Monday, April 30, 2007

i'm juz plain bored in class.. and cleared my email juz now so am gonna post some nicer ones i think that made me smile at least a bit or made m enod my head while reading it ^^


This has got to be one of the most clever
E-mails I've received in awhile.
Someone out there either has too much
spare time or is deadly at Scrabble.
(Wait till you see the last one)!


DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM


PRESBYTERIAN:
When you rearrange the letters:
BEST IN PRAYER


ASTRONOMER:
When you rearrange the letters:
MOON STARER


DESPERATION:
When you rearrange the letters:
A ROPE ENDS IT


THE EYES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THEY SEE


GEORGE BUSH:
When you rearrange the letters:
HE BUGS GORE


THE MORSE CODE :
When you rearrange the letters:
HERE COME DOTS


SLOT MACHINES:
When you rearrange the letters:
CASH LOST IN ME


ANIMOSITY:
When you rearrange the letters:
IS NO AMITY


ELECTION RESULTS:
When you rearrange the letters:
LIES - LET'S RECOUNT


SNOOZE ALARMS:
When you rearrange the letters:
ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S


A DECIMAL POINT:
When you rearrange the letters:
IM A DOT IN PLACE


THE EARTHQUAKES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THAT QUEER SHAKE


ELEVEN PLUS TWO:
When you rearrange the letters:
TWELVE PLUS ONE



AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE:

MOTHER-IN-LAW:
When you rearrange the letters:
WOMAN HITLER

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Men Are Just Happier People..

What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100. People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected. N ew shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the time.

Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.

Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original color. The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck.

You can play with toys all your life. Your belly usually hides your big hips. One wallet and one pair of shoes -- one color for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look. You can "do" your nails with a pocket knife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.

You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.

No wonder men are happier.

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What is love?

A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders....
"may be there is a bigger one later."

Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him.

Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted..

So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty handed.

The teacher told him,

"...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person...."

"What is marriage then?" the student asked.

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

"The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."

Believe...

And as you believe, You will find reaching gets easier, setbacks get more manageable, life becomes more meaningful.
Baby i still believe - Vivian Hsu & Gary Cao

(Vivian)
卸下美麗的外殼
透明的我們還剩下什麼?
愛情就像水晶球 堅固而脆弱

(Gary)
一個人也許自由
二個人的感動大過天空
喜怒哀樂共同擁有 不讓遺憾留

(合)
Baby~ I still believe 愛可以走過亂流
緊緊握住雙手 一秒就夠
不孤單寂寞

Baby~ I still believe 愛要有夢才會快樂
就算未來的路不同
你在我心中到永久

感覺寒冷時候 我抱你在我胸口
當你淚流的時候 我在這裡不走
愛散發的溫柔 在此刻用心感受
我想和你一起 讓幸福轉動

Baby~ I still believe 愛可以走過亂流
緊緊握住雙手 一秒鐘
不孤單寂寞

Baby~ I still believe 愛有夢才快樂
就算未來的路都不同
你和我 到永久


English Translation

shed our outer beauty
what of us is left when we're transparent?
love is like a crystal sphere, solid yet fragile

maybe being alone gives you freedom
but the feelings of two people are greater than the sky
you have happiness as well as sorrow, don't let regret remain

baby I still believe love can make it through the turmoil
tightly hold my hands, one second is enough
to not be lonely

baby I still believe love needs a dream to bring happiness
even if our futures lead to different places
you'll be in my heart forever

when you're cold, I'll hold you to my chest
when your tears fall, i'll be here, I won't go
the gentleness that love gives, experience it diligently now
I want to be with you, let happiness revolve

baby I still believe love can make it through the turmoil
tightly hold my hands, one minute
without loneliness

baby I still believe that only love with a dream can give us happiness
even if our futures lead to different places
you and me, everlasting


i'll die for whoever that'll sing this with me truly from within..
i yearn for simplicity

