like i explained to him i NEVER do anything wrong to him when we were tgt! argh fuck it! i say "i did u wrong when we were tgt" is cos i had feelings for another guy.. why cant he seem to understand? keep tinking i slept with others?! wtf sia~ but watever it is.. i'm moving on too.. it never feel good seeing him with al the different girl each time we met.. but who cares! i wil move on.. for those who cared.. thanks alot.. i felt like a living zombie recently.. but i wil pick myself up once again and be the bubbly iko u al noe (: al he said sounds so beautiful of him and ugly of me.. ever wonder why i cry? ever wonder why i was so scared of him?
when were inside colour zone.. he suddenly grip me and ask for another chance.. i kept mum.. the words are screwing my mind.. and i was already half way gone. but he keep repeating and repeating.. i was seriously fed up.. i said no.. cos i wanna be frens and noe each other al over again.. i stood firm this time round.. cos i wan r/s to last.. not to rush anything and get out of it.. but he cant seem to understand! i was at my limit.. i told him i did him wrong.. but wat i meant was i had feelings for someone else.. NOT SEX! grrr~ am i such a lose person?! fuck!
thn al i remember was he pulled me out of colourzone as they were closing.. thn al i hear was "give me a chance ok???" i went mad.. my mind shut off.. i swear it was literally BLANK~ i never felt so scared.. i broke down.. and next thing i noe i was shouting for susu.. i hid behind her while dan hold him back.. i dunno wat they were talking but i remember susu shouting back.. we board the cab.. and juz when i thot i can finally rest my mind, he was beside me..
i broke down AGAIN~ reach susu place, same thing my mind was in total blank.. i cried and cried.. while susu console me and dan speak to him.. from wat i heard after i was sober, was that they almost fight.. cant believe it.. from that moment on, his mr-nice-guy, sweet-gentle-loving bf image became ashes.. i cant believe this is someone whom i loved and loved me.. where did the gentle guy go? many say "he love u too deep" i noe i noe he love me alot.. but love is not about having the person rite?
love is about the person being happy.. respect.. not everyday meeting different girl, shouting and yelling for another chance.. pushing me to the limit.. i swear i never felt so scared and forced before.. drama? yes~ it felt exactly like a drama.. i have no idea wat's goin on and how things came to this position.. but al i noe is.. the guy i loved deeply with my heart, is gone.. his actions has proven that i'm merely an object to possess and not someone whom he shud love and respect.. i never felt worst in my entire life.. but however i'm gonna be strong.. i dun need love to make me happy.. i noe i'll be happy just by having frens..
i'm sorry to my mum for making her worry.. i'm sorry to my frens who worried bout me.. i'm sorry to myself for tarnishing myself like this.. i'm sorry to everyone and everything.. lastly i'm sorry to him.. maybe we shouldnt even be tgt in the first place.. we noe we dun belong tgt.. yet we chose to go against it and force ourselves to be tgt.. the hand i never wanna let go.. the guy i never wanna lose.. wil al be buried in my memory forever.. i wish him al the best from here on.. like he said.. he need a woman not a girl.. and me? i need someone who can take care of himself and me.. respect and love me for who i am.. supporting me in everything i do.. i wil be strong..
Sunday, February 25, 2007
everything seem to come thumbling down on me.. everyone's shattered.. just by this fucking thing call love.. wat is love exactly? why do we always have to throw ourselves to it and get ourselves terribly hurt? and why do love happen to me at this point of time when i dun wan it to come? my heart can no longer feel.. i can no longer love.. so why do u guys wanna come to me and get urself hurt?! i dun wanna hurt anyone.. thus i chose to be alone.. one side force me to give him a chance again but i felt i need alot of time to be single and make sure i'm ready to be a gf once again.. the other side wants to take care of me and love me and he dun wanna drag on anything anymore.. but again i dun even noe who am i wat i'm doin.. how can i be sure i can commit in another r/s? to be with either of them, i'll hurt definitely the other one.. which i dun wan.. i dun wanna hurt anyone.. i dun wanna lose anyone..everyone is equally precious to me.. worst is wat if i get into another r/s and end up all 3 of us gets hurt?! that's the last thing i'll ever wan to happen.. so tell me wat shud i do?
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
it ended..
dun ask me what happened.. dun rub salt into my wound.. for now at least alrite? abit update here.. i've been drinking since dunno when non stop til ytd.. wat i see everyday is dim lights, alcohol, green tea, coke.. sing, listen, getting emo.. drink, laugh, cry.. wat else? ha~ i'm very lazy to blog now.. maybe gimme a few more day i'll tell u the story alrite?
i'm stil here..
i wont leave..
cos i noe i love u still..
i juz need time to be ready to be a gf..
will u give me the time i need?
or wil u simply leave?
no matter wat is it..
i just wan u to be happy too..
take care and thanks for the 2month of happiness..
i loved.. u too..
dun ask me what happened.. dun rub salt into my wound.. for now at least alrite? abit update here.. i've been drinking since dunno when non stop til ytd.. wat i see everyday is dim lights, alcohol, green tea, coke.. sing, listen, getting emo.. drink, laugh, cry.. wat else? ha~ i'm very lazy to blog now.. maybe gimme a few more day i'll tell u the story alrite?
i'm stil here..
i wont leave..
cos i noe i love u still..
i juz need time to be ready to be a gf..
will u give me the time i need?
or wil u simply leave?
no matter wat is it..
i just wan u to be happy too..
take care and thanks for the 2month of happiness..
i loved.. u too..
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Valentine Day History
There are varying opinions as to the origin of Valentine's Day. Some experts state that it originated from St. Valentine, a Roman who was martyred for refusing to give up Christianity. He died on February 14, 269 A.D., the same day that had been devoted to love lotteries. Legend also says that St. Valentine left a farewell note for the jailer's daughter, who had become his friend, and signed it "From Your Valentine". Other aspects of the story say that Saint Valentine served as a priest at the temple during the reign of Emperor Claudius. Claudius then had Valentine jailed for defying him. In 496 A.D. Pope Gelasius set aside February 14 to honour St. Valentine.Gradually, February 14 became the date for exchanging love messages and St. Valentine became the patron saint of lovers. The date was marked by sending poems and simple gifts such as flowers. There was often a social gathering or a ball.
In the United States, Miss Esther Howland is given credit for sending the first valentine cards. Commercial valentines were introduced in the 1800's and now the date is very commercialised. The town of Loveland, Colorado, does a large post office business around February 14. The spirit of good continues as valentines are sent out with sentimental verses and children exchange valentine cards at school.
The History of Saint Valentine's Day
Valentine's Day started in the time of the Roman Empire. In ancient Rome, February 14th was a holiday to honour Juno. Juno was the Queen of the Roman Gods and Goddesses. The Romans also knew her as the Goddess of women and marriage. The following day, February 15th, began the Feast of Lupercalia.The lives of young boys and girls were strictly separate. However, one of the customs of the young people was name drawing. On the eve of the festival of Lupercalia the names of Roman girls were written on slips of paper and placed into jars. Each young man would draw a girl's name from the jar and would then be partners for the duration of the festival with the girl whom he chose. Sometimes the pairing of the children lasted an entire year, and often, they would fall in love and would later marry.
Under the rule of Emperor Claudius II Rome was involved in many bloody and unpopular campaigns. Claudius the Cruel was having a difficult time getting soldiers to join his military leagues. He believed that the reason was that roman men did not want to leave their loves or families. As a result, Claudius cancelled all marriages and engagements in Rome. The good Saint Valentine was a priest at Rome in the days of Claudius II. He and Saint Marius aided the Christian martyrs and secretly married couples, and for this kind deed Saint Valentine was apprehended and dragged before the Prefect of Rome, who condemned him to be beaten to death with clubs and to have his head cut off. He suffered martyrdom on the 14th day of February, about the year 270. At that time it was the custom in Rome, a very ancient custom, indeed, to celebrate in the month of February the Lupercalia, feasts in honour of a heathen god. On these occasions, amidst a variety of pagan ceremonies, the names of young women were placed in a box, from which they were drawn by the men as chance directed.
