wah damn sian.. rot at home whole day zzzzzzzzzz.. -.- went downstairs to get some food.. thn stuck home le lo.. did nails as well.. white and green haha.. aiyer my nose too dry, now peeling =( sobsob.. juz watched channel 8 de holland V repeat.. very nice seh.. alot of lessons on love sia.. thn got this part very funny..

got this guy ah huo.. very stingy one but when he and xiang yun getting married, xiangyun was choosing the package.. thn got this package 5K.. thn ah huo say "huh 5K ar" thn xiangyun thot too ex but thn ah huo say "it's too cheap!" lol~! very funny.. but very very sweet.. thn he say he muz exercise to get nice nice figure so take photo nicer lol~ it's like so sweet la.. they so old but stil so sweet lol~

ok i noe i very kame.. nvm i very sian i go watch tv le.. byeeeee

a song i love with al my life.. miss those days where joel wil play for me at avalon.. now who's gonna play for me when he's gone? hais.. dun wuhui.. joel's just a buddy of mine..

X japan - Tears..

doko ni yukeba ii
anata to hanarete
ima wa sugisatta
toki ni toikakete

naga sugita yoru ni
tabidachi o yume mita
ikoku no sora mitsumete
kodoku o dakishimeta

nagareru namida o
toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no
toiki o kanjite

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

LONELINESS YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE

SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE

TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

nagareru namida o
toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai kanashimi o
aoi bara ni kaete

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

(talking)
If you could have taught me anything
You would have found what love is
If you could have taught me what was on your mind
I could have shown you the way
Someday... I will be before you
Have you ever thought about that time?
I never imagined the pictures of that night
For now I will try to live for you
And for...
I will try to live
Try to live the love, the dreams,
And finally, the tears.

translation..


"Wherever we go is okay,"
You said
Now what may have been
Has been stopped by time

On that night that was too long
I had a dream where you left me
Staring at a foreign sky
I hugged my lonliness

My fallen tears
Are piling up on the winds of time
At the end
I feel your breath

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

LONELINESS... YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY... YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOODBYE

SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE

TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

My fallen tears
Are piling up on the winds of time
This feeling at the end
Makes my blue rose change*

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

My fallen tears are piled on the winds of time again
At the end I can feel your breath

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

(talking)
If you could have taught me anything
You would have found what love is
If you could have taught me what was on your mind
I could have shown you the way
Someday... I will be before you
Have you ever thought about that time?
I never imagined the pictures of that night
For now I will try to live for you
And for...
I will try to live
Try to live the love, the dreams,
And finally, the tears.

chalet was gd.. but it would be perfect IF there isnt this thing call the COMPUTER! =( hais.. dunno wat to say la.. glad he spend time with me lo.. but abit sian la.. he is spending time with me.. but is it quality time? i guess not.. =\ spend time emailing.. spend time online-ing, spend time working, getting shows.. thn why call it our honeymoon? =(

why waste the money to go there? might as well stay home.. thot we could watch stars.. but.. hais.. nvm.. am rather disappointed.. i dunno why can for a day get away from my life to spend time with him but he cant.. hais.. nvm.. i should stop complaining.. to him.. work is always so impt.. work work work.. al is work.. if not.. thn dota la, laptop la..

no wonder he's having a degree in IT.. HA~ no wonder.. i dun deny thn i am happy he TRY to spend time with me and make me happy.. and i'm glad he somehow got the hint that at one point i am SUPER sian.. but thn.. why cant it be perfect for juz once?? for juz that 24hrs? or even lesser? if this is how a honeymoon wil be when we get married.. thn i tink i wont wanna marry him ba.. i dun wan a neglected, boring, sad and disappointed honeymoon..

haiz.. watever la.. i go rest le.. leg very pain and am super sick..