sigh.. i'm feeling so down now =( dun ask me why.. nothing bad happened.. everything's fine.. but it's juz me myself and i tinking bout alot of stuffs.. things like are we reali compatible? things like can i fit into his way of living? things like how long wil this last? things like wil those bad days come? things like wat's my bloody useless future? sigh~ and i guess partly due to having PMS ba.. sigh sigh sigh~

i yearn for simplicity.. i juz wan a simple life.. luxury? i dun wan.. if i happen to have it thn thank god.. but if can i'll try to avoid.. especially when i didnt earn them myself.. if i'm someone that work my way thru and earn the luxury life, i of cos will be grateful to god for giving me a gd life.. but if like my bf or husband happens to be a rich ass, or my family happens to strike some lottery or wat.. this kind.. i dun wan.. cos it's not mine.. i stil believe we shud earn wat we wan or live on in the future ba..

he could be some rich successful person in the future.. and i think it'll be much easier for him cos he got al the experience, certs, chance.. plus he got backups ba.. but me? wat am i? look at me.. i'm juz a useless dancer.. i'm juz a poly yr 2 student.. and my cert aint even about some nice business or science.. i'm juz a arts student.. ARTS! something that most rich wil despise.. how do i go about telling the rich that "hey i'm a dancer" or "hey i'm a event manager"?? wat kinda reaction wil i get in return? it's NOT impressive i swear.. sigh..

but stil this is the path i chose.. i have choices in the past to go for private science cert.. or interior design (which MIGHT be better thn my course) but i gave them al up for one word.. "passion".. sigh~ stupidity? to me i dun tink so ba.. juz wanna be wat i wan to be.. the life i wan.. in fact i guess.. when i have a happy family of my own.. everyday end work got a nice sweet hubby beside me to give me a hug and peck on the cheeks.. with kids running to give me a nice hug and make me smile.. a family dinner and tv session.. that's pefect le ba..

even if we were to juz stay in a small HDB flat.. with our lil small car.. i'm grateful le.. i juz wan peace.. afterall these shits i go thru at this age.. i guess i deserve a nice and peaceful life after i found my mr right ba.. many says money or status are not impt in a r/s.. but stil.. i'll tink of how the family tinks of me.. how pthers look at me.. that's y i refrain from rich frens.. and it happen so that ppl ard me are all RICH! argh~ why?! =( i'm not envy nor jealous.. it's juz.. i dun wanna feel inferior.. i feel bad when i cant go wherever they wanna go.. i can do the activities they can afford to do..

but one thing i needa thank god is this past 3days we've spent tgt.. reali did enjoyed myself even thou it's super tiring.. but stil i thank god he's as nice as ever and of cos i hope this 3 days did bring us much closer to one another i mean emotionally wise.. i had enjoyed al the laughters, dinners we had.. the pinic was a nice one.. and the chats were nice.. the hug to slp were nice and the pats on head.. his lame dreamtalk were nice too ^^

sigh~ i dunno how long this wil last.. i dunno wat we'll end up as.. i dun even noe wat i wan.. i dun even noe how i feel.. i reali am lost.. so lost in a maze.. who'll hold my hand and guide me out? who'll show me the light and bring back my smile? who'll love me the way i need and wan? sigh~ where are u and who are u? =(

hold my hands..
never let go..

Thursday, April 26, 2007

I need a miracle - Plus One

Tell me what's it gonna take
I'm running out of prayers Lord
Can't you see I'm helpless
Down here on my knees
I'm begging you please
There's nothing left for me to do
I need a miracle from you

I'm tired of days
That feel like this
When hurt is like a rope
Wrapped around my wrist
I know your listening
I know it's in your hands
But still I'm out here in the dark
I just don't understand (understand)

Tell me what's it gonna take
I'm running out of prayers
Lord Can't you see i'm helpless
Down here on my knees
I'm begging you please
There's nothing left for me to do
I need a miracle from you

I know you're tired
With plans to keep
Off saving someone's life
Or calming stormy seas
But I'm not asking you
To bring me back the moon
All I need is a little help
That can only come from you

Tell me what's it gonna take
I'm running out of prayers Lord
Can't you see I'm helpless
Down here on my knees
I'm begging you please
There's nothing left for me to do
I need a miracle from you
How long can I go on this way
I need you to plead my case
To turn this thing around