The pastors of the early Christian Church in Rome endeavoured to do away with the pagan element in these feasts by substituting the names of saints for those of maidens. And as the Lupercalia began about the middle of February, the pastors appear to have chosen Saint Valentine's Day for the celebration of this new feaSt. So it seems that the custom of young men choosing maidens for valentines, or saints as patrons for the coming year, arose in this way.
Saint Valentine's Story
Let me introduce myself. My name is Valentine. I lived in Rome during the third century. That was long, long ago! At that time, Rome was ruled by an emperor named Claudius. I didn't like Emperor Claudius, and I wasn't the only one! A lot of people shared my feelings.
Claudius wanted to have a big army. He expected men to volunteer to join. Many men just did not want to fight in wars. They did not want to leave their wives and families. As you might have guessed, not many men signed up. This made Claudius furious. So what happened? He had a crazy idea. He thought that if men were not married, they would not mind joining the army. So Claudius decided not to allow any more marriages. Young people thought his new law was cruel. I thought it was preposterous! I certainly wasn't going to support that law!
Did I mention that I was a priest? One of my favourite activities was to marry couples. Even after Emperor Claudius passed his law, I kept on performing marriage ceremonies -- secretly, of course. It was really quite exciting. Imagine a small candlelit room with only the bride and groom and myself. We would whisper the words of the ceremony, listening all the while for the steps of soldiers.
One night, we did hear footsteps. It was scary! Thank goodness the couple I was marrying escaped in time. I was caught. (Not quite as light on my feet as I used to be, I guess.) I was thrown in jail and told that my punishment was death.
I tried to stay cheerful. And do you know what? Wonderful things happened. Many young people came to the jail to visit me. They threw flowers and notes up to my window. They wanted me to know that they, too, believed in love.
One of these young people was the daughter of the prison guard. Her father allowed her to visit me in the cell. Sometimes we would sit and talk for hours. She helped me to keep my spirits up. She agreed that I did the right thing by ignoring the Emperor and going ahead with the secret marriages. On the day I was to die, I left my friend a little note thanking her for her friendship and loyalty. I signed it, "Love from your Valentine."
I believe that note started the custom of exchanging love messages on Valentine's Day. It was written on the day I died, February 14, 269 A.D. Now, every year on this day, people remember. But most importantly, they think about love and friendship. And when they think of Emperor Claudius, they remember how he tried to stand in the way of love, and they laugh -- because they know that love can't be beaten!
Valentine Traditions
Hundreds of years ago in England, many children dressed up as adults on Valentine's Day. They went singing from home to home. One verse they sang was:Good morning to you, valentine;
Curl your locks as I do mine ---
Two before and three behind.
Good morning to you, valentine.
In Wales wooden love spoons were carved and given as gifts on February 14th. Hearts, keys and keyholes were favourite decorations on the spoons. The decoration meant, "You unlock my heart!"
In the Middle Ages, young men and women drew names from a bowl to see who their valentines would be. They would wear these names on their sleeves for one week. To wear your heart on your sleeve now means that it is easy for other people to know how you are feeling.
In some countries, a young woman may receive a gift of clothing from a young man. If she keeps the gift, it means she will marry him.
Some people used to believe that if a woman saw a robin flying overhead on Valentine's Day, it meant she would marry a sailor. If she saw a sparrow, she would marry a poor man and be very happy. If she saw a goldfinch, she would marry a millionaire.
A love seat is a wide chair. It was first made to seat one woman and her wide dress. Later, the love seat or courting seat had two sections, often in an S-shape. In this way, a couple could sit together -- but not too closely!
Think of five or six names of boys or girls you might marry, As you twist the stem of an apple, recite the names until the stem comes off. You will marry the person whose name you were saying when the stem fell off.
Pick a dandelion that has gone to seed. Take a deep breath and blow the seeds into the wind. Count the seeds that remain on the stem. That is the number of children you will have.
If you cut an apple in half and count how many seeds are inside, you will also know how many children you will have.
Happy Valentines' day to everyone..
-loves-
Monday, February 12, 2007
Goodbye W24D =(
it's finally the day i've been waiting for ever sinc ei'm a student once again.. yes it's the last day of me being a yr 1 freshie.. but why aint i happy? =( sigh.. nvm.. i tink i'm juz missing my classies and the wonderful facis we had this sem.. argh i knew it.. i knew i'd be sad after all.. stil remember the very first week of sch where we ALL hated one another lol~ not reali hate but reali DUN LIKE.. =\ but now? omg~ emo la! =( today's final lesson.. enterprise. basically did nothing.. went to sch at 10am (thanks for the morning call uh -.-) and this is wat i see..
eveyrone's simply enjoying! wtf?! no one's actually doin work lol!! including my faci.. most bottom right is his head -.-
Ong ah huat relai wanna celebrate CNY with u suh -.- rich ass!!! he treated the class today!
and for some funny yet unknown reason, darwin and gang bought him a cake, we sang him happy birthday BUT it's not his bday -.- lol~ shui bian la~
brenda and justin trying to slice the cake :D the messy table fo food and watever u can find =X
the ah bengs!!! lol~ from left.. dinie, darwin, bryan(fuck him), ken and bernice :D the CS gang
see! i told u they're the bengs! INCLUDING ah huat! omg~ *faint*
sometimes we needa have fun with wat we use when at work rite? the projector is now playing CS in game..
wah this one can give me a heart attack =\ was in train with fen and happen to see this OMG! wat does it resembles? lol~
bahhh~ my swollen eyes due to lack of slp @_@ ok that marks the end of my yr 1 life.. hopefully i can pass smoothly and eveyrthing go smoothly from now ba.. my life is in a mess now.. i feel lost.. and VERY lost.. i need a job to occupy my holidays.. i need ppl for me to talk to.. i dun nid cold shoulders and liars out there.. i juz wan to be happy.. give me a life..
it's a lie
it's finally the day i've been waiting for ever sinc ei'm a student once again.. yes it's the last day of me being a yr 1 freshie.. but why aint i happy? =( sigh.. nvm.. i tink i'm juz missing my classies and the wonderful facis we had this sem.. argh i knew it.. i knew i'd be sad after all.. stil remember the very first week of sch where we ALL hated one another lol~ not reali hate but reali DUN LIKE.. =\ but now? omg~ emo la! =( today's final lesson.. enterprise. basically did nothing.. went to sch at 10am (thanks for the morning call uh -.-) and this is wat i see..
eveyrone's simply enjoying! wtf?! no one's actually doin work lol!! including my faci.. most bottom right is his head -.-
Ong ah huat relai wanna celebrate CNY with u suh -.- rich ass!!! he treated the class today!
and for some funny yet unknown reason, darwin and gang bought him a cake, we sang him happy birthday BUT it's not his bday -.- lol~ shui bian la~
brenda and justin trying to slice the cake :D the messy table fo food and watever u can find =X
the ah bengs!!! lol~ from left.. dinie, darwin, bryan(fuck him), ken and bernice :D the CS gang
see! i told u they're the bengs! INCLUDING ah huat! omg~ *faint*
sometimes we needa have fun with wat we use when at work rite? the projector is now playing CS in game..
wah this one can give me a heart attack =\ was in train with fen and happen to see this OMG! wat does it resembles? lol~
bahhh~ my swollen eyes due to lack of slp @_@ ok that marks the end of my yr 1 life.. hopefully i can pass smoothly and eveyrthing go smoothly from now ba.. my life is in a mess now.. i feel lost.. and VERY lost.. i need a job to occupy my holidays.. i need ppl for me to talk to.. i dun nid cold shoulders and liars out there.. i juz wan to be happy.. give me a life..