hais.. disppointment.. =(

HAPPY 50TH DAY TO MY DEAR!! ^^

yesh today's our 50th day anni.. haha.. he remembered it and so ask me out -.- i thot is for nothing go out.. chey~ haha.. went to cine to watch frostbiten.. not very nice la.. like no meaning lei =\ nvm la.. spending time with him makes me happy =) thn we went to SGH cos kok admitted! lol =X

but he's super fine.. lol~ they al very super lame.. kok act retard and dear took pic lol!!! thn they keep bitching about some bboy and someone else la lol =X names shall not be mention.. and it's juz for fun la.. nothing serious.. haha~ but it's reali reali reali lame til can bang wall! hahaha! thn after that we went home le lo.. dear's very very tired.. and i tink he sick =( but hope he's fine ba.. tues is our chalet!!! XD so excited about it haha =X but ya i reali cant wait to spend a whole day with dear chatting away =)

and now.. my nose is being very naughty as water keep coming out of it -.- haha~ runny nose ar~~~~~~~~~ sians~! i was waken by it this morning -.- siansation sia! nabuis.. !@#)(*&^^&*@# i go see a damn lame webby le.. check it out ba.. http://go.funpic.hu haha~ abit of adult content alrite.. haha~ bye~

ok i'm super super tired! but i have to blog this as a reflection to myself ba.. VIP was the onli grp that got eliminated from the semi.. yeap.. sad huh? yes i am very very sad and disappointed.. not cos we got eliminated.. but cos i didnt do my best.. it's not even my HALF! =\ i totally freak out like mad! MAD MAD MAD!! my mind went black when i step on the stage and it's reali faking a smile, expression.. thou they say it was not bad.. but ya it's FAKE!

i didnt do wrong steps but my timing went haywire and i juz do the steps for the sake of doing.. not dancing at all! i cant feel the music.. i cant feel the atmosphere.. i cant feel anythin except "i'm gonna collapse" =\ serious! i was dancing and suddenly i feel like juz collapse.. =\ i tink i was too tired.. i didnt slp a wink.. ok or rather i slept.. 10min? haha~ but i didnt noe it wil affect SOOOOO badly! comments from dion and the rest were "messy.. iko/xinwei you slow one beat. you're not with the other 2 person" =(

for that moment.. i wan to die.. and i mean it.. i relai feel like juz burst out in tears and juz quit joining any comps.. =\ i felt that i bring VIP down and it was super terrible.. i juz dun wan anything to do with performing or competing anymore.. =( but thn after a whole nite of reflecting and getting comments from ppl who i tink wil tell truths, i tink i shudnt be so discouraged.. in fact, i shud feel the push.. th rush to do better! practise harder and go for more lesson.. and one mroe thing.. NO MORE laziness!!!

dear's comment was.. he tink we mark steps too much during practise.. thus our energy during the actual dance is reali LOWWWW~ and we're not VERY sure of our steps.. =\ erika say we reali got the "wat's the next step?" face =( but onli 1 gd thing i receive is that my expression is gd.. ok not REALI gd but at least i smile and TRY to feel the music (failed).. thn comment from yutaki is that we are not tight.. we're stil doin our own thing..

and he first thing ask is "why u al dun get more ppl?" i tink he means something like if we got more ppl we can play with the formation more and the choreo wil be more exciting.. =\ thn he say we also quite suay cos al the teams very strong.. and thn again.. dear said.. "almost al the teams are from studio wu or instructors so you al are already brave!" and yutaki's glad we joined comps as well as i guess it wil help us learn more and noe where we stand ba..

he also said that if we need help can ask him.. i tink i wil go back to his class.. =\ i reali need classes la.. thou i've improve alot from lush.. but thn again.. i need proper lessons to learn lines and proper guidance as well ba.. i'm way too lousy.. for once i relai tink i am not cut to be a dancer =\ maybe being a pianist is much better.. but.. my fingers are retarded for the time being cos too long nv touch the pianos le =( but no la.. i wont give up being a dancer!!

many say "when u lost once comps, al ur efforts put in went down the drain.." but no lei.. i dun tink so.. in fact i tink that even if we lost, we stil have those skilss that we learnt and those experience added to our "gallery" so i guess afterall no matter wat it's a gd learning experience ba.. and i'm glad that the other competitors cheered for us when we were being asked "who tink VIP wil get into the finals, clap!" i tink it's reali encouraging le.. =)

and lovynn commented that our style is too "hiphop-ish" liao.. cos other teams is reali SEXY! hot pants! small jackets! messy hair! sex moves! =\ and ours is reali dance dance type =\ somemore not sexy dance! -.- so i guess we're out of the theme as well ba.. i'm so so so tired that i cant even blog properly now.. i guess i wil post other interesting stuffs about today, tml ba.. gd nite everyone! and may god help me with my path to my dream -dance..

