a reali nice song.. thanks to mr K for sending me..

終于說出口 - 小宇

你終于說出口
其實你早就已經不愛我
為什么要低著頭
你知道這玩笑騙不倒我

可是這不是玩笑
是要逃避你離開我的理由

我還能做什么
你已經不愛我
我一直都愛著你
難道這還不夠

我還要做什么
你才不離開我
我知道你已無心
再繼續看著我
一心想離開我

我終于也說出口
其實很愛你
但從沒認真說過
或許是我的錯
多在乎你卻只放在心中(Yeah)

不要問我為什么
因為愛你這就是我的理由

我還能做什么
你已經不愛我
我一直都愛著你
難道這還不夠

我還要做什么
你才不離開我
我知道你已無心再
繼續看著我

沒什么需要被原諒
我笑得有些牽強
你知道我總是能夠假裝不難過
Oh不想看你那么累
多希望再給我機會
顫抖著我的手
握住的只是風

我還能做什么
你已經不愛我
我一直都愛著你難道這還不夠

我還要做什么
你才不離開我
我知道你已無心再
繼續看著我一心想離開我
oh no no...

u said i've stop loving u.. u said i no longer wants to be with u.. these may seem true on the surface.. but deep within.. u'll be someone i'll never forget.. time heals and life brings new things and old memories wil be washed away? i'm sry i'm reluctant to let go.. i loved u so~

we've place an end to the torturing chapter.. i guess it's time too.. no point dragging and making things untouched end up making the wound worst for one another.. it's just like holding onto a knife so hard even thou u're already bleeding terribly.. the best choice is to let go.. tears flowed non stop.. but i guess i'll make it my one last good cry and continue moving with the world's spin.. in fact.. we should smile instead cos it's for the best for all =)

thank you for these beautiful memories..
no one have ever been so good to me..
you made me understand wat is "love someone unconditionally"
i guess.. fate love to play us up.. the right guy but alot of wrong timings..
i wont ever forget u.. =)

**onli heaven knows**

emo~ something i havent been feeling for quite awhile.. i wish i'm dead so i dun have to worry and get myself vexed over anything at al =\ why does it hurt so much? why? =( someone~ anyone.. save me..

*broken once again*

this is when we take a break.. a break from quarrels and cold shoulders.. a good nice cooling off period is definitely urgently in need~ will this be a right move? or wil this mark the beginning of the ending? fate shall decide..



may peace bestow..

had a real nice chat with my dearest darling fairy just now =) from some real serious emo chats to some crapping lame chats LOL~ anyway just wanna highlight this thing here.. we were talking bout dream mariage proposal.. and initially was special and nice til we added oil to it's romantic-ness til it became darn funny lol~ =x

darling's was that her husband-to-be would propose to her underwater when they dive.. woolala~ real hot serious special but definitely not for weak hearted for the fishes ppl like me lol~ i tink if i were to go underwater most prob within 1min i faint liao =x let alont wait for him to propose.. lol!

and here's mine.. i didnt reali planned or dream of it before.. but up til now, my dream poposal would be in some romantic country like vernice or rome? thn at the open space there with al the ancient beautiful buildings ard us.. my dream prince half kneel there wearing full white tux and holding beautiful flowers and with pigeons flying, he propose to me.. sweet rite!!! T.T BUT due to lack of slepe and some craziness in my brain, we add..

imagine he said "would u marry me?" we gaze into each other's eyes so emotionally, some pigeon pooped on him =x spoiler! but seriously.. if that reali happen, and he never get angry AT ALL (not even the slightest bit) i'm so gonna marry this guy for sure~ lol~~ a comical proposal is cute to isnt it? :) but oh well.. marriage is something soooo far for me i dun wanna tink X(

another dream proposal is nearly impossible la but i'll write it here anyway lol~ i dreamt of my prince charming wearing ful white tux.. playing a full white grand piano.. a song that he wrote for me, singing for me.. after singing, stood up hold the flowers that was on the piano, walk towards me.. half kneel and propose! omfg~ i'll faint by thn lol! but in order for this to work.. he must be a damn good singer =x if not all the purpose would b defeated lol~ but oh well.. it's a DREAM~~ haha =p dreams are meant not to come true lalala~

back to reality.. darling and me was talking b out my current situation in my r/s with my dearest.. sigh~ i dunno wat's happening.. but the conclusion was.. we need to talk and maybe take a break from each other.. =\ sigh~ darling said i suit dating more thn r/s.. i kinda agree too according to my playful character.. it's hard for me to commit. it's hard for a guy to accept a girl this playful~ and of cos even if he can accept, i wouldnt like it either cos i noe he wont be happy~ argh i deserve to die X( i go slp le.. gd nite~

r/s is something i shud stay away from..

woots~ finally i'm facing something i never wanna face in my entire life lol =x getting a driving license!!! X( felt that i HAVE to get it by hook or by crook as it somehow is a symbol of status in the society.. and it definitely will help me in my career alot next time.. at least it'll provide a much more convenience lifestyle for me.. am gonna take my BTT on 17th july.. tmd~ wanna get it on my bday but it's fully booked =( so.. wish me luck!!


and here is a very random pic lol~ it's actually from my facebook.. my petpupz Miko, won champion in the obedience challenge first time in his entire life lol!! damn funny~~ feel free to visit my westie Miko :D


and i was bored so i was playing with tarot on the facebook thingy.. well cant really understand wat nonsense is it saying.. but here is it.. anyone love to interpret it for me? =x