it's a lie
Saturday, February 10, 2007
ytd went for dinner with the WG peeps at maxwell food center.. it's a nice gathering =) like finally get to see their faces clearly lol~ was stil kinda shy so i was with susu and ricky most of the time.. and there's someone i dun reali like ar.. and she's like stealing the limelight acting cute the whole entire nite =\ so i juz kept shut.. we all split into 4 tables and take turns to eat.. imagine how many there are lol~
after that me, susu, ricky, edmund, boi and sam went to walk ard for awhile thn decided to go pubbing =) a nice thing to do to relieve stress isnt it? ;) and i'm gonna have my holiday! :D thank god~ we went to i tink 2 or 3 places and couldnt get our ass stick to the chair til we arrive at QB lol~ we met shawn, john and alan too =) after awhile i tink boi, edmund and sam went to pool while the rest of us stay there to play and drink -.-
yes we were playing dice for the whole entire nite and drink drink drink.. wtf?! can u believe me, iko.. actually puke when i ONLY drink beer?! omg~ beer nia lei.. liew.. i felt er xin cos it was very gassy and somemore after boi KO i keep losing =\ i onli win him nia ehh sian~ but good la at least i win someone muehhehe~ tink i was half gone and susu called my darling who was at MoS to come fetch me home lol~ so here i am at his place le.. but stil am so happy to see him =) after al the unhappiness the sky's finally clear once again.. thank god~
today, slack our day off.. we actually slp til 4plus! lol! lihai ba.. thn we cook maggie (dearie do the cooking i do the washing) thn watch fullhouse i swear it's very very nice!!!! i was like crying la!!! lucky dearie fell aslp lol =X tink i wanna rent it haha! XD too nice liao.. thn after that slack again, dearie went to send his best fren off cos she's leaving to aussie while i be gd at home =) and now he's watchin soccer while i am here bloggin :D
that's juz the simple yet nice day i had =) wish everyday can be so simple.. ok anyway my back is aching =\ no idea why.. my neck, my shoulder, my old injuries of my waist.. OMG! i'm falling apart again!!!! =( tml nite ask mummy massage for me :D hehe~ ok la i go tv also liao byebye..
i like the way u hold my hand
i like the way u care
i like the way u look into my eyes
i like the way u hug my waist
i like the way u slp beside me
i like the way we kiss
i like the way u pat my head
i like the way u pats me to slp
i like u juz the way u are..
my dearest mango..
after that me, susu, ricky, edmund, boi and sam went to walk ard for awhile thn decided to go pubbing =) a nice thing to do to relieve stress isnt it? ;) and i'm gonna have my holiday! :D thank god~ we went to i tink 2 or 3 places and couldnt get our ass stick to the chair til we arrive at QB lol~ we met shawn, john and alan too =) after awhile i tink boi, edmund and sam went to pool while the rest of us stay there to play and drink -.-
yes we were playing dice for the whole entire nite and drink drink drink.. wtf?! can u believe me, iko.. actually puke when i ONLY drink beer?! omg~ beer nia lei.. liew.. i felt er xin cos it was very gassy and somemore after boi KO i keep losing =\ i onli win him nia ehh sian~ but good la at least i win someone muehhehe~ tink i was half gone and susu called my darling who was at MoS to come fetch me home lol~ so here i am at his place le.. but stil am so happy to see him =) after al the unhappiness the sky's finally clear once again.. thank god~
today, slack our day off.. we actually slp til 4plus! lol! lihai ba.. thn we cook maggie (dearie do the cooking i do the washing) thn watch fullhouse i swear it's very very nice!!!! i was like crying la!!! lucky dearie fell aslp lol =X tink i wanna rent it haha! XD too nice liao.. thn after that slack again, dearie went to send his best fren off cos she's leaving to aussie while i be gd at home =) and now he's watchin soccer while i am here bloggin :D
that's juz the simple yet nice day i had =) wish everyday can be so simple.. ok anyway my back is aching =\ no idea why.. my neck, my shoulder, my old injuries of my waist.. OMG! i'm falling apart again!!!! =( tml nite ask mummy massage for me :D hehe~ ok la i go tv also liao byebye..
i like the way u hold my hand
i like the way u care
i like the way u look into my eyes
i like the way u hug my waist
i like the way u slp beside me
i like the way we kiss
i like the way u pat my head
i like the way u pats me to slp
i like u juz the way u are..
my dearest mango..
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Pictures and more pictures :D iko's in a veyr good mood now dun ask why juz accept it :D not gonna blog much today cos even thou iko's happy, iko's FREAKING tired!!!! X( lol! okok here u go :D
firstly, Hey Sugar! @MoS ytd this is the reason i'm tired!!! -.- from left:baby mango , me, nanaxx and lifeng
the FcuKers! woohoo~ lol =X i'm not scolding vulgarities u noe O.o *i'm hidden*
yea! finally got me :D i love my dress thou muehehe~ and my hair and my boots! ok i love myself that day :D and of cos i love my darling XD
went to chinatown with mummy last week :D and these are the pics taken.. mummy say i'm mad -.-
my eyes went @_@ when i see al these reds lol!! supper red!!
these are beauty! i got a super small one for my phone chain =) with my chinese name 薇 on it!! and i swear the lady is VERY good at it! it's a art in china call 笔砚 =) mummy got 1 too and hers is a panda lol! mine's sakura flower :D
i cant believe i saw this!!! OMG~ it'sa 2 PIGS!!! OMG! and it's waxed! grrrr! =\ i juz find it gross to do left it in one nice piece even when it's dead =\
mummy's treat to shark fin soup :D i noe it's nothing special as it's cheap (to many of u) but to me it's priceless cos it's from mummy!! i love her :D and it's been a LONG time since i had shark fin and i'm stil loving it!! XD
i'm not sure if it'll be clear enough but this is the "menu" from that place and i can say all of them ROCKS!! but i didnt eat all la lol~ and i wont eat cos it's all fried =\ FATTENING!!
AHHHHH! my fellow cancerian!! =X i ate it! =X
and a whole plate of it!!!!!!
back to the beauty of chinatown =)
财神爷 give me money moeny more more ok? gam xia gam xia :D
that's the end of my day =) had a very very nice day with mummy.. shud spend more time with her like this =)
next, it's some stupid pics la.. lol =X my sch yes the retarded poly, had FIRE DRILLS few days back.. -.- like HUH?! i thot thaqt's onli in sec sch one.. liews.. so this is wat i've seen for the VERY first time in RP lol!! so many RP-ians!
walking down the slope of never ending -.-
i told u it's never ending rite?
shri and lisa eating the cooling ice cream from mr ah huat aka the BEST faci u can ever find! :D
sihui (left hand side red tee) and genevive (right hand side black tee)
i was trying to capture genevive!!! roars! she's shy lol!
from left : irwan, shafiz and errr i dunno him =X
Miza and lifeng *wat's with those faces?!?!*
i got no idea wat's with them -.-
omg this pic's so cute! lol! irwan!!! he's a shy guy lol~
this is me and lifeng! XD freak! why am i so chubby?!?!?!?! X(
Mr Ah Huat!! aka the BEST of the BEST facilitator in Rp!! i wish he can be my faci for the 3 yrs.. thn i wont fail liao =( but he's a enterprise faci la =( and my course has NOTHING to do with enterprise -.-
HEY! wait.. ya thi sis another snap of secrecy again lol~ but this is my senior in sec sch!!! i mean the one in black.. lol~ and i tink she look so much prettier now!!!
close up!
she look very princess-ish! ok not look but FEEL very princess-ish :D ok sorry to say this but she's not some born beauty =\ but her make up, dressing, everythin is so nice now!! maybe the way she carry herself stil wrong la.. but well.. at least i learn somethin here.. appearance can be altered!! lol =X
and this few days i've learnt that girls, as long as u're confident u're half beauty already.. no matter how ugly u look! it's true! i'm gonna have more confidence :D and one main thing i need to change.. the way i stand, sit and walk.. i tink i've been hunching alot =\ ewww.. it's damn ugly! omg! straight back straight back!!!!! rahh!