i wont give up
i wont be lazy again..
i wil work hard!!
i wan to be the best!!!!
and i believe i can if i perservere!
god sees and understands.. helps too..
lovess..

tired tired tired.. my knee super pain =( but thn rather happy la.. everythin done le.. costume, dance, position.. but onli we're not very very tidy.. =( but i tink shud be ok ba.. hopefully can go into finals thn we shall reali clean up everythin.. so excited!!! XD but thn very tired.. tml early sia! 9am!! zzzzz tink i confirm late lol =X but i have to slp soon.. 1 more hour for me to slack online.. after that KO! lol~ but i lik eour costume hehe.. =X tml take pic thn post ba =) dunno wat else to blog le.. oh.. i scare myself thinking that street soul wil join lol =X but nikz help to check le.. they not joining.. hehe haha~ heng ar~ if not can go home liao lol =X ok i go play game thn zzzzzzz le.. nitey!!!!! wish me luck everyone! and may God guide me thru and show me miracle~ p/s: daddy jesus, i reali very guai recently le.. pls help us to dance properly and enjoy tml's show ^^ i got read bible le lei~ complete 2 chapter le somemore.. hehe~ =X

NITE~

received this email quite interesting and i tink it's very true.. so to al guys out there.. pls read this if u wan to understand how to treat ur girls better alrite =) i too naggy i add in a few comments and detail alrite hehe =X

1. If you like her...ASK HER OUT already!!!!!!!!
yes! why wait?!?!?! wait and wait and soon she'll be gone.. true life experience ok!

2. When you hug her, put your ARMS around her WAIST and hold her close!

3. When you walk next to her, get as CLOSE as you can to her
one of my long ago ex broke up cos we're too far apart lol =X

4. If she's the only one in your life, TELL HER. and mean it when u say!
yes MEAN wat u say! lol!

5. ALWAYS let her knows how much you like her, love her, or think about her.
assurance is damn important.. especially to me la =X cos i tink alot.. i mean imagine alot

6. Give her presents and cards for no reason, SHE WILL RETURN THE FAVOUR.. ALWAYS!!!
ok i always do that -.- but NONE of m ex liddat one.. nabeis.. well maybe my bf is =)

7. If she hangs up on you, call her right back.
wahaha! girlssss~ naturally born princess =X

8. Always offer to pay. If she says NO twice, then let her pay but make a deal that you get to pay next time (offer a date too)

9. Kiss her lightly every chance you get.
juz a pek on the cheek will do.. it's damn Farking sweet!!! especially those sudden one.. woohoo =X

10. Look in her eyes and kiss her on the lips, forehead, or nose.
err.. i dun reali like this out of no where.. unless the atmosphere is reali great hehe..

11. If she says she's cold, don't be an idiot and say "Me too" and stand there; give her your jacket or just simply hold her in your arms!
wahaha! i cant imagine a idiot say ME TOO! lol~!!!

12. Don't force her to do anything she's not comfortable with
yes yes yes!!! totally agree!!! ultimate turn off and PISSED!!! X(

13. Invite her to dinner or somewhere where you can talk, instead of the movies.
movies is fine la.. but need time to talk also ma =)

14. Try not to ask her if she's mad at you EVERY TIME you speak to her.
yes yes yes! very the FAN AR!!!! I-R-R-I-T-A-T-I-N-G!! if the answer is yes it means yes if no means no lol~

15. Always tell her you LOVE her only if you really mean it.

16. DON'T pressure her to do anything she isnt READY to do. when she is ready, she will let you know. She just wants everything to be more special and perfect. so appreciates what she does with/for you.
YES!!!!!!! raising both hands agree like mad!!!!

17. DON'T go and tell your friends anything that happens between you two, cause it will hurt her and make her mad...and it will NEVER happen again.
BIG MOUTH lol!

18.When a GIRL is quiet, Millions of things are running through her mind.
sometimes many til dunno wat's goin on in our head lol =X

19.When a GIRL is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
this dun applies to me.. when i stop arguing i'm too mad to argue lol

20.When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long will you be around.

21.When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.

22.When a GIRL stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.
we girls can feel alrite.. women's instinct =) and it's 99% true haha!