Tell me what's it gonna take (what's it gonna take)
I'm running out of prayers Lord (out of prayer lord)
Can't you see I'm helpless (can't you see helpless)
Down here on my knees (I'mmm onn my knees)
I'm begging you please (I got nothing left to do I'm callng you Lord)
There's nothing left for me to do (I'm begging you pleeease)
I need a miracle from you

Tell me what's it gonna take (what's it gonna take)
I'm running out of prayers Lord (What's it gonna take, Lord)
Can't you see i'm helpless
Down here on my knees
I'm begging you please
There's nothing left for me to do
I need a miracle from you

beautiful lyrics.. i can feel it perfectly..

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Just when I chose to walk away, u tell me u wan me back.. how do u expect me to accept al this? Humans leaves when they see things are in vain.. it’s just human nature.. applies to me as well.. I’m a girl.. I need someone to love me.. someone to care for me.. I’m tired of waiting and fear of losing u.. every single minute I’m thinking “he’s with another girl” or “he might be happily talking to another girl” what am I to u actually? Til now I stil dunno..

How can u say u wan me and stil loves me when u can walk out on me over something so minor? Doesn’t that says that u dun love me enough to want me that much? now I think back.. why do I have to go thru al the sufferings for nothing? I did nothing wrong during the days with u but yet u chose to let me go.. u broke this heart and killed it totally.. someone came and tell me that u stil loves and care bout me..

How do u expect me to accept that?? Ur ego and ur own confusion have totally lost me.. that’s y I always say “cherish” but u didn’t! u failed to keep me when I’m stil straying around at ur door.. u failed to hold me back.. this few weeks of ignorance have totally totally lost me.. and if u reali wanted me that much, why do u keep asking me to move on? Why do u keep pushing me away and onli to tell me now u wan me? Dun u noe there’s a song “too little too late”?

I’ve been suffering al these while when u left me.. I’ve been waiting for something which seems hopeless.. I didn’t mind and just kept waiting for u to turn at least to look at me.. but u didn’t.. u kept me hanging.. “I dunno” is al I get when I raised our issue.. what do u expect me to do? Keep on stayin til I get old and not to have any happiness? I’m sorry.. I’ll say again.. I’m a girl and I need love..

Since u chose ur ego over me.. since u chose to hang me there n not giving me a answer, since u chose to let me go that day.. I guess like wat u’ve said before “we’re just not meant to be”

Sometimes I really wonder.. what the hell have I done, to deserve al these? To lose the one I once truly loved with al my heart.. to lose my emotions al in one night.. to cry myself to slp everynite and to make my life go down down down.. I was never a player.. never even intended to be one.. I wasn’t even a raider that goes ard slping with every guy I noe.. I may sound thick skin here but I’m stil gonna say this..

I’m a girl that can be a good girlfriend.. I’m someone that can shower u with love and concern.. I’m someone that stays more faithful than a dog to it’s master.. I’m someone that can do anything.. and I mean ANYTHING for the one I love.. but why?? Why do I stil get al the unfair treatment? Why do I get pushed around like nobody’s business and when I chose to give up, the one always turn back and say they wan me back??

Humans honestly failed to realize who are the precious ones and who they’re suppose to cherish.. they are the ones who ruin their own happiness.. blame no one! But ur own ego.. maybe I’m not good enough for u.. I have a UGLY past and I smoke and I drink which u hate a lot.. I guess there’ll be many girls dying to be with u out there for u to choose..

go ahead.. u dun have to worry for me anymore.. I know perfectly well how to take gd care of myself.. and what can be worst? How more hurt can I be when my heart had totally been shattered by al the breakups al these while? Guys after guys.. I fell in love and gets dumped like a old toy.. my heart can no longer feel.. bring back my heart.. in one piece.. promise not to break it.. and I’ll be yours.. who wil u be? I have no idea..

I’ve never felt any of my broken r/s is a waste.. but this time I felt it.. who let who down? Who is the one that throw this r/s away? It’s a grey line I guess..but whatever will be, will be.. if we’re truly meant for one another, may fate bring us back together one day..