ok anyway planned a few things with feng for this holiday lol~ we're gonna swim to exercise and tone our body :D omg i cant wait for it! XD do u noe a caterpillar evolves into a beautiful butterfly? and ugly duckling grew into a beautiful swan? =) yes! i'm gonna grow into a beautiful me! whee! restructuring iko in progress! gambate! woots~
as the caterpillar grows..
firstly, Hey Sugar! @MoS ytd this is the reason i'm tired!!! -.- from left:baby mango , me, nanaxx and lifeng
the FcuKers! woohoo~ lol =X i'm not scolding vulgarities u noe O.o *i'm hidden*
yea! finally got me :D i love my dress thou muehehe~ and my hair and my boots! ok i love myself that day :D and of cos i love my darling XD
went to chinatown with mummy last week :D and these are the pics taken.. mummy say i'm mad -.-
my eyes went @_@ when i see al these reds lol!! supper red!!
these are beauty! i got a super small one for my phone chain =) with my chinese name 薇 on it!! and i swear the lady is VERY good at it! it's a art in china call 笔砚 =) mummy got 1 too and hers is a panda lol! mine's sakura flower :D
i cant believe i saw this!!! OMG~ it's
mummy's treat to shark fin soup :D i noe it's nothing special as it's cheap (to many of u) but to me it's priceless cos it's from mummy!! i love her :D and it's been a LONG time since i had shark fin and i'm stil loving it!! XD
i'm not sure if it'll be clear enough but this is the "menu" from that place and i can say all of them ROCKS!! but i didnt eat all la lol~ and i wont eat cos it's all fried =\ FATTENING!!
AHHHHH! my fellow cancerian!! =X i ate it! =X
and a whole plate of it!!!!!!
back to the beauty of chinatown =)
财神爷 give me money moeny more more ok? gam xia gam xia :D
that's the end of my day =) had a very very nice day with mummy.. shud spend more time with her like this =)
next, it's some stupid pics la.. lol =X my sch yes the retarded poly, had FIRE DRILLS few days back.. -.- like HUH?! i thot thaqt's onli in sec sch one.. liews.. so this is wat i've seen for the VERY first time in RP lol!! so many RP-ians!
walking down the slope of never ending -.-
i told u it's never ending rite?
shri and lisa eating the cooling ice cream from mr ah huat aka the BEST faci u can ever find! :D
sihui (left hand side red tee) and genevive (right hand side black tee)
i was trying to capture genevive!!! roars! she's shy lol!
from left : irwan, shafiz and errr i dunno him =X
Miza and lifeng *wat's with those faces?!?!*
i got no idea wat's with them -.-
omg this pic's so cute! lol! irwan!!! he's a shy guy lol~
this is me and lifeng! XD freak! why am i so chubby?!?!?!?! X(
Mr Ah Huat!! aka the BEST of the BEST facilitator in Rp!! i wish he can be my faci for the 3 yrs.. thn i wont fail liao =( but he's a enterprise faci la =( and my course has NOTHING to do with enterprise -.-
HEY! wait.. ya thi sis another snap of secrecy again lol~ but this is my senior in sec sch!!! i mean the one in black.. lol~ and i tink she look so much prettier now!!!
close up!
she look very princess-ish! ok not look but FEEL very princess-ish :D ok sorry to say this but she's not some born beauty =\ but her make up, dressing, everythin is so nice now!! maybe the way she carry herself stil wrong la.. but well.. at least i learn somethin here.. appearance can be altered!! lol =X
and this few days i've learnt that girls, as long as u're confident u're half beauty already.. no matter how ugly u look! it's true! i'm gonna have more confidence :D and one main thing i need to change.. the way i stand, sit and walk.. i tink i've been hunching alot =\ ewww.. it's damn ugly! omg! straight back straight back!!!!! rahh!
ok anyway planned a few things with feng for this holiday lol~ we're gonna swim to exercise and tone our body :D omg i cant wait for it! XD do u noe a caterpillar evolves into a beautiful butterfly? and ugly duckling grew into a beautiful swan? =) yes! i'm gonna grow into a beautiful me! whee! restructuring iko in progress! gambate! woots~
as the caterpillar grows..
yawns.. sch's boring.. new faci today even thou it's our last lesson and thank god it's the LAST lesson!!! XD cocknitive is finally over!! anyway had a real nice slp even thou it's short.. no idea why but stil feel gd after the slp :D and lol~ i wasnt sleepy today but just feel like staring into space for a long long time no idea why.. can anyone explain? lol~ and now am in class doin basically craps.. the faci talks alottttttt and i'm like "yayayayayaya....." *yawns*
ok just a few thots on ytd's event at MOS.. i see alot of "happy" ppl ard doing their stuffs.. as usual like wat i always see.. frenching, kissing, licking, touching etc.. ya i noe it's basically nothing new in clubs and it's simply nothing good.. but like i said.. i see them "happy".. so are they reali happy? they smile, laugh, enjoyed.. but when back home i see those "happy" ppl being emo, being unhappy.. why? why do we humans wan to lower ourselves to that standard? to be FOC for everyone? especially girls! omg~ certainly i do not wish to noe one day that my bf is one of them.. =\ but i trust him thou =)
i certainly am gettin abit turned off by clubs now =\ ok i'm not turned off by clubs but am turned off by things i see in clubs.. some ppl are so fake! i'm beginning to wonder are the fakeys ard me now planning on something not as ncie.. =\ it's weird when someone tells u how happy he/she is seeing u being happy.. yet saying things which hurt u or make u feel bad indirectly.. and that someone is stil ur frens who acted so NICE to u! omg~ kinda scary.. i'm being paranoid? guess so hope so..
well.. other thn these not-so-nice things i had in mind, it's great meeting ppl noeing frens =) met alot of them but mostly had more impression of the girls haha.. guess was due to the forums and so on =) feel more comfy with them when we met.. the guys are all "hi u're iko rite? i'm XXX" thn i "orh ok hi!" thn tat's al the next min i forget the name le =X maybe afew names i remember but i cant remember the face! omg~ but who cares.. haha!
but oh well.. i got a feeling i wont be too much into clubbing as in a hardcore clubber.. firstly, i believe there's much more impt things in life thn that.. i need to make sure my life is spent worthwhile.. i dun wish to juz waste it away.. and hello i'm 20 this yr! which means 1/3 of my life is over! i have no faith that i wil live more thn 70 thou haha~ especially if my life is gonna continue liddat clubbing away, definitely i'll die before 60 =\
actually come to tink of it.. i honestly dun tink i can live long thou.. haha~ which is a gd thing thou.. i dunno i juz feel we humans are pathetic.. i was thinking of this since few days back.. and after ytd, i tink i can confirmed it =\ at the end of the day, we all reduces to ashes.. why are we chasing al the luxury, fame, certificates etc? sigh.. humans.. are all fools by nature.. ok i promise i wont be emo again cos i no wanna waste my time again.. life's short.. be pessimistic and move on in life =) god has his plans laid out for me.. =)
ok just a few thots on ytd's event at MOS.. i see alot of "happy" ppl ard doing their stuffs.. as usual like wat i always see.. frenching, kissing, licking, touching etc.. ya i noe it's basically nothing new in clubs and it's simply nothing good.. but like i said.. i see them "happy".. so are they reali happy? they smile, laugh, enjoyed.. but when back home i see those "happy" ppl being emo, being unhappy.. why? why do we humans wan to lower ourselves to that standard? to be FOC for everyone? especially girls! omg~ certainly i do not wish to noe one day that my bf is one of them.. =\ but i trust him thou =)
i certainly am gettin abit turned off by clubs now =\ ok i'm not turned off by clubs but am turned off by things i see in clubs.. some ppl are so fake! i'm beginning to wonder are the fakeys ard me now planning on something not as ncie.. =\ it's weird when someone tells u how happy he/she is seeing u being happy.. yet saying things which hurt u or make u feel bad indirectly.. and that someone is stil ur frens who acted so NICE to u! omg~ kinda scary.. i'm being paranoid? guess so hope so..