23.When a GIRL lies on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

24.When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
hehe.. super me la =X

25.When a GIRL says "I love you", she means it.

26.When a GIRL says "I miss you", no one in this world can miss you more than that.

that's all.. and ya.. downloaded afew songs.. old songs la.. got ai ni ka nong by wanzi.. very very nice!!! XD reali super nice.. it's a pop song but it's from canon D =) nice rite haha! and got dear's bloggie song.. ting ni tan gang qin.. by ocean.. very very nice!!! i LOVE the lyrics sia! so sweet! i also wan learn piano!!!! =X hais.. tink le also sad.. =( nvm la.. dance! =) next time work le.. earn money thn learn piano ba.. it's never too late =) i love al the songs hehe~ enjoying them now =) buai buai~

kaoz.. shoppin is much much more tiring thn dancing =\ went to fareast today to shop for our costume.. and.. hurhur nli got the bottom =( nvm la.. tml on again lol~ saw a very very nice top at cine.. but thn onli 1 piece =( wasted.. but nvm la.. shud spend more time on our dance instead of costume =) tml after shop abit thn go practise le.. confirm tml very busy one lol~

but shiok la.. long long no have this feeling le lol~ and it's the very first time al of us get SAME costume lol~ it's always onli colour theme.. now al same =) bobian la.. we dun dance that well.. so must get standard costume so we'll look more neast and clean.. =) dearie seems down this morning/noon =\ but hopefully he's fine ba.. so sad i cant do anythin for him =(

anyway he say he got surprise for me lol~ but no idea wat is it i can onli guess got to do with chinchi.. haha.. ^^ but watever it is i'm happy le la.. =) he so busy stil got surprise for me.. wahh~ =) aiyer i juz had maggie mee =( fat le la! restricted not to eat one lei.. hurhur.. bobian.. too hungry.. =( and i'm broke.. yes totally broke =( juz now spend 40bucks.. and byee~ there goes my allowance for this week =( lucky no sch ar.. if got sch sure die in sch one =(

nvm la.. save abit ba.. omg.. and that means my 6280 GONE~~~ rahh~!!! nvm la.. hopefully can save faster ba.. thn if can win in any comps thn shiok.. hehe.. can use the money buy stuffs.. it's time to pamper myself la!! X( ok i go slack le.. buaiz~

woohoo~ finally~ our dance for this sat is finally DONE~~~ XD YAY~!!! shiok man~ ok i must say it's a relai reali great job done and i'm so proud of ourselves! even if nv win i also happy le la lol~ but now i not very happy =( cos.. MY KNEE VERY VERY PAIN~!!!! X( but nvm la.. =) happy~!! i relai dunno wat to blog le lei.. anyway didnt go to vern's house.. =( cos crop up la.. nvm.. thn went for dinner with jyun and shir.. thn went esply le..

fei join us awhile lol.. cos she thot we goin gin's class =X sorry fei.. this week too busy le =\ thn we dance dance.. thn dearie was there as well.. breaking.. duhh -.- thn liddat lo.. i went home earlier thn him haha.. cos relai tired sia =\ thn here i am sitting infront of my lappie.. juz wrote a few testi for my frens and now blogging.. later sud be gaming ba.. hehe.. a new webby.. very fun! www.greatdaygames.com check it out man!!

and now i'm thinking of aaksing vic to help me get stuffs from taiwan hehe.. he goin tml.. wonder wat can i get.. walao i wish i can go there man.. taiwan.. hurrr~ no i wan go JAPAN!!! tat one far dream la sianness.. by 21 i muz go! dun care! even if i were to rob the bank! =X ok i'm kidding.. police pls dun catch me for it.. ok super sian i go play le.. buai buai~

wat's with giving bad comments? i realise many ppl in this world are forever giving BAD comments.. nothing is gd.. they juz tink that everythin SUCKS big time.. why why why?!?! is it reali that nice to make ppl feel bad? does it makes u feel so gd to make others feel bad? do humans always wan the world to accomodate to them thn they themselves accomodate to the world?? why spend ur life 75% negative? why muz we always tink "that sucks" "this is fuck up" "i dun like that"??? why cant we give more praise and encouragement to ppl?

