. nt bad lei.. lol.. got few member liao.. this few member.. J*s**h, J*e*, R*i.. and now Kelving lol.. =X ok i'm kidding..

i did baby freeze n 6steps.. hehe.. my 6steps stil very slow la.. but can le la.. better liao.. haha =X thn jarel corrected my toprock.. he la! teach wrong -______- lol.. but lucky nt very wrong.. can stil change.. hehe.. my baby freeze i got it!!! but hor no strength.. sian! gonna train hard! hahaha! but aiya train for fun nia ba.. dun dare to dream so far.. b-girl.. hard ehh!!!! =
wuuuuuu.. it's 6+ le.. haha.. haven ZZzZzzzZZzz yet.. gonna meet sii for breakfast liao.. -_____- madness.. ok tink i better go get ready to meet her le.. thn gonna KO til 4pm thn go dance again.. haha.. i love my life now =) muahahahaa! muacks muacks muacks!! love everythin!

-tired!!! wahahaha! love my life! hehehehe! love everyone n lov everythin love everyday n every hour! =D-

SICKNESS!
seems like many many ppl are down with sickness =\ aww! first it was sii.. lost her sweetie voice.. thn was joseph lost his nicey voice too =( thn now was kel.. guess he got some prob with his throat too.. even i myself also got sore throat but mine was a minor one.. so my voice is stil nice.. muahaha =X

alamak why liddat?? weather aint that bad lei.. must be the food la.. heaty food we love.. haha =X i ate too much choco n crackers lol oopss! =X sii n joseph muz be due to too much KTV lol! madness! sii actually went to JB n K.. walao if i got my passport renew i sure go de lor! @%^#*$@*$%! =( and that joseph muz be due to too much recordin lol!

joseph's a damn great song writer.. i loVEEEE his songs i swear! joel's another one.. walao my fren's al so talented.. i very sad liao =( lol! no la.. happy for them =) hmm juz receive a email from UAN bout my online profile.. walao they reali very anyhow sia.. -________- i edit til i wan kisiao lol! bobian la.. ehh now thn i noe i got soooooo many performance b4 lei lol! reali didnt noe it..

and i receive a audtion for dunno wat with mediacorp.. but the date very funny.. lol.. it's in oct -___- HELLO! that's like stil very far la lol! madness.. dunno wat audition also.. hmm weird.. i dun act lei.. mediacorp = acting.. =( dun like sia.. =X i onli wan dance! unless they get me to act in a dance show la.. I WONT MIND! muahahaha! =X let's see wat audition wil i get la..

oh and hor walao.. tink my crew al noe la.. that i told u al b4 rite my back got this "muscle" jam there lol! tat's the best way i can describe it la -_____- now i noe le lei.. not muscle.. it's a nerve =\ my mum juz massaged for me.. and she say i pulled my nerve while dancin.. walao! freakin pain sia!! no wonder my back like wan CUI liao =
thn actually i thot it's nothin much la.. like aiya very soon wil ok de la.. cos my body so many prob lol! =X thn my mum say "this one ar if carry on for few more days u better go X-ray..can cause u to paralyse one lor" WTF!!!!!!! @_@ not again that word PARALYSE! RAORRRRRR! i already half-paralyse liao lei.. hurhur.. and hor it's been a nearly month le lei =\ not few days lor.. DIE!

walao pls pls pls i dun wanna be paralyse.. i wanna dance! =( if i paralyse i SWEAR i'll kill myself.. i mean it man! not kiddin.. cannot dance = no life.. no life = kill myself.. ok so if i reali die one day hor.. u al noe wat's the reason le la.. =( rahhhh! pray pray pray! hope my back wil be fine real soon.. =\ and pray that al my frens who's sick wil recover real soon..

-god.. life's turnin for the better eh? so pls help =\ *heehee oh and hor i finally get wat i've been waiting for this past 2-3days le hehehehe! so happy.. =) but abit of messiness here lol! =X-

Gd Life..
went to dance today.. as usual danc elike mad.. erm actually wanna learn some breakin stuff from my shifu de.. but thn farhan and the $7 crew are there.. so =\ ya.. haha! dance alot.. haha.. jyun joined us today.. wahhh miss her alot.. haha my kisiao kaki! lol!

she's gonna join us for 8th april's show.. yay! gonna be fun man! thou it's a small showcase.. FTC too.. haha! 2nd time perform tgt.. so fun! =) anyway i juz read my horoscope forecast.. seems like life's turnin for the better le.. haha here's how it goes..

Cancer..
You've been juggling work, family and your primary relationship for what seems like weeks, but it's finally over. The heavens have just unwound themselves, giving you the green light to pursue anything -- and, more importantly, anyone -- that you see fit to pursue. In the meantime, even while you're doing your level best to keep things peaceful on the home front, that may still be a challenge. Don't give in, though. You're almost there. The fun you're having in romance will be amplified when good news comes your way. After what you went through over the past couple of days, today will be an absolute dream come true. That means no more explaining your every move to anyone who doesn't quite believe in you, no more chatting up people you're not really interested in, and an no more worrying about not being able to say the right thing. In fact, saying the right thing to someone who doesn't realize you're not really interested -- yes, again -- may be your worst problem. You'll figure it out.

wahahahaha! greenlight to pursue anythin! yay! my dance my sch! muahaha! so happy.. =) and it's a gd day for romance? no way! i dun wan.. haha no time la.. not gonna care.. *bleah* oh and this sunday me n jyun they al might be goin to east coast to skate! yay! gonna get some wounds back le =( for sure lol! but yay life's gd.. lol =X

oh and.. 1more month! 1 final last month! for my darlin sii's probation to end!!! OMG OMG OMG! this day! we've waited for 5years le! cant believe it's finally here!! muahaha! gonna make her extremely shag that day lol =X this reali calls for a BIGGGGGG celebration man! sii! yay yay yay! *huggs* mwah mwah!!!!!!!

-life indeed is turnin so much better now =) thank god so much! may it stay this way.. now and always.. i dun need anythin more le.. juz this way wil do.. =)-

Waiting..
sian.. today rot my day off at home.. -________- well take it as savin money ba.. rahh! i need cash man.. sibei tight now =\ needa return ash, yutaki's lesson, batam trip, passport makin, sch fees.. @_@ OMG! -faint- anyway reali slacked my day away..

feel so useless today.. haha =X no la.. shudnt say that.. shud say i'm restin today.. haha.. ytd and the day b4 help FTC take video.. tired sia! my back's breakin up into pieces lol! tink i need a massage from mummy again.. haha.. forgot to ask her juz now.. and no she KO liao -__-

wuhu.. i'm waitin for someone online.. haha =X my eye went kuku juz now when i was lookin at the flight synoposis haha! walao so many flight to BK lor! faint! cannot even gauge which one they takin haha.. last time taiwan those i stil can guage.. this one relai hard.. haha..