well.. other thn these not-so-nice things i had in mind, it's great meeting ppl noeing frens =) met alot of them but mostly had more impression of the girls haha.. guess was due to the forums and so on =) feel more comfy with them when we met.. the guys are all "hi u're iko rite? i'm XXX" thn i "orh ok hi!" thn tat's al the next min i forget the name le =X maybe afew names i remember but i cant remember the face! omg~ but who cares.. haha!
but oh well.. i got a feeling i wont be too much into clubbing as in a hardcore clubber.. firstly, i believe there's much more impt things in life thn that.. i need to make sure my life is spent worthwhile.. i dun wish to juz waste it away.. and hello i'm 20 this yr! which means 1/3 of my life is over! i have no faith that i wil live more thn 70 thou haha~ especially if my life is gonna continue liddat clubbing away, definitely i'll die before 60 =\
actually come to tink of it.. i honestly dun tink i can live long thou.. haha~ which is a gd thing thou.. i dunno i juz feel we humans are pathetic.. i was thinking of this since few days back.. and after ytd, i tink i can confirmed it =\ at the end of the day, we all reduces to ashes.. why are we chasing al the luxury, fame, certificates etc? sigh.. humans.. are all fools by nature.. ok i promise i wont be emo again cos i no wanna waste my time again.. life's short.. be pessimistic and move on in life =) god has his plans laid out for me.. =)
ok i'm very very very tired/sleepy now.. but stil i cant get to slp.. i jus tink i need to blog this bit before my mind can reali calm down and slp =) it was a happy nite for me =) baby was sweet enough to run ard just for me.. i feel bad having to make him run ard =( but stil i'm happy he did it juz for me :D
saw alot of the peeps from Wg =) ya am glad to see them.. i controlled myself alot today.. not to drink too much, not to eat bak gua, not to stay too late.. ok i gotta say sorry to baby for staying abit over time =\ i said i wil leave at 2 end up i left at bout 3 =\ cos firstly the atmosphere was rite at bout 2am? lol~ 2ndly lifeng and nana was high at that timing too! *headache* so i stayed lo~ 3rd i realise i haven say hi to ALOT of ppl like zhenwei, psyk etc..
am glad i manage to say a hi =) but i'm juz simply a happy girl today =) i'm contented juz liddat.. nothin i wil ask for more.. he's a sweetie.. and i wanted to jz hug him tight in my arms and never let go.. but of cos i noe it's almost impossible to NEVER let go la lol -.- but stil i'm happy.. dun ask me i wont say anymore.. juz accept the fact i'm very happy :D gd nite all~ hugss..
saw alot of the peeps from Wg =) ya am glad to see them.. i controlled myself alot today.. not to drink too much, not to eat bak gua, not to stay too late.. ok i gotta say sorry to baby for staying abit over time =\ i said i wil leave at 2 end up i left at bout 3 =\ cos firstly the atmosphere was rite at bout 2am? lol~ 2ndly lifeng and nana was high at that timing too! *headache* so i stayed lo~ 3rd i realise i haven say hi to ALOT of ppl like zhenwei, psyk etc..
am glad i manage to say a hi =) but i'm juz simply a happy girl today =) i'm contented juz liddat.. nothin i wil ask for more.. he's a sweetie.. and i wanted to jz hug him tight in my arms and never let go.. but of cos i noe it's almost impossible to NEVER let go la lol -.- but stil i'm happy.. dun ask me i wont say anymore.. juz accept the fact i'm very happy :D gd nite all~ hugss..
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
after reading this story i find humans are pathetic..
Stay contented :D
A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted!!!!
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty handed.
The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person...."
"What is marriage then?" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.
The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."
Believe...And as you believe, You will find reaching gets easier, setbacks get more manageable, life becomes more meaningful.
Stay contented :D
A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted!!!!
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty handed.
The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person...."
"What is marriage then?" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.
The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."
Believe...And as you believe, You will find reaching gets easier, setbacks get more manageable, life becomes more meaningful.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
juz a few random stuff as i dun wish to get anymore serious on my blog again.. i need to liven up the spirit here..
did a steamboat test and walao i'm satisfy with the result lol! especially the first sentence *slaps BHB!*
TYPE C
Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can understand yourself more.
ok maybe other thn the first sentence.. al the rest are true isnt it?! and i need to say is not lack of character ok! is trying to be nice lol~ soulmates? why do i need so many when i have the truest ones?
and next is a comment from my math faci.. lol! i cant stop laughin at it la..
Ok ok ... your performance was not bad today, somewhere between B and A. Since you have reflected so much today, I will give you your first A in this module. Of course, if you still want a pass, please revise your work and come prepared for your Monday UT. Don't just pray only hor... must work toward it.
Well... come to your RJ, ya ya ya ... I know that it can be pretty tough to get motivated to work on something that you do not like. But have it ever occur to you that why are some of the topic covered in year 1 interests some people so much. Or maybe you have a wrong perception about it totally, you have not even touch the gist of the idea and that's why you have never like it.
And one more thing, if the subject you are going to take in year 2 is not as flowery as you thought, then would you lose interest in it and shart to slack again. Give it a thought. Life is only as interesting as we make it.
the funny thing here is where got faci say HOR in comment one?!?! and also yayaya walao! bth~ ah beng faci lol! he's juz closing a eye la.. cos i'm failing haha.. i swear i slack my day off last week =\ the onli serious part here is true enuff i cant always do thing when i like it ya? and give up when i dun like it? ha~ like he said.. life is onli as interesting as we made it.. i'm not gonna rot my life away.. neither am i gonna keep partying non stop cos i dun wanna live a life of achieving nothing and die with nothing.. thou we'll be reduce to ashes anyway.. but i juz tink i wanna achieve something before i leave..
wait.. juz saw another comment from my enterprise faci lol!!!
Thank you for your interesting RJ. You should be able to go to Yr 2. Be optimistic.
Today, you are very focused in your work. You undertake your allocated task seriously.
You also exhibit good understanding of the problem statement. As a result, you have active discussion within the team. Your efforts in today's lesson is further illustrated in your presentation. Well done
On hindsight, you are also quite a smart and diligent student. I sincerely hope that you will not skip school so often in Yr 2. I believe you will be able to clear Enterprise module.
wahaha! u noe wat?! i didnt even do a single work! and the best part is when presenting he gave me his 6P which is the faci's work to present.. and i juz read every word from the ppt -.- i reali cant stop laughing.. lol! but i lvoe al my facis now EXCEPT that biatch! >=(
did a steamboat test and walao i'm satisfy with the result lol! especially the first sentence *slaps BHB!*
TYPE C
Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can understand yourself more.
ok maybe other thn the first sentence.. al the rest are true isnt it?! and i need to say is not lack of character ok! is trying to be nice lol~ soulmates? why do i need so many when i have the truest ones?
and next is a comment from my math faci.. lol! i cant stop laughin at it la..
Ok ok ... your performance was not bad today, somewhere between B and A. Since you have reflected so much today, I will give you your first A in this module. Of course, if you still want a pass, please revise your work and come prepared for your Monday UT. Don't just pray only hor... must work toward it.
Well... come to your RJ, ya ya ya ... I know that it can be pretty tough to get motivated to work on something that you do not like. But have it ever occur to you that why are some of the topic covered in year 1 interests some people so much. Or maybe you have a wrong perception about it totally, you have not even touch the gist of the idea and that's why you have never like it.