does praise COST you?!?!?! i reali reali dun get it.. when i was working at haagan daz.. whenever i see customer complain, i feel like slapping them.. i mean.. ok maybe we are in the wrong.. but thn cant u say it in a nicer way? comment instead of complain?!?! does it makes u feel SHIOK after complaining? no rite?! and do u seriously tink that ur complain wil be taken into action? NO! the company or manager listen to it at the most nag at us after awhile everyone also forget about it!

so wat's the point for complaining at make that individual feel bad?? i seriously tink i HATE perfectionist! a little bit of detail also wan "GEI GAO"(hokkien).. why make life hard for others? and i tink la.. when i'm negative towards something, i dun feel gd also.. so why make life hard for ourselves?!?! living in this world is tiring enuff.. why stil make more trouble and worries for ourselves?? why cant we juz "shui bian" de live our life thru? i mean not shui bian as in reali shui bian.. but cant we try to compromise to some stuffs which are not perfect but dun reali kill us?

hais.. i reali dunno la.. i hate negative ppl.. it fucking turns me off.. spoile my mood for the whole day.. yucks.. watever la.. i have no rights to comment on other ppl.. watever it is it's their own life and their own mouth.. if they feel BETTER after they complain thn so be it.. juz leave me out of it.. dun keep nagging and naggin to me.. and i dun like to hear 75% of negative things whenever im with anyone.. so next time got bad comments juz say "aiya not gd la.. nvm bout it." and stop talking about it..

i like to hear positive things.. and laugh at it or smile along with it.. and not negative stuffs and frown over it or having negative thots about it.. so yes.. get rid of anything that is NEGATIVE in ur head.. i'm saying this to everyone.. my fren, my family, my bf, my enemy.. whoever u are la.. juz dun tell me anythin not nice and especially when it has 75% nothin to do with me.. thanks..

fucking hate it when al i hears is bad comments..

tired tired.. woke up early in the NOON thn got big shock by dearie liao -.- cos he called me to tell me that girls nation is THIS SAT!!!! omg *faint* woke up thn mix song whole day and do my nails also hehe.. thn ya got the song done.. FINALLY~ thn gone to esply to pract le lo..

well progress not bad.. got everything done except 1 more song.. yeap =) super tired and shiok lol =X but reali fun.. long time nv dance til liddat liao haha.. wed and fri wil be practising again.. woohoo~ hopefully can get into finals =) and hopefully can win.. ^^ dearie very sweet.. help us go to studio wu to register and thn came to esply =) thn he acc me home also.. nice rite? =) wah i tink without him now i stil dunno about the comp is this sat sia =X

anyway i decide le.. gonna get my 6280! done enuff research on it.. and jianlong got cheap one.. so ya.. but noe deciding on orange or silver lol.. orange is the new one.. not bad.. but sporty.. but i tink i wil get silver lei =\ it's more me.. and the orange one me and kiankuen agrees that it is too colourfull.. cos the keypad part is BLACK.. =\ i tink the designer sucks =X if t's silver it'll be SOOOOO nice la! =( the silver one also black.. zzzzzzzzzz siansation.. but nvm la.. it's a very very gd phone.. i need a phone with gd video la.. dance.. bobian..

anyway here's a pic of the orange 6280.. and thn wil post some lame comics that jarel send me lol =X enjoy!!

this is the very very first time i'm so damn fucking sian over HP >=( i tink.. it's best i dun get one.. yes i dun get one.. wat's the point of getting one when i have one? thou it's not a very gd phone but stil it's a phone.. argh fuck it la.. nabei.. sick and tired of researching researchin and researching.. sick and tired of waiting waiting and waiting and fucking sick of the sianness everytime i felt after noeing the fact that "i wont get a phone cos i have no money" get it? damn it.. i dun wan le la.. i can never get a phone myself.. even if others get it for me i stil spoile it! i cant even take care of things myself! i cant even do simple things.. damn it.. i can never get anything done by my own.. i'm a failure! ULTIMATE FAILURE! X(

leave me alone

woots.. super tired @_@ slept at 6am!!! and woke up at 9am -.- reason.. 6am was cos i watched ghost game with dearie ma.. so alone super dun dare to slp =X thn 9am was cos have to acc dearie go WIN his new phone lol~ ok he won =) w810i lei~!! not a bad phone wor.. sian.. thn at first wanted to sell it so that we can get 2 phones.. but thn the market price is ard 400+ max.. -.- so super bo hua.. so nv sell le..