Once again.. sorry to have been bugging u and making u feel bad or sad over me.. it’s ok now.. everything’s fine.. and I’ll be strong to be myself once again.. I’m loving my life and loving everyone ard me.. frens are al I have left and I wil cherish them til the end.. even thou I’ve been betrayed by love umpteen times, I stil trust in it.. may u trust in love too.. may u find someone that’ll love u as much as I did and someone that u’ll cherish too.. may she be there for u whenever u need her and may u do the same.. may she guide u out of all ur confusion and tamed the devil within u..

All these.. I tried.. and failed.. so I’m back to square one to where I originated from.. the iko that everyone once know.. the ever happy ever cheerful everyone knows.. I dun wish to wear a mask again.. faking my smiles in front of u and everyone else.. hiding my pain deep within me.. the feeling simply is unbearable.. trust me when I say that.. cos I’ve been thru it farrr too deeply.. may happiness finds u soon.. and not forgetting.. may happiness finds me too..


with al blessings from me to you
my last tear for u have shed..
may that be our one last kiss..

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Here's my emo script lol~ 3 person contributed to this script and i will use colours to represent who did wat =) this is the picture that we are suppose to write a monologue on to present on arts central (at least that's our problem statement of the day la) so here we go..



By Aini:

(little boy woke up, yawned & stretched his hands.)


Little boy:That was a nice nap I had.I’m so hungry.Where’s Grandpa?

(looked around in puzzlement.Saw what became of his house.)

Little Boy: What happen to my house? Why’re there so many people around?

(saw Grandpa; who’s back is facing him. Ran towards him)

Little boy: Granpa! Granpa!

(pulls Granpa’s pants)

Little boy:Granpa! Why’re you crying?Granpa I’m scared.Granpa don’t cry!Why is there so many people here?

(saw what/who Granpa was holding.gasped)

Little boy:Granpa! I’m here.Granpa!.I’m not dead.I’m here.Granpa! No!!! No!!!!!!

(Starts crying)

By Me!! ^^:

(music fades in)
(actor gets into serious tone)

Life.. (pause for 1 sec)


We’re given a chance to live and experience life..
Which is full of hope and dreams..
We lived in the hidden truths of when we will die..
We live in fear of death..
But what’s there to fear when death is just emptiness

We came to this world alone..
And we have to leave alone..
Just like a shooting star that burns brightly while it travels to it’s neverending destination
And to disappear when the time is up..

My time went up not long after I receive this precious life..
I had not much chance to experience and understand what life is..
Other than life is precious and fragile..

Where will I be when I’m gone?

By Amir:

Why does it all have to end up this way?

Life… Where’s the fairness in this privilege of living in this once peaceful place?
Does someone else have to suffer each time a soul returns to Elysium?
Why do Elysium that brings joy, shed tears on living mortals like death does?
Life… If that’s what life is supposed to be, what’s the point of us living?

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nice nice?? lol =X this is why i have to force myself to be emo the whole morning ytd -.- ok anyway it was a good presentation (according to faci's comment la ^^). the reddish parts is what i got after few hours of suffocating myself with emo songs and emo stories on the webby lol =\

ok anyway, since i'm talking bout sch work here, i shall post some of my funny faci's comments for me for the first week lol~ i cant stop laughing at it when i see them.. al i can say is they honestly dunno me well enough lol!!


Directing & performance - Having prior experience does come in handy! I’m hope in the following weeks you can relate and share your experiences with us too. I think at the end of the day, every director sees things differently. Different perspectives are what makes us humans so interesting don’t you agree? I hope that you will strive to find that vision in you :) I would really love to hear you speak up more in class, especially with your related experiences! Grade C.

History of Arts - Iko: We like your voice. It has a charming, quiet and confident charm. Your sharing was quite concise. Good effort for a first time presentation. Grade B.