sian sian sian.. now also waitin for the receivin for their video or shud i say his video.. lol! trasfer rate sibei slow sia! i hate my com! =( i swear i'll get a lappie by this year! after al my above mentioned money are cleared la -_____- sian! go watch video liao.. bgirls video makes me wanna workout! lol!

i did quite alot of exercises today at home.. haha.. tried my baby freeze too! i noe my prob liao la.. stupid hands too weak la -_- cannot even go straight.. walao! hurhur! nvm i'm gonna do many many more pumpin n sit up from now on! use this leftover holidays to train myself up.. if nt sch start no time le..

decided liao.. sch start, my life wil be sch, dance n breakin.. haha! shiok! of cos if i get into RP sure alot of time de.. haha.. cos RP is a slacker sch! muahahaha! but i wan go NYP la.. hurhru! foreign bodies!!! rahh! i go watch video while waitin for many thing le lol! =X buai buai!

i tink someone deleted me fren his frens list in frenster.. i juz find it so childish.. haha.. cant help it.. childishness stil exist in him.. wat to do.. too bad.. dun tink i shud add him back la.. unless he wan it loh.. haha.. but seriously i expected it.. haha.. juz didnt wish to care..

hmm juz watch a few videos on bgirls.. OMG la.. DOPE! haha =X reali li hai sia! RAHH! one day i'll wanna be like them man! lol! no la.. not gonna expect too much of myself in bgirl.. haha.. juz be gd n be my dancer can le =) breakin is juz a extra thingy added to my life =)

i'm so bored.. haha! tml's gonna slack a day at home again -_______- hurhur.. he's goin back le.. sob sob.. =( have to wait for one more year to see them again.. sianness! lol! very very sian sia.. roar! =X

-it onli shows me how childish u r.. FYI this is as lowly as blockin n deletin ppl on msn.. haha.. ut i expected it la.. knew it man.. lol!-

Floorskillz ended..
i dunno is i reali cannot understand breakin or izit reali the judges were bias.. but i tink the champion seriously dun deserve it =\ the results were reali shockin.. we al predicted that one korean crew n ground scatter crew wil get into top 3.. but they didnt =\ the ersults were..

champ:7dollar crew
runner up:team tomyam crew
2nd runner up:radikal forze

walao.. reali dunno why the hell the result is like this.. but not onli i tink it's unfair la.. many others tink so too.. well i stil tink korean that crew and ground scatter crew deserve the fame! they're simply too great!! kaox.. see le my reaction is like OMG OMG OMG! lol!

FTC didnt get into top few.. =( but it's ok la.. hello! so many li hai teams -___- and i can see FTC didnt do their best lei =\ like this is not their best form lo.. me n emi tink they had no confidence.. that's y.. hmm well.. nvm la.. they're stil great =) oh.. but the battle between fresh ratz(FTC) and the korean crew is reali a damn nice one! i see i stress lol =X reali sia!

oh ya.. and the GSC lol.. that guy whom we always call "gonza's bro" his name is golf.. but we're so used to callin him that la.. haha =X he came n talk to me n emi.. thn we exchanged email =) tml they're goin back.. rahhh! =( and tonite they goin zouk.. hurhur =( if emi is not underage we sure go tgt de lor.. sian!

after the com we al went to eat at foodcourt.. GSC came as well.. gonza went ard takin photos.. lol lots n lots of photos! hahah! honoured sia! =) they're so ZAI.. yet they're our frens.. OMG! =) i'm so lucky! hahaha =X oh ya.. i damn jealous lor.. gonza's my age lei =\ walao.. thn so li hai so famous liao.. sian! i dunno stil muz wait til when sia.. thn i see the GSC webby.. walan ehh.. they damn ZAI! -faint- walao walao =(

nvm i'll be hardworkin de.. =) ytd i BAI kelving as my shi fu liao.. muahahaha! gonna learn breakin =) but i'll start slow la.. start with those easy ones first.. haha =) wahhh! one day.. me n emi.. we'll have our own crew! bgirl crew..! OMG! hehehehehe! ok i'm dreamin abit too far lol! =X

oh ya.. during the interval the floor's open ma.. thn alot of them battle.. wah seh! i can onli say DOPE ar! lol! jarel n charlie! li hai! =) i like man! lol! the korean guy break thn that jarel gan gan battle.. weeyouwee! li hai! respect! hahaha.. was chattin with kelving ytd n we talk bout some topic la.. hmm ok maybe my heart's too soft =\ hais.. but NOOOOOOO! i shudnt.. shud stay firm n strong on watever i decide on now.. tat's to hack care.. =
-bein soft hearted wil onli let ppl take advantage of.. esp that kinda ppl.. stay firm.. =) haha.. i tink i missh him =X noe who? dunno ba.. muahaha.. tink onli emi'll noe =X-

Low batt..
today is a low batt day lol! damn tired.. cos i slpet at 8am AGAIN! =\ thn woke up at 4 thn go watch floorskillz.. walao rocks man! thou in the middle got a few battles make me yawn =X i love the one that scatter ground crew(thailand) vs radikal forze(spore)..

my ou xiang in RF lei.. muahahaha! he's so cute la.. =X li hai man! thn walan eh.. SGC the gonza.. nabui sibei li hai! last year i see him b4.. but seriously forgot his face le.. lol.. now i see again.. "OIC" haha.. he's damn ZAI! and they're frenly too =) erm.. shudnt say more on it la.. haha =X

some of u wil noe la huh.. hehehehehehe! =X later i shy... wahahah! madness.. oh ya i was sayin today's a low batt day rite.. haha cos we sit too long thn i say my leg low batt thn i was damn hungry thn i say my tummy low batt.. thn emi's v cam also low batt thn everyone's v cam also low batt.. LOL!

thn norbin damn funny.. he wanna see the video on himself ma.. thn we watch til wan dao his turn liao the batt flat! lol! he faint! hahaha! his reaction damn damn funny can?! at foodcourt lei! walao! thn he keep buggin emi "eh try again lei" lol! damn damn funny! after we eat thn we went to esplanade.. wanted to try my baby freeze but ar.. dun dare.. lol! too many of them there le la.. madness! haha.. somemore SGC got come also..

lol! they were reali frenly.. haha.. i mean ALL of them.. one came n intro himself.. erm thou there's a reason to it.. but erm.. stil frenly ma rite? haha =X thn the rest said bye n see us tml so i guess they were reali nice =) see gonza n his bro pract there.. warao sibei jealous! li hai lor! hurhur.. dunnon thn i can break.. -________- ok i shud stop dreamin.. =X juz guai guai be a dancer ba.. ROARRRRRRRR!

tml's the final.. wah very qi dai! hopefully FTC al can get in =) *pray hard* jarel sprained his thumb.. AWW! =\ hopefully tml wil be fine.. and oh ya.. kelving did a real nice one.. lol! dunno how to say but nvm.. it's a gd one.. =)