i ask him to use it ba =) thn now i researching on which phone to buy =\ i'm looking at 6280, w810i and my 3250 =( but mostly wont get 3250.. cos relai abit silly and dumb if i get back =\ but am looking more into 6280 lei.. can record gd video sia.. and it's rather cheap if buy with plan.. might get a M1 plan.. thn it'll cost 268.. cheap rite?! if onli handset is 600+ le~ but thn jason say it's not reali gd lei =\ rahh~ how?!?! =(

aiya nabei.. i worry this 3 days of early morning waking up goin sch first la lol =X last 3 days le!!!! YES YES YES! i'm not happy cos got holiday.. i'm happy cos i can dun nid wake up early!! =X hehehe~ but thn changin classmates.. well.. wat to do.. life is al about seperations =( ok back to today.. oh ya! dear damn sweet.. he bought me MAC BREAKFAST from BEDOK to city hall lei!!! cos i say i wan mac breakfsat but thn the time was like reaching 11am le.. so it's like goin to be no more le.. thn end up woohoo~ he bought it!!! muacks!

thn we ate thn go win the hp.. thn went ard suntec, arcade.. slack play blah blah~ thn 2pm went back to see fuyo perform at the same place lo.. yeap.. thn after awhile we went to pasir ris le.. book CHALET!!! it's like FINALLY! omg.. so exicited!! XD thn we ate ben's and jerry's woots.. i ate alot sia =X thn we went white sands.. thn tamp.. thn back home =) was looking for slippers la =( cant find -.- thn looking at HP too.. nothin much le ba.. we took 969 home.. and slept like PIGS in the bus lol =X

but ya i'm relai happy today =) dearie's so tired yet he try to acc me al he could.. =) but ya.. it's like we meet once a week? at the most twice? =\ so hoping we could spend al time we could tgt lo.. i'm tired also.. but i tink it's al worth it la =) i got the whole week to rest.. why waste my 1 day on resting when i can see him rite =) ok i'm tired.. gotta zzz le.. tml got s-c-h-o-o-l~ BORINGGG~! X( nites everyone..

you make me smile..

siansation.. lol~ juz very sian but happy la.. sian is onli something's that's deep within me.. tat's al =) but ya i'm happy today.. met up with dearie and had a happy day =) watched "ghost game" SCARY SIA!!!!!! =\ i cover my ears and dear cover his eyes lol~! madness! today's alex's birthday.. i noe he wont read my blog but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! lol =X aiya very sian dunno wat to blog about haha.. anyway nites~

this following post is gonna make ppl who love animal pissed like fuck and feels like killing ppl now.. and it's gonna make ppl who cant stand disgusting stuffs puke.. so if u got a weak heart pls do not scroll down.. if youre here juz to KPO about my life.. thn it's ok this has nothing to do with me.. it's juz a email that i received.. and it's a fucking disgusting email and i'm fucking fucking fuckingly pissed now! damn those bloody fuckers out there who do stuffs like this.. may their whole family suffer life worst thn death and may they die a much much much much worst death thn the animals they did harm to.. bloody bastards CB! i receive this email and it ask ppl to pass it ard hopefully it reaches world leaders or stuffs liddat so they could take action against it.. here's a little info about it alrite..

these pictures are taken in norway, canada.. some bloofy fuckers there who're too fucking bored of their fucking life they find FUN in killing baby seals.. they say it's "HUNTING" and it's a kind of SPORTS.. sportsman kill? i didnt noe.. or is it their IQ is so fucking low that they dunno wat's rite to do and wat's wrong? or are they born with cold blood? damn fuckers.. if u relai wanna be some bloody HERO thn go pick on somebody your own size! why the fuck pick on BABY seal??? they're harmless and they did not offend u am i rite?! they are juz swimming ard living their own life.. they have a family of their own too! imagine i killing u how wil ur family tink?!?! fucker.. may u get bang by car the moment u step out of ur house.. get flush down the toilet bowl when pangsaing and may ur dick get stuck in the pussy of ur wife or gf when fucking and may u get chock on ur food when eating.. bloody asshole!



i didnt curse for nothing did i? damn it! it's a BABY!!!!


stil trying to look cool? see how cool u'll look when u get flush down the toilet.. CB

may ur whole family die!

if i see this with my own eyes.. i'll fucking that the watever thing that is and bang it straight into the CB's face!

