Nuff said (:

感情最忌讳的就是认真 ， 一旦有人认真了 ， 游戏也结束了 (:

simply done (:

Am having a little mind breaking moment with myself now :\ what does the kiss means? what does the actions means? all kiss have a meaning dun they? it's either "iloveyou" or "lets get it started" and the later meant no good here :\ but what is it when it's neither of them? *sigh* it feels good hugging u. it feels good to be able to throw my tantrums in ur arms. it feels good to fall asleep in ur arms. it feels good to have u stroking my head when i cant slp. it feels good to wake up seeing ur slping face rite infront of me. the urge to ask u just wat exact wat position are we in now was so strong but just couldnt force it out of my mouth. i felt happy having u with me. but it was extremely cold and painful after u left without a nice goodbye. and following ur cold smses sucks. had alot of different comments thrown to me regarding u.. some were encouraging while most were disheartening :( the urge to let go and walk away was so strong once again. this dun feel good.. reali :\ wanted to have a nice chat with u but couldnt.. u came online and went offline without saying a thing. guess u were tired. guess God's telling me to hold back my words and tink thoroughly before i speak. oh well. my heart's in a big mess. i'm breaking down :(

help :(
it's been awhile since i last cried over this.

good news! MBS aka IR finally called me! and i'll be goin for a briefing and dunno wat fingerprint censor thingy and photo taking on the 11th of feb and my training starts on 23rd feb xD i cant wait! omg! have been waiting for this day for like 5 months? LOL~ it's gonna be a tough path but i guess it'll be exciting as well xD lotsa new things to learn for me especially :D and lotsa new friends to make! wheee! but kinda sad i cant train with silver and lost :( their training starts on 22nd and they're the first batch.. mine i guess cos they called me too late so have to go with the 2nd batch which starts 1 day later thn them :( i just hope we can be in the same shift thou :D at least i have some smking kakis and i wont feel too tensed =x quite scary to tink of it.. how damn busy i'll be when it starts.. how damn little time i have for my leisure and my games D: meow meow~ let's just hope everything wil be smooth for the next 9 month at least ba :D recently had been quite draining for me lol~ had been tonning at XG for the past i dunno how many days D: it was nice hanging out with frens, having laughter everyday of my life.. at least i noe.. i'm not alone :) and when ytd i'm finally stuck home, walao so lonely X( but i guess it's just parts n parcels of life? tsk~ anyways have started learning dota again LOL!! =x so blur :( had been into a few games recently lol~ when u hang out at lan too much with nth to do, i guess u'll end up trying all sorts of games lol~ well fun :) okies am gonna play a few rd of dota alr (dun expect much it's just me against AI and it's EASY somemore) roar~ gdnites and gdbyes~!

muacks

hmm just got inspiration to hit somethin on my blog and sry to my none-chinese friends cos my chinese suddenly wished to be flaunt LOL =x wrote something like that in english last june for another guy so guess this time could try it in chinese hehe =x here it goes (:

想愛卻不敢愛的感覺。。 有人知道嗎？ 身邊的朋友都覺得我們是不同世界的人。。 不論是外表或性格，我們都不屬于同個世界。。 年齡的差距也令人想笑。。 他們問為什么我會喜歡上你，我卻回答不了口。 或許是你剛好進入了我寂寞的世界吧。。 你那溫柔的聲音，溫柔的關心，搖動了我不想移動的心。 你讓我覺得很特別。。 但我也會跟自己說或許你只是單純的以對一個朋友的好在對待我吧。 當從朋友口中聽到你沒有喜歡我時，心里不知為何會有一股酸酸刺刺的感覺。。 沒有你的消息時，我會感到很寂寞。 看見你的名字浮現在手機銀幕上時，嘴角會不自覺的往上揚。 這。。 是喜歡上一個人的感覺嗎？ 我自己也不清楚了。 真的很不想承認自己已經喜歡上你，卻又把止不住。 之前你說了一個很普通的“sorry”，雖然只是很普通的一個字，但它卻讓我感到好寂寞。。 為了不想再聽到那寂寞的“sorry”，我好想放棄。。 過了幾天再次遇見你，好想永遠把你留在我的視線里。。 永遠也不讓你離開。 雖然只是一下子的有你陪伴，但我想這已足夠了。 謝謝你。。 我這個又傻又單純的好朋友 (:

好想好想你。。
-薇

Few things to update abit bout my boring life ~.~ anyways i'm back to working at speed and today's my LAST DAY!!! woohoo~! kelvin's leaving so there isnt any need for me to stay on either so might be hopping to raining soon :D on wed had abit too much of drinks and got involve in a mini "fight" with that damn bar tender from beerbelly.. got a little push from him and now i'm with my big blue black on my knee.. damn guys who lays a finger on girls >=( anyways, realised that CNY is getting near and damn it falls on v.day ~.~ but oh well since i'm spending a single v.day this yr so it doesnt matter which day it falls on haha :3 haven gotten any idea on wat clothes to get this yr and basically.. i'm not in the mood for CNY =\ i dunno why either meow~ has been missing on catching up with frens recently thanks to my lifeless job.. spending most of my time at work if not home and sometimes at XG bedok.. kinda wasting my life away again X( MBS.. when are u guys calling me :(:(:( i wanna work a proper job and get my life goin! grrr~ oh well.. no idea wat else to hit on my keys here alr.. pray for my last day tonite at speed *amen*