-inspired to be a b-girl.. but noe i'm not made to be one.. so i better be gd n stick to my 3years dance plan in japan..-

ok i admit i was damn bored.. haha.. so i did a timeline of my life on PAINT -_______- that's how bored i am.. and now i'm bored til i feel like talkin bout my life.. haha.. if the theme bores u out can choose not to read =) those who noe me damn well like sisi, bing.. can no nid read also.. u al noe EVERYTHIN le.. ahahah.. oh n it's gonna be DAMN long.. haha.. alot to crap on =)

FAMILY
my background was PERFECT! and i reali mean PERFECT! i'm the kinda girl that have piano, ballet, violin and electone lessons since i was at the age of 4.. those typical qian jin da xiao jie la.. very ignorant of life.. very ignorant of sufferings.. i never noe wat is sadness.. i never noe wat is loneliness.. can say i was super spoilt by my parents.. they were loving.. and they love me so much til i get watever i wan.. and we go out for family outings every sunday WITHOUT fail..

i have a elder bro n sis.. but they werent real child of my parent so they dun get al the gd stuff i get.. but they loved me so.. my sis were the bo chap bo chap kind la.. so we were nt very close.. age gap too.. haha.. my bro n me fight everytime.. but he stil prove to me he loves me.. even til now =)

but things changed when i was 11.. my parents start to fight n quarrel with one another.. over money, me, life.. and at tat time i dunno wat the hell was goin on.. onli remember i cry n cry non stop whenever they fight.. my siblings dun even wish to care.. cos they give up on my parents.. =\ at the age of 11.. i can do nothin.. absolutely nothin.. i felt that life has ended.. =\ too ignorant i guess.. i always thot the world is beautiful.. flawless.. til this happens..

soon my parents wanted a divorce.. but my dad didnt wan cos of me.. so they file for separation for 5years.. but yet they stil stay tgt la.. for my sake AGAIN.. =\ but lucky enough.. i got probation at the age of 15.. why i say lucky? cos it somehow "forced" my parents to stay tgt.. it's some complicated stuff by the law again la.. but by 16.. my dad moved outta my house.. leavin me n my mum.. =( my r/s with my dad start to turn bad when i was ard 13.. he's too strict.. or shud i say i was too naughty.. =
i start to stray at the age of 11.. when those quarrels happened.. well.. i guess it's kinda normal la.. cos to me at that time i juz needed a new "family" to love me.. which i find them in my frens at that time.. but suay enuff.. they were "bad companies" labelled by the society.. but stil.. they made me felt the existence of myself.. n they brought alot of "fun" in my life.. thou they were bad stuffs..

my r/s with my dad til now is stil as bad.. no talks.. no nothin.. most of u noe i reject his calls everytime.. cos i juz cannot forget watever he done to me.. al the beatings.. those who have seen the way he hit me n noe the reason.. i'm sure u ppl hate him too.. it's unbelievable! joke! =
and the rise of my family line at 17 is cos i noe i stil have my mum.. she loved me.. =) so somehow i choose to be a gd n sensible girl from thn on.. which was why i turn away from those "bad companies" n lead a new life =) and also at 17 my probation ended.. i've learn alot since thn.. next is the fall again =\ cos my mum and me had a terrible quarrel over money n my result =\ tat was my o level retook math result.. i pass by she said somethin reali not nice..

but nvm la.. she felt sad too ba.. cos it's like "why my daughter have to take o level 2time?" well.. in the first place when i was born they had high hopes on me wat.. haha.. cant blame for her disappointment.. but things were solved real well n now we're as close as ever =) i love my mum.. whoever bullies her i'll kill them! i swear!

FRIENDS
i started the line at age of 7 is cos to me la.. that's the time when i reali noe wat's frens.. i have alot of "frens" since i was 4.. cos of the extra lessons i took outside.. but to me i tink those were nt frens.. those were classmates ba.. my frens circle started at 7.. and it was doin real fine.. i'm always in the more "famous" company n many ppl liked us.. =) i was lucky.. real lucky =) the line drop when i was 13.. and drop to the LOWEST! cos that time stil can remember almost ALL my frens start to hate me n leave me =
i guess i was my attitude prob.. and my qian jin da xiao jie's temper.. well tat time stil dun reali noe importance of frens ma.. i was loner for awhile.. cos no one wans to be my fren.. =\ tat period reali reali suck! =( but that's the time when i learn the importance of frens.. and to cherish them all.. and that's the time when my BEST fren left me.. even til now.. =\ hais.. but we stil wil hi n bye la.. so stil ok la..

after i learnt my lesson, i put down my pride n decided to say the magic word "sorry" to each n every single one of them.. lucky enuff most of them forgive me n befren with me again =) life turned for the better since thn.. and my frenship line reaches it's max when i was 17.. tat was when i noe i had clover.. =) they proved to me al the 2-3years that they were always there.. yes we do quarrel at that time.. but things always turn out gd..

my frenship line since stayed BEST even til now.. and i believe it wil stay liddat for gd.. =) i choose my frens n i noe wat kinda ppl i need.. whoever also can leave me.. i mean it.. but not my mum n clover.. even if my goodie frens leave me now.. let's say VIP or stellarnine.. yes i wil be damn damn sad.. but life's not over.. =) but if clover leaves me.. byebye ppl.. u guys wil see me on news headlines le.. -_____- i mean it man..

LOVE
haha.. this is so cute.. after i did the graph i look at it n laugh! it's reali like those patients in the wards wan die dun wan die liddat =X from 11-13 it was stable.. cos i dunno wat's love ma.. but got bf la.. so i juz left it liddat.. haha.. thn at13 which is the highesti met YK.. thn it drop to the lowest! haha.. thn see al the lil lil up n down at age 14-15.. that's when al the anyhow come in also..

thn it remained the same til 17 when i met JS.. not as high as YK but stil high.. thn it drop again.. that was when i get into depression.. haha.. my first extreme depression ever.. and that was when i noe the cruel reality of BGR.. =\ thn it remain til i was late 18.. thn i met G.. not tgt.. but somehow somewat la.. haha.. drop again.. thn J appear.. this time it's real high.. almost YK's peak.. cos i reali gave my all in this.. haha..

juz when i thot everythin's gd.. drop again -___________- not long after.. met K.. very happy.. but drop AGAIN LOL! and now i decided to leave it liddat.. =X reali.. if nt i wont turn down a few ppl le.. i juz turn down another one few min ago =\ cos i'm scared le la.. walao see the line wil faint can?! tink this looks like the patient who got a heart attack ar.. LOL! after al teh up n down, my heart's weak le lol! better stay liddat for the time being..

now i'm goin into poly.. somethin which i'm anxious n scared about =\ anxious cos i wanna meet new frens =) start studyin again n lead a normal youth's life.. scared cos of BGR and backstabbers.. =\ many told me ppl in poly are real FAKE! this reali scares me.. =\ and i'm the easily trust ppl kind.. but lucky i got my frens to guide me ba.. =) love them for it.. haha =)

ok tink it's a VERY long one le.. haha.. gonna stop here n get some beauty rest.. if nt tml die le.. haha.. oh and i chat with kelving juz now.. hmm al i can say is.. kelving.. cheer up! =) u're a nice guy.. -huggs-