CAN YOU IMAGINE THIS!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! KNNBCCB NNH NB CB!

baseball bat ehh? i'll use a metal one to deal with u if i have the chance to see u! or i'll stuck it up ur asshole!

if that's ur ship, i hope it ends up like titanic of poseidon! CB

so proud of it?! wait til the world leaders see this.. and ur HANDSOME face wil appear on the criinal list!

OH NO~~~ =....(

omg.. innocent poor thing =\

hurhur =(

i noe i've been cursing like mad but i dun care! bloody cb i hate u i hate u i hate u! ppl who ill treat animals are bloody fuckers and inhumane! they are not fit to live in this world and waste our oxygen and earth's resources! may they get caught as soon as possible and may the animals be protected FULLY!

tired tired tired! lol~ damn tired after practise with vip.. but shiok.. we got 1 song down.. 2 more to go.. woohoo~ today we quite on form.. lol~ choreo super fast.. now i got the trick le.. talk less.. try more. and try ANYTHING you can tink of.. dun say "not nice lei.. weird lei" juz do it! lol!!! after that fly to youth park for practise with lush.. end up.. tml's show POSTPONE!! nabei -.- but also gd la.. need a gd rest.. tired like mad..

now muz concentrate on girls nation battle le.. woohoo~ juz remember that some ppl confirm wil join one.. so guess we reali have to bia loike mad liao.. wahaha~ nvm la.. nv win also nvm lo.. as long as i dun look weird or am labelled as a lousy dancer can liao lol =X or rather.. labelled nvm as long as i can manage to improve and show ppl wat hardwork can do =)

aiyo less talking now.. tired le.. gonna post the mantra that i receive.. it's damn damn meaningful.. trust me.. read it alrite.. =)

these are some boliao stuff i did today lol~ was too bored.. but i did it for my desktop hehe.. i tink it's super nice after i edit anyway lalala =X call me BHB ba.. lol =X initially it was pooh.. but i dun like pooh so it change to..

boom! lion king!!! oh my simba!!!

thn i tink that it's abit too plain so i added mufasa(simba's daddy) dead face in the sky lol =X

nice rite?!?! if lion king 4 needs poster, get me ok?? i wil LOVE to do it for my dearest simba.. =) woohoo~ i dunno why but it seems dearie is happier now =) hopefully everyday's liddat.. thn i also happy liao hehe~ XD muah happy me~ nitey~

woots~ too bored.. so here's some boliao stuff hehe~ but there's a freaky email that i receive la.. i wil post the pics in the email here.. it's about the some "premonition" in USA? lol watever la.. and after al the pics i wil post a super sweet story that have been flying ard on the emails and also this dunno wat sutra from some lama la =X but i find them very nice yeap.. =)


hee this is how my MSN window looks like now =) smart of me ehh??? wahaha~ so fun changing the pics sia~ woohoo~


ok this is the freaky one.. i see le reali hair stand =\ this is the pic of a US dollar showing a picture of the pentagon on fire!!! =

and here's a picture of the twin tower!!!

this one lagi best.. OSAMA!!! OMG! oh and also.. it's on a 20bucks notes.. and wat does 9+11 makes up?? is it coincident? i reali dunno =\ and i dun wish to noe sia.. omg scary!!!!

this is a fun email lol~!! look at the 3 pictures below.. are they moving?? if they're moving VERY fast, u're super stress and cant handle it well lol~ it's true.. in the email it states dunno in which country they actually use this to test on criminals and they see them spinning like mad! lol~ but i see it moving a little bit.. so i guess i can handle stress pretty well ba =)

wahaha~ i name this pig princess iko =X it's so me la~ lol! i love princess.. i love pink.. and i behave juz like a pig =X *according to my dearet bf la..