And one more thing, if the subject you are going to take in year 2 is not as flowery as you thought, then would you lose interest in it and shart to slack again. Give it a thought. Life is only as interesting as we make it.
the funny thing here is where got faci say HOR in comment one?!?! and also yayaya walao! bth~ ah beng faci lol! he's juz closing a eye la.. cos i'm failing haha.. i swear i slack my day off last week =\ the onli serious part here is true enuff i cant always do thing when i like it ya? and give up when i dun like it? ha~ like he said.. life is onli as interesting as we made it.. i'm not gonna rot my life away.. neither am i gonna keep partying non stop cos i dun wanna live a life of achieving nothing and die with nothing.. thou we'll be reduce to ashes anyway.. but i juz tink i wanna achieve something before i leave..
wait.. juz saw another comment from my enterprise faci lol!!!
Thank you for your interesting RJ. You should be able to go to Yr 2. Be optimistic.
Today, you are very focused in your work. You undertake your allocated task seriously.
You also exhibit good understanding of the problem statement. As a result, you have active discussion within the team. Your efforts in today's lesson is further illustrated in your presentation. Well done
On hindsight, you are also quite a smart and diligent student. I sincerely hope that you will not skip school so often in Yr 2. I believe you will be able to clear Enterprise module.
wahaha! u noe wat?! i didnt even do a single work! and the best part is when presenting he gave me his 6P which is the faci's work to present.. and i juz read every word from the ppt -.- i reali cant stop laughing.. lol! but i lvoe al my facis now EXCEPT that biatch! >=(
Monday, February 05, 2007
like walking thru the jungle of neverland.. i felt lost.. never noe what wil come next rigt in front of my face.. have to stare back at it.. to survive.. even if i were to breakdown.. i have to pick myself up and walk out of the jungle myself.. no one'll help.. i need to be strong.. independent.. so i can grow up like everyone else does.. who never been thru low times? who doesnt grow? not as if ive never been thru it.. i did! i survived.. and i noe i'm definitely stronger..
i dunno wat am i doing.. wat am i feeling.. lost is the word.. empty is the substitute.. ya i can put up a smile.. i can act nothing happened and i can act it's no big deal.. but they noe it's not that way.. rushing for my phone once the tone rings.. the disappointment i cant hide shows it all.. everyone knew.. they juz kept shut.. thanks.. i wont wanna listen to anythin unpleasant or any consoles.. i wan to be on my own so i can stand up strong.. even if i were to fall hard on head, i'll clean up the wound and pick myself up..
when i ask others to be strong, i gotta prove i am strong too.. jiemei.. thanks for being there juz by keeping quiet.. i noe u wanna say alot of things but just this once let me be ya? thank you once again :) fen was there for me always.. accompanied me when i'm down.. standing with me juz to watch me walk the path i'm walking.. be there for me to lean at times when i needed to rest.. thank you.. thank you everyone for caring.. but i'm fine dun worry.. :)
maybe juz feeling low and helpless now.. who can i turn to? what can i do? where can i go? this cold war gonna continues? this looks like history repeating.. the 3rd time! why?! am i bounded to have this kinda life? if yes.. thank you.. i had enough.. human gets numb.. humans gets sick.. human gets tired of everything.. if this is gonna be another history repeating.. i already noe the outcome.. i dun have to go thru the torment of worrying or crying to slp.. i dun have to bur my pillow with my tears anymore.. cos i noe the outcome.. "i'm sorry" that's the outcome! wat else? ha~
if things doesnt work for the better, it'll juz be this scenario.. we gets colder and colder.. more and more irritated by each other's presence.. drifted and drifted.. that's all.. dun u tink so? i've experience it 2 times! wil miracle happen? or does miracle actually exist? i dun wish my trust for him to be proven wasted.. i noe there's something more left unsaid.. like wat someone said for her own case "i dun wanna ask for the truths cos i noe if u were to let me noe u wil let me noe.. but if u dun, nothing i do wil reveal the truth" i tink it's very true..
it's no point trying to force him tel u the truth.. it's no point trying to find out things u wan to and the other party doesnt wan to.. i noe a few things.. i juz keep shut.. i dun wanna say cos i'm not suppose to be the one saying.. i'll juz wait.. i'm sad.. yes.. very~ hurt? yes~ no reason why.. juz hurt by the truths.. hate? myself yes.. i tink i'm juz gonna let things be.. he has the ball anyway.. since there's nothing i can do.. i'll juz keep shut.. gdbye and gdnite..
doubts flows in
he hides..
but i wil not seek..
i onli wait..
for the honest truth to become transparent..
emptiness fills..
he aint perfect too but i love him for who he is..
it's ok i'm stupid or be called a fool..
cos love is al about me and u..
保护你 - Gary Chao ge
跳着你的心跳
抱着你的拥抱
爱最深多深
我不知道
沉默什么都好
心里什么在烧
幸福那么少
我竟然得到
月光太冷海浪太吵
我把你裹进我外套
这双翅膀不飞了
因为守护你最重要
这一生一世让我保护你
就算跟世界成为敌
当你把手紧紧放进我手里
怎能不相信
世上真的有(奇迹)
真的有奇迹吗？
i dunno wat am i doing.. wat am i feeling.. lost is the word.. empty is the substitute.. ya i can put up a smile.. i can act nothing happened and i can act it's no big deal.. but they noe it's not that way.. rushing for my phone once the tone rings.. the disappointment i cant hide shows it all.. everyone knew.. they juz kept shut.. thanks.. i wont wanna listen to anythin unpleasant or any consoles.. i wan to be on my own so i can stand up strong.. even if i were to fall hard on head, i'll clean up the wound and pick myself up..
when i ask others to be strong, i gotta prove i am strong too.. jiemei.. thanks for being there juz by keeping quiet.. i noe u wanna say alot of things but just this once let me be ya? thank you once again :) fen was there for me always.. accompanied me when i'm down.. standing with me juz to watch me walk the path i'm walking.. be there for me to lean at times when i needed to rest.. thank you.. thank you everyone for caring.. but i'm fine dun worry.. :)
maybe juz feeling low and helpless now.. who can i turn to? what can i do? where can i go? this cold war gonna continues? this looks like history repeating.. the 3rd time! why?! am i bounded to have this kinda life? if yes.. thank you.. i had enough.. human gets numb.. humans gets sick.. human gets tired of everything.. if this is gonna be another history repeating.. i already noe the outcome.. i dun have to go thru the torment of worrying or crying to slp.. i dun have to bur my pillow with my tears anymore.. cos i noe the outcome.. "i'm sorry" that's the outcome! wat else? ha~
if things doesnt work for the better, it'll juz be this scenario.. we gets colder and colder.. more and more irritated by each other's presence.. drifted and drifted.. that's all.. dun u tink so? i've experience it 2 times! wil miracle happen? or does miracle actually exist? i dun wish my trust for him to be proven wasted.. i noe there's something more left unsaid.. like wat someone said for her own case "i dun wanna ask for the truths cos i noe if u were to let me noe u wil let me noe.. but if u dun, nothing i do wil reveal the truth" i tink it's very true..
it's no point trying to force him tel u the truth.. it's no point trying to find out things u wan to and the other party doesnt wan to.. i noe a few things.. i juz keep shut.. i dun wanna say cos i'm not suppose to be the one saying.. i'll juz wait.. i'm sad.. yes.. very~ hurt? yes~ no reason why.. juz hurt by the truths.. hate? myself yes.. i tink i'm juz gonna let things be.. he has the ball anyway.. since there's nothing i can do.. i'll juz keep shut.. gdbye and gdnite..
doubts flows in
he hides..
but i wil not seek..
i onli wait..
for the honest truth to become transparent..
emptiness fills..
he aint perfect too but i love him for who he is..
it's ok i'm stupid or be called a fool..
cos love is al about me and u..