-life's beautiful when u look on the bright side.. i've met with alot of obstacles in my life.. be it family frens or BGR.. but it al made me stronger.. thou i can never get al the gd things back.. but be glad i've once got them al =)-

SHAG!
today de me is a real zombie @_@ lol! slept at 8.30!!! OMG! -faint- tink my isomnia is comin back to me.. =\ die die DIE! nvm la.. stil got 1 month for me to adjust my time to fit my sch's schedule haha =X

jason keep sayin i damn fierce today.. ehh not fierce la is juz tired.. =) i'm frenly man! haha =X aiyer today esplanade no ppl de.. sian.. FTC went to lester's place for his bday celebration.. beri sian.. haha.. we also dance awhile onli cos shir they al wanna leave early.. al got things on -_____-

thn me emi mikal n jason went to marina de mac to eat n slack lo.. chat alot la.. thn jason keep sayin i very not me today.. lol.. hello! i'm tired! after "tsunami" tink wont tired de ar??? warao.. brain cells al dead can? tink i need few days to get my brain cells back lo.. -_____- haha..

it's been few days since i last saw binggie.. aiyo MISS U LEI! =( walao u al workin i sibei sian sia! i also wan same timin as u al lei.. hurhur.. my time n u al de time like i'm in australia u al in singapore liddat =\ ^%($%^*#$! RAHHH!

oh tml's floorskillz! muahaha! my 3rd year watchin it =) this year sure more BIANG de.. cos got many other countries' bboy.. wahaha! got yandao can see liao hiak hiak! =X got JAPAN de lei!!!! OMG OMG! KOREAN TOO!!! wahaha! shuang! =X ok i sound very wrong here -____- guess i need to slp le.. beri beri tired nei! tml muz pretty pretty see my JAPPY! muahaha! =X

-gd luck to al bboys out there! to those who worked reali hard for this.. JIAYOU BA!!! =) -DEAD ZzZzzZzZzZzz-

ok ppl.. i'm sick n tired of everythin.. never felt so tired b4.. =\ anyway.. we've cleared things out.. n everythin's fine.. it's not settled anyway.. but we both agreed to drop it n juz be frens.. i gave him a choice to be frens ornt.. he chose to be.. ok fine.. thou i've reali had no more faith in the frenship but i stil choose to take it..

hopefully we can REALI be frens n no more nonsense.. so ppl.. dun tag anymore.. let's juz leave this al behind ok.. forget everythin tat happened as of now and juz go on.. had reali enuff.. i'm tired le.. nitez..

-never felt so tired in my whole entire life.. frens.. lets see if this reali means it..-

i'm bad at words..
this is so freakin childish! OMG.. the thot of it makes me wanna laugh.. serious man! he keep linkin it back to the past.. bout me likin him (OMG the thot of it.. argh!) and yet the prob now we're talkin about is bout my post.. haha! this is freakin funny! how can someone be so BHB keep tinkin that i like him.. OMG OMG OMG! i was blind!

he almost ALMOST say somethin nasty bout my fren.. ALMOST i said! i swear if he said.. haha.. let's see how the sky falls ba.. =) he juz being ta ma de childish la! aiyo.. the end thn the end la.. keep sayin things like "tats tat" "i'm outta this" hello.. dun nid always say de.. wat? waiting for us to beg u n keep u? HAHAHA! wat a joke.. this lesson again made me see another thing.. haha

it juz proves to me how NO place he's in me.. irene said b4 "onli those who have a place in ur heart wil affect u" now i'm not affected by him.. i'm juz affected by the facts that ppl actually do assume! haha.. wah seh.. skarly not the girl's fault.. muz be him peng way-ing here n there.. someone juz told me some new updates on wat happened.. walao ehh.. seriously if i were his close fren i'll be damn disappointed to hear man!

sad sad.. lucky my frens aint liddat.. i'll screw them upside down lol! oh and someone also tell me bout another incident.. WTF! she scold him? he hit him? wakaox! one tryin to act SAT tryin to be a big bully.. another one tryin to side a big bully.. haha! my god! if it's me back thn in sec sch.. i swear i'll find fault..

but nah.. too boliao.. i wish i can be more childish.. i reali wish.. maybe it's fun.. haha! see they're enjoyin it so much =) and now i noe why he insisted that my frens are siding me tryin to protect me.. cos his frens are doin that! haha.. onli those go thru the same thing wil noe the thing.. rite?

he say she tries to tell me wat's rite.. ok.. appreciated.. but seriously i dun nid anyone to teach me.. or shud i say i onli listen to sensible ppl.. like irene =) she's the onli one whom i respect n tink she noes the world.. maybe i shud apologise to that girl here.. cos misunderstand.. she thot i was tryin to attack at her.. but NO! i shall made this clear here in my blog.. i am NOT attackin at anyone.. rite.. i was pissed

i was damn pissed for knowin ppl commented on me.. she say she commented for whether 'm the rite girl for him.. hello! u dun have to! i've said b4 thousands of time to him at least.. that in a r/s it's al about the 2 person.. no one else.. so NO ONE else shud comment.. keep those comment!

the reality is ppl look at wat u do n say.. some ppl dun even bother to find out why u say.. and they confronted u straight in the face.. i didnt do that.. count urself lucky.. i got a bad temper.. real bad one.. it's surprising i can take the judgements.. i took it.. i was angry yes.. i am.. i vent out my anger on my blog n tata that's it..

which human wont wanna vent somethin like this out? put urself in my shoe man.. i thot she's reali reali nice.. but somethin's affectin that image now.. but i wont say i judged it.. it's stil too soon to judge.. no no i shud say.. i shud NEVER judge anyone.. but he made me wanna judged it! haha..

ok i shudnt! shud stick to the tinkin.. NO JUDGIN! =) ppl can judge me watever they wan.. go ahead.. n dun let me noe.. if i ever finds out.. i'll hate u.. get it?

p/s:ting.. sorry if u're offended.. ok i guess u r.. but do noe it's a misunderstandin cos i seriously wasnt talkin bout u for the bitch n fuck part.. if u read carefully i said stranger(S) n new fren(S).. with the SSSSSS behind.. unless u wanna be part of them la which ur dearest best fren tink so.. thn there's nothin i can do.. but stil.. i hate it when u pass comments bout me.. u dunno me well enuff, u dun pass them.. be it gd or bad.. DUN pass them.. unless u noe my every actions thn u got the rite to pass them..

p/s:kel.. stop sayin my frens sided me.. u sided her too.. and yet told emi u didnt.. haha nice lie.. =) i've remove ur link as u wished.. u're stil welcome to tag on my board anytime u like.. not happy also can tag ok.. i welcome tags.. =) but dun u dare pass judgements on me or my frens.. i'm juz warning.. i'm not sayin u did.. and dun get pissed man.. it's nt i dun take ur advice.. it's juz i dun tink i need them.. i got much better advices from my frens thn urs.. =)

p/s:al my frens =) if anyone tagged bout bad things on me.. dun get worked up ok.. i'll settle it on my own peacefully.. i'm old enuff to tink n be independent.. i have a mind of my own unike someone.. =) (i dun mean anyone hor assume urself) now i tink whenever i blog i muz be EXTREMELY careful with my words.. cos some ppl claims that their eng is very powDerful and yet they dun have the ability to read well.. causin so much troubles.. oh well.. wat to do.. cant blame..