Digital Media Arts - You handled the Q & A quite well though I find your knowledge on digital media a bit lacking. Please do additional research on your own to understand certain terms and concepts. Its good to keep yourself abreast with the technology available around you. Good participation during the meeting and presentation. Remember! Its all about learning the concepts not the tools itself. Tools will be obsolete but understanding the concepts and coupled with your experience dealing with the problems is the utmost importance.
Keep up the enthusiasm. You'll only get better from here. Grade B.

Arts criticism & analysis - I felt that you are rather unsure of the problem today. However, the intention of the problem today is not about elements nor priciple of art. Its about the question of need to define art. Art is there only when we define it. If everything is art, everything could potentially be NOT art too. Dont you think? Put on the critical thinking cap and work out the ideas with your team before meeting 2 so that you wont go off tangent in meeting 3. Grade C.

the red highlighted ones are the ones that i seriously think is NOT true -.- lol!!! me quiet?! my faci juz doesnt noe me well =X and for the last module arts criticism & analysis, I HATE HIM! he simply is a !@#$%^&* guy! *hurmp* and there's 1 more module not graded yet ZzZzz.. ok i guess my grades arent that bad as a first week grades :) let's pray i get better grades in this week ba ^^

anyway ytd.. wasnt reali a gd day for me :( he's not feeling very gd so does me *sighs* wont be talking bout it much but stil.. everything boils down to we wish to see each other but restricted by time.. :( oh well.. may today be a better day for both of us.. back to lesson~ bb all..

when u're down
i'll be ur teddy bear
i'll be ur clown
as long i could see u smile..

Monday, April 23, 2007

am in class now.. tired @_@ missin him lots.. ytd was a wonderful day and yeap i'm even willing to let go if history repeats.. i'ver learnt to be more independent and yes! i dun need a guy to live =) i dun ever wan someone that doesnt love me or doesnt cherish me anymore.. had enough of keep giving in in a r/s.. and now.. i'm out~ outta here to search for my own happiness.. i just wish to settle down.. even tog ive up my life of enjoyment.. i wil give up everything else.. except dance of cos~

today's module is directing n performance.. gotta write a monologue on this picture which is qutite a sad pic.. about a lil boy died in a disaster.. hmm wil post it up later in the nite my whole presentation =) am actually kinda forcing myself to be emo lol~ so funny la.. first time in my life have to be forced to be emo -.- juz managed to squeeze out something so hopefully can touch the hearts of al my classies ^^

goin for lunch soon!! whee~ and am having terrible headaches =( hope later wil be fine soon ba.. gawww~ missing him.. missing them.. and missing the old iko =( oh well.. no more emo le!!! bahh~~~ i better go do work le.. buai buai ^^

if u're not true..
leave me now..
i'll be fine if u leave now..

Friday, April 20, 2007

YAY~

new bloggy skin ^^ this is the first time i actually use a week to finish a skin -.- YET it looks so simple lol!! =X actually am looking for a simple skin.. and happened to be inspired to do this out =) it's PURE original work OK!!! XD so proud of myself ^^ actually was looking for sii's bloggy that pic of a cup of coffee with 4 sugar blocks of the word LOVE in it to do a skin one.. but thn she's not online and she deleted her blog -.- so i came up with this super original sugar blocks too hee~

oh why sugar? haha~ no idea why too.. but i juz like the word sugar nowadays ^^ "will u be my sugar?" haha~ nice theme ehh? this is how i get al my inspirations for my work ^^ my next aim is to do something on the theme "hush" have been using this word alot on my blog but haven have any idea how to make it into a skin =\ inspiration inspiration come come!!! X( this is skin is super simple but i'm super loving it ^^ haha~ maybe due to a too complicated phase in life, i prefer thigns to be simple now ba =)

anyway.. sch had started and ya i'm back with my normal routine of goin sch, go home, online, slp.. =) well.. simple.. sucks.. lifeless.. yes indeed.. but still i'm happy that i'm peaceful now =) ok gotta run home to catch some slp to cure my pathetic pimple T_T and thn off to somewhere! whee~ i have no idea where thou but it's a frigging FRIDAY!!! time to enjoy!! woohoo~ gdbye all~ *loves*