保护你 - Gary Chao ge
跳着你的心跳
抱着你的拥抱
爱最深多深
我不知道
沉默什么都好
心里什么在烧
幸福那么少
我竟然得到
月光太冷海浪太吵
我把你裹进我外套
这双翅膀不飞了
因为守护你最重要
这一生一世让我保护你
就算跟世界成为敌
当你把手紧紧放进我手里
怎能不相信
世上真的有(奇迹)
真的有奇迹吗？
i haven been in a anywhere-near-good situation in everything.. basically everythin! =\ my love life is on a rocky path.. my studies, i'm climbing the steepest slope i've ever climb.. financial wise i'm suffocating myself with bills and gifts.. i couldnt find another job.. my health is deterioting wat else can be worst?
love - i truly thinks the story of the song on my blog is fantasy.. plain fantasy that can NEVER happen in reality.. for those who cant read or understand chinese i shall translate it (dun blame me for weird tranlation my english am juz bad)..
傻傻两个人 许过一个愿
当时星星眨着眼 看起来并不远
two silly person made a wish upon a time
the stars were blinking, it seems not far away..
为你展翅飞 为你被风吹
请你千万要等我 带幸福来给你的那一天
for u i soar in the sky for u i get blown away
you must wait for me, the day i'd bring happiness for u
春天散步,夏天看海,秋天数落叶
一直没有烦恼 一直没有争吵
让每天像糖一样甜
strolling in the spring
watching the sea in summer
counting the fallen leaves in autumn
always, there'll be no worries
always, there'll be no quarrels
to let everyday be as sweet like candies
冬天飘雪 我是棉被 温暖你的夜
一直在你身边 一直爱到永远
你就负责靠着我的肩
in the falling season of winter
i'll be your blanket to warm up you night
always, i'll be by ur side
always, loving til enternal time
and your duty is to just lean on my shoulder
贴着你的脸 拍一张照片
世界是很复杂的 要靠我近一点
we take a photo while sticking to your face
the world is very complicated
do stand closer to me
但愿你每天 幸福又安全
两只恋人手牵手 谁也不用再跑给谁去追
i pray everyday, you'd be happy and safe
two lovers hand in hand,
no one needs to run to let the other chase.
get the beautiful picture? sadly, this can onli be in fantasy.. in our dreams.. or is there anyone have ever live thru this dream? and are happily married ever after juz like any fairytales? dun share them with me pls.. i had enough of fantasies that reality seems so cruel to me..
i just wish i can be the girl in the song..
studies - like everyone noe i've been skipping sch (as usual) so my result am failing.. it's definitely much worst thn last sem as i've skip too many UTs.. sigh.. and sch is definitely draining me resulting me in having super bad temper and frustrated VERY easily.. thus causing alot of unhappiness be it with my best fren or my bf or even my mum.. maybe i shud say a BIG sorry to everyone that was affected.. bear with me for a week or so more alrite? the happy iko wil be back =(
i'm truly sorry..
financial - i promise i wil cut down on shopping.. =( i was never a shopaholic and i never wanna be one.. sigh.. why do we girls love to shop? and why do everything cost so scarily? and worst is i noe i'm a lazy person who dun love to work and am very demanding in a gd job.. sigh.. i have nothing much to say here but juz sighing my way thru..
sighs..
health - i swear it's getting from bad to worst =\ my teeth bleed EVERYDAY without fail when i brush them.. i'm falling sick 3 times in a month the previous month.. and even now i'm stil down with flu.. when wil i recover? =(
conclusion - all the above factors are contributing to my terrible moodswings recently.. and i swear it's gettin worst =\ i'm losing grip of everything.. when one tries to hold onto too many things, and the load gets far too heavy thn u can ever hold.. u fall.. u break apart.. and u got crash.. simple? CNY's coming and i definitely am in the mood for a nice relaxing holiday with my bf, my frens and family.. but things arent goin that way now! ya i did spend time with mummy this yr to shop etc.. but i'm definitely not in the mood..
i'm far to stress with my sch and dance.. i dun even dance now! many of my frens have obviously drifted from me.. reason? i have no idea.. i juz feel my life is at another lowest point once again.. it happens every yr is it? sighs.. v'day's coming.. SCREW IT! i dun even noe how where who i'll be with~ i might juz stuck home with my computer.. who noes wat the future holds? who noes when i might juz die..
i aint talking crap here.. reason why i'm saying that? i had a dream last nite.. shud i call it a nitemare? watever.. i dreamt that i have tumor.. it was remove completely but the doc detected there's stil something in my brain (i guess it's juz plain air cos i have a empty brain) i dreamt that i might not live but everyone came visit me.. but why visit me when i'm dying? why cant we cherish and keep in contact when we're perfectly fine? that's human? always love to wait til it's too late?
i had 3 nitemares in a row of juz 2hours slp.. bad omen? i guess so.. my eyelid has been twitching like nobody's business for the pass few days too.. i noe something bad wil happen.. we shall see.. either i'm gonna lose him, lose being a yr 2, lose al my money on CNY, lose more frens, or even lose my dance skills.. who noes? ha~ life.. it's unpredictable..
when someone gave his all to me, i trample it
now when i gave my all, i got trampled on..
humans are all idiots..
-iko's reallllllll sad :(-
love - i truly thinks the story of the song on my blog is fantasy.. plain fantasy that can NEVER happen in reality.. for those who cant read or understand chinese i shall translate it (dun blame me for weird tranlation my english am juz bad)..
傻傻两个人 许过一个愿
当时星星眨着眼 看起来并不远
two silly person made a wish upon a time
the stars were blinking, it seems not far away..
为你展翅飞 为你被风吹
请你千万要等我 带幸福来给你的那一天
for u i soar in the sky for u i get blown away
you must wait for me, the day i'd bring happiness for u
春天散步,夏天看海,秋天数落叶
一直没有烦恼 一直没有争吵
让每天像糖一样甜
strolling in the spring
watching the sea in summer
counting the fallen leaves in autumn
always, there'll be no worries
always, there'll be no quarrels
to let everyday be as sweet like candies
冬天飘雪 我是棉被 温暖你的夜
一直在你身边 一直爱到永远
你就负责靠着我的肩
in the falling season of winter
i'll be your blanket to warm up you night
always, i'll be by ur side
always, loving til enternal time
and your duty is to just lean on my shoulder
贴着你的脸 拍一张照片
世界是很复杂的 要靠我近一点
we take a photo while sticking to your face
the world is very complicated
do stand closer to me
但愿你每天 幸福又安全
两只恋人手牵手 谁也不用再跑给谁去追
i pray everyday, you'd be happy and safe
two lovers hand in hand,
no one needs to run to let the other chase.
get the beautiful picture? sadly, this can onli be in fantasy.. in our dreams.. or is there anyone have ever live thru this dream? and are happily married ever after juz like any fairytales? dun share them with me pls.. i had enough of fantasies that reality seems so cruel to me..
i just wish i can be the girl in the song..
studies - like everyone noe i've been skipping sch (as usual) so my result am failing.. it's definitely much worst thn last sem as i've skip too many UTs.. sigh.. and sch is definitely draining me resulting me in having super bad temper and frustrated VERY easily.. thus causing alot of unhappiness be it with my best fren or my bf or even my mum.. maybe i shud say a BIG sorry to everyone that was affected.. bear with me for a week or so more alrite? the happy iko wil be back =(
i'm truly sorry..
financial - i promise i wil cut down on shopping.. =( i was never a shopaholic and i never wanna be one.. sigh.. why do we girls love to shop? and why do everything cost so scarily? and worst is i noe i'm a lazy person who dun love to work and am very demanding in a gd job.. sigh.. i have nothing much to say here but juz sighing my way thru..
sighs..
health - i swear it's getting from bad to worst =\ my teeth bleed EVERYDAY without fail when i brush them.. i'm falling sick 3 times in a month the previous month.. and even now i'm stil down with flu.. when wil i recover? =(
conclusion - all the above factors are contributing to my terrible moodswings recently.. and i swear it's gettin worst =\ i'm losing grip of everything.. when one tries to hold onto too many things, and the load gets far too heavy thn u can ever hold.. u fall.. u break apart.. and u got crash.. simple? CNY's coming and i definitely am in the mood for a nice relaxing holiday with my bf, my frens and family.. but things arent goin that way now! ya i did spend time with mummy this yr to shop etc.. but i'm definitely not in the mood..