-nobody's perfect.. i'm bad at words.. i swear i am.. al my frens know.. u shud noe as well.. i tink i shud change my disclaimer soon.. to "i'm bad at words" hahah! but seriously i'm reali bad at words.. offended accidentally? sorry thn..-

Assume.. ME?!
this is so freakin funny!!! OMG.. some ppl reali cannot understand.. ppl.. when i say "i mean the generally ppl.." i dun mean anyone rite? for some reason HE keep assumin it's her! hahaha! and the best is.. he ask me not to assume.. wat a joke rite? wat did i assume?! i dun get it..

ehh but ppl.. dun wreak havoc in my tagboard hor lol! he got the rite to tag watever he wan.. like i said.. i'm open to comments =) even now.. he say sooooooo many things.. i stil accept them ar.. juz tat some parts i reali dun understand.. he's contradicting himself la.. -_______- those who noe everythin on wat's goin on wil noe wat i mean.. =)

aiya.. now say so much also no use.. he say she's mature.. hmm al i can say is.. if someone's mature enuff.. they wont pass comments on anyone =) agree? even i dun tink i'm mature =) serious.. i'm as childish! if nt i wont do al these nonsense yea? =) but it's ok.. i'm definitely much better thn someone out there.. =) assume whoever u wan.. i stil mean GENERAL PUBLIC! =)

my frens stood up for me.. FRENS REACTION u say =) but like i say.. tink why they sided me =) and why so many oppose u.. i didnt ask them to.. in fact i stil did speak up for u.. but too bad.. ur actions.. ur words.. proven somethin.. =) maybe i shud shut my mouth and get outta this nonsense.. but remember! i wont forget anythin.. cos responsibilities =)

aiya today nv dance.. sian.. -______- nvm tml!! yay! hopefully my lil shuai ge's there =) heehee! =X siao siao! cannot! hahaha! dance dance dance! yay! omg i'm havin headaches man.. =X slp too late ytd.. haha! muz slp early tonite..

-nonsensical childishness is stil in me.. god.. forgive me for al the nonsense.. i'm a gd girl stil ok.. =) p/s:huiting maybe i shud say sorry if the misunderstandin makes u or whoever tink the F word is on u.. but i stil tink u're in the wrong for judgin on me-

Judgement..
someone actually judged me when she 1st SAW me.. not even knowing.. haha! wat a joke! hey i'm not gonna care who the hell reads my blog now ok.. i'm juz gonna blog this out to show how funny human actually can get.. ppl.. do u guys judge anyone when u al juz met? i know la.. first impression matters..

but hello! passin comments ard when u dun even noe me? isnt it abit too far? yea i noe i look very ah lian.. but remember this sayin "dun judge a book by its cover" get it? tink she herself is that prefect? hahaha! juz another ignorant bitch tryin to judge bout ppl.. in fact even my closest of the closest best frens shud not judge me.. the onli person who can judge me is God himself..

and if she tinks i'm reali that bad.. tink bout this.. why on earth my frens sided me so much.. why on earth they protect me so much.. and why on earth common frens we share sided me instead of him.. if fact those common frens noe him longer thn me ok.. and to me.. they sided me cos they noe wat's rite n wrong.. and i believe they noe who's gd n nt..

anyway.. she reminded me of someone from northland.. haha.. northlanders, u al noe who? my close fren's fren.. the girl with the name startin with D.. remember? haha.. exactly like her! passin remarks on ppl ard when she dun even noe them.. and seems like everyone is a baddy except herself n her best fren.. OMG cant believe it that this kinda things do happen stil.. haha!

i thot northland that case were the onli one case that'll ever happen.. hmm now i noe.. bitches do exist.. but it's ok man.. even bitches can be my fren.. or acquaintance.. haha.. cos i myself can be a real bitch at times too.. =) he deserve someone better?! OMG let's see which someone better wil wan someone liddat ba.. many say to me too.. "u deserve someone better" ya rite.. DUHHHH i admit i reali do deserve! but it's stil nt rite to pass comment on anyone.. =) so i wont pass any comments on him either..

anyway ppl.. all the "him" that i mention in al my previous post as in the guy that i like.. is no longer him ok.. or shud i say that guy died le.. i'm serious.. he died few weeks back.. and stop sayin i like this guy ok.. how can i like someone like this? haha! wat a joke.. ehh xinwei's taste aint that sucky can?

oh latest update! ehh got a guy very cute lei! heehee! but aiya younger thn me.. sian.. haha.. but nvm la.. stil remember the eyecandies rule.. thou it's taught by someone who loves to bitch.. haha! but lessons are worth rememberin =) actually i saw alot of cuties recently.. haha.. juz dun wanna go and tink more... oh and hor.. lol! this is funny! kelving juz told me got someone like me -________- faint! when i dun even who the hell that someone is.. lol! well guys are al the same..

looks is al they're after.. haha.. hmm maybe it's time for me to teach them a lesson! heehee! gonna do somethin real fun! anyway theres 4guys now.. haha! fun is gettin in the air! time for the devil xinwei to reveal >=) hiak hiak! omg sound so not me.. hahah! but dun worry man.. life's short i've missed out on playin! time to get them back!

-remember judge me onli when u noe me well enuff.. i hate judgements from strangers.. or even newly known frens.. two words i'll say Fuck You! get it? fuckin get off my life man bitch n bastards..-

Juz some addition to my post la.. this is my horoscope forecast today.. hmm seems gd..

Some of your domestic bliss might be challenged today, but all will work out fine.
The heavens are conspiring to bring you even closer to your family, friends, lovers and favorite playmates than you already are -- and that's really saying something. In fact, you could end up in a long heart-to-heart chat with someone you've been dying to make peace with --and whether you're delivering or accepting the apology, you can rest assured that it will hold. Then for the fun part: catching up on old times. See? It's time to start talking.

-i wish the "someone" is that someone =\ i stil care bout the frenship thou things' are liddat now..pray that things wil turn out fine ba =\-

=^,^=
today went to dance at esplanade lo.. as usual -______- haha! hmm nothin much thou.. juz dance n dance.. oh and my baby freeze improve le =) heehee! shuang! but i got a cut on my elbow =\ dunno how the hell i got it also.. damn pain lei =\ sian!

my "broken" knee today can lean abit le.. =) so happy.. haha! but my head stil kana alot of ba lu ku la.. sian! oh n i got spotted by i-models AGAIN! -_______- dunno how many times liao.. HELLOOOO! my face got model face ar?! u muz be blind man! madness!

ytd nite i wenta look for renee's pic! lol! suddenly feel like a lesbian man -______- now my com everywhere's her face lol! =X i wish to be like her man! OMG she rocks! how can someone be so damn talented? she can dance, sing, rap, compose, choreo, act.. she's pretty, sexy, cute, kind, fun! OMG! where got so perfect de human de???? ^$*$(%&^(%&)**%^#$@!

i wish to be like her man! she's my queen! lol! sound so wrong =\ hahah! who cares?! i love renee! oh and i heard this song.. "dui bu qi wo ai ni" by fish leong.. intro by kelvingggg! haha.. =) damn nice song sia! with the light-mood beat.. and the lyrics' damn damn cute.. i tink it's cute la.. like the girl damn stubborn lol! ok here's the lyrics.. erm translated AGAIN.. haha =X too bad who ask blog cannot put chinese words..

