Cant stop complaining~ i'm REALI tired~! >.<>.< hurhur~! lucky jun lend me first haha.. but reali feel damn bad borrowin money from ppl.. no choice thou~ we finally manage to get the whole dance + formation out~! YAY~! =^v^= not so worried le.. but stil very stressful cos the place is rather big and it's a external event.. hopefully go'll help to make everythin smoothe~! i went home at about 10pm.. ever since i reach home, i never stop staring at my PC.. was doin my blog.. everyone knows i hadn't been blogging since valentines' day la so muz "reservice" my account haha~! anyway i didnt manage to do this blog too.. thanks to irene that i can blog happily ever again~! haha!! today quite emo lei dunno why also but stil ok.. am stil surviving haha! hmm kinda miss everyone so much.. 5NB,Stellarnine my old frens.. blah blah.. just hope that my life wil be in action again to find my dream~! OMG am reali sleepy now.. lucky tml dun need to work.. haha~ manage to take a day off again lalala~! due to some reason i dun wanna work tml.. feel tat it's the best way for my "recovery" of "injury" haha~! was chatting with dharni a moment ago.. hmm he asked bout HIM again.. argh~! i say i had move on means i had move on.. i'm not lying and i'm reali serious.. 100percent no more feelings maybe hatred~ it'll stay for a time for sure.. purely hatred.. i dun wanna tink anymore bout this thing or this guy cos i simply dun care anymore.. i'm happy with wat i have rite now and i'm gonna cherish every single thing or ppl tat's in my life now.. living happily ever after~! haha~! argh guess have to zZzZ le.. nitex ppl~! ZzzZzZzzZzZzzzz....

Today tired ar.. went to SOKA for dance rehearsal for this sat's performance in the noon til juz reach home.. hmmm quite a funny experience thou.. haha! when we reach there, i saw this board with the words "Kaneko Garden" haha~! Kyohei's surname~!!! my god~! haha! coooooool~! during the actual rehearsal, we al laugh like crazy cos our formation just do today so it's super messy haha!! it was fun thou.. when the music plays, every other performer cheered fo us.. we were damn hyper but when our dance start to cock up.. haha tat's it~! however i enjoyed it thou.. hopefully on sat wont be liddat la~! WAH~! i darn happy~! cos my itunes yesterday FINALLY can read my ipod already~ dunno wat's wrong also.. haha so pray very hard tat it wont happen again la~! Oya recently i heard this song call "shooting star" by boyzone.. it's a very old song i guess.. of some cartoon.. but it's DAMN nice~! go download and listen ba~! highly recommended.. well seems tat my days now are gettin happier.. thou problems are unsloved n worries not done.. tink of them reali cracks my head~! >.<>.< tml dance again.. have to ZzZz soon cos tml got work as well muz wakey at 6am!!! GONE! Nitez Nitez everyone~! *Muacksss*

LOST***
Today was avalon's last day.. i went for the last unplugged(international) and just slack there.. met alot of seasoned artistes and yet alot of new faces.. for that moment, i felt lost.. i just feel tat this is no longer the familiar world i had always been in.. my "family" members from UAN had changed.. seeing everyone bein busy n havin fun makes me feel worst.. maybe it's due the dissolving of my precious Stellarnine and the sudden bloom of new faces.. well.. i just dun wish to care anymore.. i cant do anythin much anyway.. am gonna just concentrate on VIP and earning $$$.. for my japan trip ASAP~ since they wan me to work on my dream ok i will.. dun blame me for being mean n cruel thn..

MR WRONG***
when i see him today, i reali wish i didnt go down.. i just hate the sight of him now.. reali hate it! you may say i'm lyin to myself but NO i REALI HATE HIM! i dun wan someone who dun wan me to be in his life to be in my life.. it takes two hands to clap.. since u dun wan me FINE i wont wan u too.. u are not that important after all.. i have my limits.. and i dun feel bad n guilty anymore cos i know i've done everythin i can to preserve this frenship but u didnt.. so i give up.. in fact.. a boyfriend might be something i reali reali wanted.. but i guess i rather have a boyfriend who reali cares n love me thn someone whom i love so much and yet nothin is returned.. well i'm selfish thou.. i've learnt it from u.. thanks for the lesson.. it reali knock sense into me.. i dun hate u for wat u did but i hate u for not cherishin our frenship..

HAPPY***
hey clover girls.. guess wat? someone appeared! haha! someone tat makes me so happy n felt cared for.. well maybe not to the extend of bgr but at least a brother thou.. i'm so confused rite now.. haha!!! wanna know who?? private talk thn!! haha~! ok nvm DANCE DANCE DANCE!! tat's all on my mind now.. haha!!

VIP***
i'm so happy this few days.. we dance EVERYDAY!! at esplanade.. thou no more nice air-coned studio, no nearer toilets, no nearer water to get.. but i just loved the atmosphere where everyone's working hard for their individual dreams~ shirley had been rather stressed up for this comin sat's performance at SOKA.. tink al of us were.. but hopefully we'll do well tat day.. hmmm as for VIP's dancework n internal matters.. i REALI hope we'll settle them REAL soon ok.. it's sooooo messy now.. MY GOD! >.< but i simply love u guys!!! VIP ROCKZ~! =)

ok i shall end my blog here.. haha hey ppl reali sorry ar nv touch my previous blog ever since valentines'05.. haha!!! now i got no more excuse.. =) nitez everyone..! *Muackssssss*