and when there's princess iko, there's prince larry! lalala~ ^^

andy is so boliao rite! ask me make this.. anyway he ask me to make a funeral one.. i say he siao and die also dun wan make for him.. ma de.. so suay la!!!! and he very lame.. he ask me why i put "andy tee" -.- hello.. tat's his name rite -.-

this one is super super stupid and funny yet useful! lol!!! dman funny.. it's some products from the japanese.. i tink i wil love them!! XD

and here's the story i wanna share from my email.. =)

Dallas- the doctor walked into the small hospital room of Diana Blessing. She was still groggy from surgery. Her husband, David, held her hand as they braced themselves for the latest news. That afternoon of March 10, 1991, complications had forced Diana, only 24-weeks pregnant, to undergo an emergency Cesarean to deliver couple's new daughter, Dana Lu Blessing.
At 12 inches long and weighing only one pound nine ounces, they already knew she was perilously premature.
Still, the doctor's soft words dropped like bombs."I don't think she's going to make it," he said, as kindly as he could.
"There's only a 10-percent chance she will live through the night, and even then, if by some slim chance she does make it, her future could be a very cruel one"
Numb with disbelief, David and Diana listened as the doctor described the devastating problems Dana would likely face if she survived.
She would never walk, she would never talk, she would probably be blind, and she would certainly be prone to other catastrophic conditions from cerebral palsy to complete mental retardation, and on and on.
"No! No!" was all Diana could say.
She and David, with their 5-year-old son Dustin, had long dreamed of the day they would have a daughter to become a family of four.
Now, within a matter of hours, that dream was slipping away
But as those first days passed, a new agony set in for David and Diana.
Because Dana's underdeveloped nervous system was essentially 'raw', the lightest kiss or caress only intensified her discomfort, so they couldn't even cradle their tiny baby girl against their chests to offer the strength of their love.
All they could do, as Dana struggled alone beneath the ultraviolet light in the tangle of tubes and wires, was to pray that God would stay close to their precious little girl.
There was never a moment when Dana suddenly grew stronger.
But as the weeks went by, she did slowly gain an ounce of weight here and an ounce of strength there.
At last, when Dana turned two months old, her parents were able to hold her in their arms for the very first time.
And two months later, though doctors continued to gently but grimly warn that her chances of surviving, much less living any kind of normal life, were next to zero, Dana went home from the hospital, just as her mother had predicted.
Five years later, when Dana was a petite but feisty young girl with glittering gray eyes and an unquenchable zest for life.
She showed no signs whatsoever of any mental or physical impairment. Simply, she was everything a little girl can be and more. But that happy ending is far from the end of her story.
One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near her home in Irving , Texas , Dana was sitting in her mother's lap in the bleachers of a local ball park where her brother Dustin's baseball team was practicing.
As always, Dana was chattering nonstop with her mother and several other adults sitting nearby when she suddenly fell silent. Hugging her armsacross her chest, little Dana asked, "Do you smell that?"
Smelling the air and detecting the approach of a thunderstorm, Diana replied, "Yes, it smells like rain."
Dana closed her eyes and again asked, "Do you smell that?"
Once again, her mother replied, "Yes, I think we're about to get wet. It smells like rain."
Still caught in the moment, Dana shook her head, patted her thin shoulders with her small hands and loudly announced,
"No, it smells like Him.
It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest."
Tears blurred Diana's eyes as Dana happily hopped down to play with the other children.
Before the rains came, her daughter's words confirmed what Diana and all the members of the extended Blessing family had known, at least in their hearts, all along.
During those long days and nights of her first two months of her life, when her nerves were too sensitive for them to touch her, God was holding Dana on His chest and it is His loving scent that she remembers so well.

nice rite?!?! i cried like MAD i can say lol! =X and i believe god is real =) my god.. so sweet la! i ever blog about this but i wan blgo again.. i always have this dream whenever i was down and had a bad day.. the dream is in a empty dark room with onli 1 spot light from top shining on this chair where God sits on and me resting on his lap.. like u noe when we sleep in class on table that kind resting elbow on it thn our head down? ya liddat.. and i dreamt that he sayang me thn me complaining my sad stuffs to him =\ but it's real sweet.. but thn i can never see his face =\ maybe that's god ba =) everytime after that dream i'm sure very happy and relax one.. lol~ like a burden off ar.. =) ok i love my god =) i go slp le! oh no! 5am!!!!!!!!! damn.. i got sch la! cant skip le la! sian! buai!!