Fish Leong-Dui bu qi wo ai ni (sorry.. i love u)
nothin much.. juz wanna say "i'm sorry"
sorry.. i reali love u..
no matter how u tink.. no matter wat u say..
u stil cant change my decision..

-this is so cute la.. like askin the guy to "ah shut up!" lol! i tink it's reali nice.. cos i tink it's onli ite to express ur feelings rite? i mean.. express is express ma dun mean anythin rite.. haha-

u knew that sometimes when it comes to love,
it's hard to differentiate between lover or frens..
but from the past til now i stil can feel it..
each time i misses u, my heart races..

-i agree it's reali reali hard to differentiate man! =\ reali hard! i wish my heart wont race la.. at least it means i dun like him anymore.. haish-

i wanna let u listen to my heartbeat..
i wanna let u noe i cant slp well..
it's u that's on my mind when i drink..
it's u on my mind when i'm in train..
it's al u.. no matter my eyes' open or shut..

-yea man.. when i like someone the person's on my mind 24/7 =\ i dunno wanna say it's a bad or gd thing sia =\ bad cos i miss them too much.. gd is cos it means i reali reali like them lol! =X-

i cant guess ur expression..
i didnt receive ur reply..
i dun wanna make things difficult for u..
yet i dun wish to give up on u..
so i decided to tell u..
sorry.. sorry.. i love u..

-OMG this part.. reali abit sayin bout erm.. that incident sia! =\ "dun wanna make things diff" omg! this whole paragraph is exactly sia!-

wil u remember my face?
did u receive the lover's card?
it's u that's on my mind when i study..
it's u on my mind when i listens to songs..
it's al u.. that appears on the skies i see..

-it juz says how much the girl miss the guy la.. haha =)-

i dun care wat'll ur expression be..
i dun care whether u'll reply ornt..
i dun wanna make things difficult for u..
yet i dun wish to give up on u..
so i decided to tell u..
sorry.. sorry.. i love u..

-i love this! haha! "i dun care.." yea man.. maybe when u reali juz wanna express urself.. u dun have to care how the other party feels.. cos it's juz u expressing it ma.. who cares rite? this sounds abit selfsh.. but it's the fact wat.. express dun mean u're askin for anythin in return ma =)-

-dedicate this to him.. =\ but i guess he wont be readin.. nvm la.. if he read thn gd lo.. if nt thn too bad lo.. sincerely from my heart can le.. those who noe is who shhh k.. those who dunno too bad.. afteral.. i stil miss him =\ i know i shudnt after al that had happened.. but.. haish-

Ba lu kus..
today wenta dacne at esplanade again as usual.. haha hmm everythin's as usual lo.. nothin change lol.. onli that i slept at 7am n woke up at 4.30pm lol! madness sia.. ytd say wan slp early.. end up -_______- haha.. hmm we went to food junction to da bao dinner over to eat..

i had lor mee.. NICE sia! LOL! but the meat is like super pathetic la -______- lol.. i shared with is.. so i didnt eat much.. but i ate the tou sha bing.. lol.. nice also =) had nice food today.. haha.. thn we dance le lo.. hmm today nt bad cos learn baby freeze from jarel.. haha =) i bang on my ytd's ba lu ku again!! and thn got another new addition to the "family" of injuries.. another ba lu ku on my right side of the head -_______- sian 1/2!

bboyin reali hard sia! but jarel say my toprock nt bad le.. wahaha! SHUANG! i learn another type of toprock today also.. heehee.. stil tryin to get the adcent of it =) wah motivated to be a bgirl lol! no la.. juz wanna learn afew stuffs on it.. not gonna be a real bgirl.. am not made to be one =\ haha.. my hands are toooooo weak! and my head too soft.. haha!

went home at bout 11.30.. in the train dunno y very comfortable sia.. the air con like very strong.. thn very relax.. feel like slpin in it for life man! lol =X and the walk home was very comfy also =) the wind.. blowin at me reali make me wanna walk forever lol! =X but nice la..

never felt so relax for a longggggggg time liao =) maybe many things are no longer on my mind le.. at least i dun wanna tink bout anythin at the moment le ba.. juz wanna get into a poly n study.. dance n relax myself le.. nothin else matters.. =) life's short.. shud live it to the fullest =)

-let's welcome 2weak wrist n 1 ba lu ku to the family of injuries! *clap clap* =^,^= v oh.. and it feels reali gd to have no worries in ur mind.. wat for care when they dun even care.. rite? =)-

sadako wannabe! LOL! shir's the real one.. my hair too short i tried my best le.. i reali did =X
dunno wann act ah lian or rocker.. so we got a in between LOL! from this picu can see how MEI MO QI we are -________-
i juz chap one leg in lol! got concarsion so abit maddy maddy.. heehee
fei er's precious kiss anyone? =X
SHOESSSSSSSSSSSSSS! haha =) got cramp after takin this pic -___-
i dunno where to look la.. -_-

ok can see i was being force by fei to take this? see my post! OMG! U-G-L-Y!!!!

-i hope yutaki dun see this.. if nt he'll faint lol! cos he left early hopin we can pract on our own.. end up.. erm ya.. these pics came out.. haha =X but we got pract ok.. i swear we got! if nt i wont get a ba lu ku on my head liao @__@ ehh walao til now stil pain lei.. alamak! hurhur.. and my knee! OMG.. how am i gonna dance tml??! -faint-

-Dead-
i cant find any better word to describe my feelin now =\ after yutaki's lesson, my body's like breakin into pieces.. my thighs my legs me knees.. all of my lower body's like a log now @_@ the best part is i tried to do baby freeze juz now in studio.. thn walao i slip thn "BANG".. my head got a BIG bun le =
PAIN SIA! %#$&#*$^! after i knock my head i lie there for few min tryin to relax.. cos my brain like black out for a moment =\ OMG super painful.. from that moment on my mood change le.. lol! not change la.. cos like affected headache al the way =\ thn met clover at yishun for "dinner" i'm like super quiet lol! it's hard to believe i'm so quiet la.. =X

yutaki like abit not happy.. cos he say things like he's always kept in the dark bout our outside dance stuff.. hmm well.. we wanted to surprise him =\ but hais.. nvm la.. since it's this way.. we told him everythin le lo.. the cap.. the dance.. sian la! surprises down the drain.. roar!

hmm tml's a special date.. 13th.. 3months ago de tml is a VERY happy day for me.. =\ and 1month ago de tml is also a happy day for me =\.. but al leads to unhappiness.. argh! i hate 13th! =( stupid date! if i can i wil wanna remove this date from every month! ok i'm mad.. my brain's very hey wired today after the bang.. tml's gonna dance! esplanade! haha.. my sec home.. LOL! but my knee =\ OMG dunno how to dance le..

oh and i told si bout my eye prob.. thn she say maybe is the eye got "hole" =\ i duno reali noe wat's that la.. but scary lei! she say carmen kana b4.. say shit but sh went doc thn ok le.. shud i go doc? no no no! cannot! no money le =\ financial super tight now =( gonna save for batam.. save to return ash.. save to return emi.. save for the next part of lessons =\ OMG!

-brain K.O so dunno wat to type also.. havin real trouble even to tink of anythin.. oh ppl.. i'm havin PMS =\ moodswing! n BIGGGGG appetite! if i turn fatter tell me ok!!! i dun wan man! OMG!-

Hehe Haha @_@
Boy am i tired @__@ slpet at 6! OMG! acnt believe it.. AGAIN! RAHH! now have to prepare to go for lesson le.. wuu my horoscope forecast for today sounds not bad wor.. haha.. i'm a cancer-leo.. so this is wat it says..

Cancer..
Invitations won't be hard to come by, and it won't be tough to talk you into accepting them. The most attractive offer will likely arrive via someone who wants to thank you for something wonderful you've done for them recently -- something you've never allowed yourself to be properly rewarded for. This time, don't refuse the gesture. We all deserve our time in the spotlight when we've earned it, and you've certainly earned it.

-hmm thank me? recently i didnt do anythin rite? LOL! i've been bz helpin myself recently.. haha! ok lo if someone wanna thank me i wan a CHINCHILLA! =X kiddin.. haha! juz a chocolate wil do! wahaha!-

Leo..
You're all heart today, ready to lend a hand to hold or a shoulder to cry on.Entertainment is your middle name. You can create an audience just about anywhere, too. You'll have plenty of opportunities to strut your stuff for the next couple of days, and you should take them all. As you well know, you don't need an actual stage to perform. You can do it behind a bar, in the middle of an office staff meeting or via a grand entrance to your own home. Go ahead. No matter where you are, give the fans what they came for.

-OMG i dun wan anyone to cry! =\ i'm al ready.. duhhh i'm always ready for my frens.. but i juz dun wan anyone to cry! =X wah seh i got fans ar! lol! i can entertain? OMG cant believe it! wahaha! come on baby! hit em' up! dance dance dance! wulalalala!-

ok i tink i'm mad.. =\ too tired le la.. and OMG with my cripled leg n half blind eye.. how to dance?! RAHHHHHH! pray that yutaki wil be more lenient today ba! hurhurhurhurhur!

Physically down -________-
today went to dane at esplanade.. hmm ok regarding my title.. i got a half blind left eye.. half cripled right leg due to my knee old injuries.. painful stomach with no reason.. a runny nose which sneeze whole day and lastly a very warm forehead -_______- ok in conclusion.. i'm darn sick =
haha.. but nothin's gonna stop me from dancin n enjoyin my life man! =D today we completed the second song for our choreo! YAY YAY! "salt shaker!" haha =) rocks man! i kinda love this more thn "get busy" wahaha =X maybe more original ba.. heehee! glad i contributed to this choreo also.. sweat like mad.. haha.. real shiok ar! oh and today esplanade ALOTTTTTTTTT of ppl.. LOL! bikers, breakers, inline skaters, dancers and even the jugglers.. -_____- haha

shiok sia! very long dun have this feelin le =) everyone workin hard for their individual interest n dreams.. WUHU! al the best man! shir's mad today! we were playin thn suddenly she like piggyback me thn i almost peng LOL! emi say i'm mad =\ dunno la maybe i reali abit sot sot lol! =X play alot today haha =X

hmm i also let emi listen to the song "ban guan ke le"(half a can of coke) by renee.. it's a damn nice n meaningful song heehee! wil post out the lyrics (translated) =) it's somethin i wanna say to my crew! after dance went home with jason.. hmm took the last train.. ok saw him but didnt say hi.. (i'm not rude but far la) =X ok anyway.. me n jason went to 848 to slack n chat.. haha

chat ALOTT sia! bout our sec sch.. everythin.. haha! ok if u ppl dunno, he's my sec sch junior =) we chat til ard 4am LOL! madness! i'm not reali tired la.. but cos actually meetin si online LOL! end up she KO le! haha sorry! =X so here i am alone -_________- no one's online.. sian! nvm la.. i blog n wait for my hair to dry thn can ZzzZzZZZz le haha =)

oh and jon wore the tee i gave him de today! wahaha! looks abit big la =X but stil look nice =) wah seh.. it was my dream to see him wear to ride =X but the dream was last time de la.. erm ya that period.. but now see le also happy =) like he appreciate it lor =) waliew he sweat like mad sia! IN THAT TEE!!! LOL! but nvm la.. cute! haha.. thn he n jason play like siao lang! LOL! madness! reali reali funny!

oh and jason didnt noe we break le LOL! he ask.. "he nv send u home ar?" i'm like HUH?? lol! thn i told him we break le.. thn he's like "WTF! when?!" thn i say ard 1month plus le.. haha.. he WOLS la! LOL! thn he say "but u al like stil very close lei.." DUHHHHH! we're gd frens now =) lucky both of us mature enuff to be frens after al the nonsense.. lucky ar! damn lucky somemore can be gd frens.. haha! anyway he's my FIRST ex who can be soooooooo gd frens back de.. LOL! the rset are TOOOOOOOOOO childish! cannot stand it! maybe one day la.. maybe one day we'll be gd frens back.. =)

ok here's the song which i talked about =)
DEDICATED TO MY V.I.P N MY NEW CREW TO BE!
LET'S WORK IT TOGETHER!!! and ppl.. even if i join foreign bodies i wont neglect u ppl de! i mean it!!! trust me ok! u guys are my priority! PROMISE! muacks!

Renee-ban guan ke le (half a can of coke)
whenever i sing this song, my heartbeat raced..
the touched of anxiousness always there..
i had never leave..
and i'll never forget u're stil waiting for our future!

-yea no matter how far i accidentally leave.. i'll never forget u ppl r waiting for me! let's work it tgt! we got the damn same passion n al of us come from similar backgrounds! broken crews =\ but no worries! we're strong n gonna make our crew stronger!-

rap:
reminiscing memories
i just can't seem to quit laughin'
dissin' and ditchin' getting caught cheatin'
and then we still be chillin'
us living in only our world cuz that's all we could afford
everyday a different way we looked at life more than words could say
growing up i won't forget cuz those…. were the days

-omg i tink of al the past! the times we had at avalon! the incubation prog! the madness we had during our practises for kirei da! the time when we slack at cafe! LOL! OMG OMG! flashbacks!-

u're always there with me for my dream..
even many years down the road, we stil must gather together..
and like now, open a can of coke..
sharing it and never seperated!

-some of u had always been there for my dream! we had been workin tgt since dunno when! haha =) yesh! we muz stil stick tgt even after years! even we got our own kids! remember? our kids gonna learn dance tgt! =) -

maybe failure are bound to happen..
and even if we're not the number that they tink..
the world is ever changin.. dun wanna regret..
life's short! i onli wan it in my way!

-failure confirm wil have.. we've gone thru some.. and ppl.. thou we're gd.. but we'er stil NOT THERE! so am sure more more more failure wil come.. more of us wil wanna give up at times liddat.. trust me.. it's juz depend on how the rest of us help one another le! even me! i might wanna give up one day.. but pls scold n wake me!-

rap:
going on our separate ways
we've never seen our future
until now letting me go
and left our past inside the soul followin me
cuz all of my feeling are
in words and harmonies
so deep inside
a tune that'll remember us by
you'd be feeling fine.
this song of mine hoping
we could turn back time

-maybe one day we reali wil go our seperate ways.. but i seriously dun wish that day to come =\ but even if it comes.. remember always.. u guys had already proven that u guys created the MOST beautiful memories in me! be it the happiest! the saddest or the angry ones.. they are the extremes of my life! haha =) -

there's a new world awaiting me to discover..
inside my heart.. u're actually stil in the first place..
goodie frens sharing empty seats..
front, back, left or right.. our laughters are so roaring..
i wish our dreams come true..

-we discover new things everyday.. new frens.. new faces.. new happenings.. but to me.. old frens are the best! cos they had proven that no matter wat shit happens they'll nv leave u! these are the ppl i reali wanna share my happy moments with! laughing out real loudly.. dun care bout image n juz laugh! =) -

let's wait!
cos eventually there'll be a day..
the kinda world we wan wil be here..
let's use half the can of coke to share the feeling..
onli u can understand.. let's welcome our world together!

-i'm damn sure! the day which al of us has been waiting for wil come! the best dancer! the dancer that shines on stage! we wil rock the stage eventually! i believe nt many ppl can truly understands us.. cos we had gone thru TOO much! all the downs and al the ups.. reali reali had bonded us closer to one another!-

i seriously love u guys so much! MUACKS MUACKS! heehee.. i stil can remember whenever i'm down.. how u guys tried to force me to dance to relieve it.. i stil remember how shir u always try to make me smile.. i remember how si.. u cried for me.. i remember whenever i need someone to talk to.. emi..u're the one.. i remember how everyone juz cares for me so much! OMG i'm so lucky to have u al! =D God.. thank you! i dun nid more frens le.. these are enuff! =)

-ok i noe many of u wil say to me "ehh ur post can dun so touchin one ornt" -______- especially from si n emi.. LOL! i try my best to be not so touchin le la.. but i acnt stop typin when i tink of them haha =) too bad.. hope u al cry! thn i can leave my "crybaby" label liao.. wahaha!-

wahhhhhhh ytd jialat nite i had =\ miss bro(s) like siao.. b4 i slp the flashbacks keep comin back.. wah! OMG OMG.. =\ i cried myself to slp again.. sian la! RAHHHH! but i stil miss them.. =\ ok nvm.. it's ytd.. ytd's the past! not gonna tink! haha =)

today's gonna be better! yay! haha! goin dance later at esplanade.. hmm i love to go on sat.. cos sure alot of ppl! can see ppl dance.. heehee! and actually goin zouk after that but that see bingbing cannot go -_______- so not goin le.. anyway..

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CHINYAU!

and

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BRO SAYCHIN!

*muacks muacks*

i noe it's abit er xin to muacks here -_______- but bro complain i nv give him bday muacks b4 ma.. so i POST IT here BIGGGGG! hahaha! anyway bday's tml la.. but i kan jiong haha! time reali flies man.. noe this 2 monkey so long le! haha! chinyau tink got 5-6years le ba.. thn bro got 6-7years le.. wah seh.. old liao.. wahaha! =X my best of the best bro =) may everythin go well for them..

gonna be back to blog bout tonite.. hmm wonder who'll be there.. haha.. hunting for guys! wahaha! =X anyway was chattin with limin.. she's mad! LOL! keep wanting to intro guys to me -______- but nvm la.. more frens.. haha! we'll be meetin out one of these days! yay! i miss her.. my big blur kaka! heehee!

hmm i was blog-hopping.. haha =X and came across my fren's.. no i shud say my fren's fren's blog.. wah i reali respect watever he juz blogged bout man! i feel like pasting juz everythin here.. =\ erm shud i? ok no i shudnt la.. haha no copyrite.. =\ but i'll analyse it thou.. haha..

the post's about "Cherish the past Treasure the present Look forward to the future" he also said things like things changes everyday.. true enuff.. things change everyday! even ourselve.. we grow.. and our thots gets mature each day.. there's nothin we can do to change histories.. there's nothin we can do.. except to learnt from each lesson in life.. life's all about lessons..

be it gd or bad.. i always have this beliefs that no matter wat bad things happened, somethin gd are bound to come outta it =) leanr from the past n move on with life! apply them to ur future and that's wat makes living worth while =) dun dwell! but learn them n apply! if u wanna tink bout "omg y that happen?" u might as well tink bout "how am i gonna make things better tml?" rite?

he also said "The friends and the universal around us is unique and only to each individual." guess this means everyone is special, every incident is special! be glad it happened to u.. cos even if it's bad, u learn from it.. nobody else wil go thru the same shit as u.. be glad u get the chance to learn it..

"since life is so unpredictable, why not we welcome it with open arms and with a smiling face." yea.. in fact even if the worst of the worst times were to come, face it! face it bravely! dun runaway! cos it's the world's most stupidest thing to do.. cos end up u'll have to face it eventually.. agree?

"The burden you let off will be the leaves floating away with the flow.and never come back into our life.The sadness you hold on in your heart is the rock and sand rolling under the stream that keep on drilling into your heart, hurting you even more.LET GO WILL GAIN U FREEDOM AND HAPPINESS" life's of a choice.. choose to let go.. or to hold on.. erm.. wat he said here i wil relate it to BGR.. past r/s.. when u choose to let go of them, thou it'll be painful n hard to.. u'll eventualy find happiness.. when u choose to hold on.. like i've said in my previous blog, "dwellin" u'll die sooner or later.. LOL! cos it'll hurt u more, haunt u more..

ok i tink i've tried my best not to post his post out le.. =X aiya nvm la.. he wont read mine too wahahaha! but is eriously like this post of his.. somehow somewhat knock some sense into me =) am learning not to dwell any further n am learning to let go.. =) i'm doin well.. and am gonna get better! haha.. ok i'mhavin fever and i'm stil up at this time.. ohmyfreakingoodness! i deserve to die! LOL! =X gonna get some rest le.. dying soon from the headaches and all.. nitey nitez! ZzZzZzzZzZzzzz...