i'm far to stress with my sch and dance.. i dun even dance now! many of my frens have obviously drifted from me.. reason? i have no idea.. i juz feel my life is at another lowest point once again.. it happens every yr is it? sighs.. v'day's coming.. SCREW IT! i dun even noe how where who i'll be with~ i might juz stuck home with my computer.. who noes wat the future holds? who noes when i might juz die..
i aint talking crap here.. reason why i'm saying that? i had a dream last nite.. shud i call it a nitemare? watever.. i dreamt that i have tumor.. it was remove completely but the doc detected there's stil something in my brain (i guess it's juz plain air cos i have a empty brain) i dreamt that i might not live but everyone came visit me.. but why visit me when i'm dying? why cant we cherish and keep in contact when we're perfectly fine? that's human? always love to wait til it's too late?
i had 3 nitemares in a row of juz 2hours slp.. bad omen? i guess so.. my eyelid has been twitching like nobody's business for the pass few days too.. i noe something bad wil happen.. we shall see.. either i'm gonna lose him, lose being a yr 2, lose al my money on CNY, lose more frens, or even lose my dance skills.. who noes? ha~ life.. it's unpredictable..
when someone gave his all to me, i trample it
now when i gave my all, i got trampled on..
humans are all idiots..
-iko's reallllllll sad :(-
Friday, February 02, 2007
who says i cant work without photoshop? lalala~ :P al these are done using imageready.. ya i noe it's part of photoshop but stil its NOT photoshop! lalala! :P it's harder to use la neibong!
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ya it's the same pic as above but different design :D i loveeeeee my hair :D
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ehh heh! i try perming my hair myself lol! i noe it suck but u noe angle can make it look nice :D
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wah bth i love my hair :D
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ya it's the same pic as above but different design :D i loveeeeee my hair :D
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ehh heh! i try perming my hair myself lol! i noe it suck but u noe angle can make it look nice :D
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wah bth i love my hair :D
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pics speaks a thousand words.. but i like to speak a million so i'll juz write abit here and there as we go along the pics :D
firstly is our dearest kylie's 21st bday :D i wasnt in the pic cos i'm taking photo (DUHH) and i'm not in NP T13 lol~
and here's 3 pics of the different juice they have in sakae sushi i juz find them adorable la lol =X so small! prob is each packet cost 2.50 =\ so we didnt get juz took the photo lol~
and here's dinie's wonderfully protected phone -.- see how reckless a guy can be?! the side was initially SILVER!!! X( omg~
this is the wonderful sight of the MRT station of kallang onnational day the asean football championship day!
just how long wil it take for us to get there squeezing thru al these human mountains?
finally we're here -.-
man in red : "eh where all these humans come from?!"
this is just ONE section of the tiny entrance for ticket holders.. there's 3 sections for east entrance (i think)..
see the magic word?? S-O-L-D O-U-T!!
i've got tix! lalala! to those without tix.. neh ni neh ni poo poo! :P
reporting fromRetarded Republic poly!
Year 2 randall, Year 1 me and Year 2 kelvin ah pek :D wahaha!
hey! my bf! :D and me lol~
wahbiang~ when wil this end?! mountains and more mountains -.-
here's the wonderful tix that ah pek has gotten for us all the way from woodlands to jalan besar :D *thank you la*
and it's the magic paper to get me into the stadium :D
somehow i wish i dun have to climb the stairs =\
no difference from antional day.. agree??
ignore the empty seats! they're full by the time the game starts! it's a FULL HOUSE game!!
clever seat chopping with juz a bag and POOF the whole bench is urs.. -.-
a prove that he's there! YES! mango aka floyd was at the asean football championship FINALS!!!
i actually forgot that national stadium has a field =\
OH MY GOD~
thethai losers!
the LIONS!!!! XD
the beautiful national stadium of sinapore.. omg~ it's gonna be gone soon =(
everyone's hyped up and excited and cant wait for the game to start! (including me)
the heroes are out!! the losers are in red and our wonderful lions are in blue :D
i actually thot it was the other way round lol! =X
"majulah.. singapura.." i sang it again!!! XD
i know it looks like 2 balls 1 red the other blue -.- but it's them la!
"BEEEP"
and the game starts!!!!
i told u it's full house didnt i? :D
"BUTOH LA!"
"REFEREE KAYU"
"@#$%^&&$#@$%^&"
the legendary kallang wave!!! XD
see the man in ermm pinkish top on the most right hand side of the pic?
i tink he tinks he's a manager of the lion's team or wat lol he was shouting "GET THAT BALL!!!" with ALOT of actions -.-
the cheers for the glory of the lions!
err sorry but that's the end of the show :D
and here, there's abit of anti-climax goin on whereby i gotta put up thisbastard classmate's photo of mine who happens to steal my sour plum! CB! i hate him to the core!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BRYAN QUEK CB! _|_
this is how RP student eats in the canteen.. HOW NICE -.-
shit me shit everything! i went shopping today and saw this! ARGH! one of the latest design of GUESS watch! RAHH! X(
i didnt dare to ask for the price as i noe i wil faint on the spot. so i went home and search online and it turns out to be $105 (canada currency i think) so it's nearly 200 sing dollar! *faintED* (_-_)
and i happen to come across this watch too lol =X but haven see the real thing so not sure how it looks like thou.. but it's cheaper :D 95 canada so i tink is around 20bucks cheaper thn the previous one? (no diff actually -.-)
ok anyway eyes are shutting so a summary of my day.. lesson was draining.. everyone died in class.. but watever.. went shopping with feng and bought 2 top.. a tee and a erm outter clothe? dunno wat is it nvm.. walk the whole of orchard and somerset.. leg muscles dead.. brain's dead.. lappie's half dead and i'm dead.. gd nite!
firstly is our dearest kylie's 21st bday :D i wasnt in the pic cos i'm taking photo (DUHH) and i'm not in NP T13 lol~
and here's 3 pics of the different juice they have in sakae sushi i juz find them adorable la lol =X so small! prob is each packet cost 2.50 =\ so we didnt get juz took the photo lol~
and here's dinie's wonderfully protected phone -.- see how reckless a guy can be?! the side was initially SILVER!!! X( omg~
this is the wonderful sight of the MRT station of kallang on
just how long wil it take for us to get there squeezing thru al these human mountains?
finally we're here -.-
man in red : "eh where all these humans come from?!"
this is just ONE section of the tiny entrance for ticket holders.. there's 3 sections for east entrance (i think)..
see the magic word?? S-O-L-D O-U-T!!
i've got tix! lalala! to those without tix.. neh ni neh ni poo poo! :P
reporting from
Year 2 randall, Year 1 me and Year 2 kelvin ah pek :D wahaha!
hey! my bf! :D and me lol~
wahbiang~ when wil this end?! mountains and more mountains -.-
here's the wonderful tix that ah pek has gotten for us all the way from woodlands to jalan besar :D *thank you la*
and it's the magic paper to get me into the stadium :D
somehow i wish i dun have to climb the stairs =\
no difference from antional day.. agree??
ignore the empty seats! they're full by the time the game starts! it's a FULL HOUSE game!!
clever seat chopping with juz a bag and POOF the whole bench is urs.. -.-
a prove that he's there! YES! mango aka floyd was at the asean football championship FINALS!!!
i actually forgot that national stadium has a field =\
OH MY GOD~
the
the LIONS!!!! XD
the beautiful national stadium of sinapore.. omg~ it's gonna be gone soon =(
everyone's hyped up and excited and cant wait for the game to start! (including me)
the heroes are out!! the losers are in red and our wonderful lions are in blue :D
i actually thot it was the other way round lol! =X
"majulah.. singapura.." i sang it again!!! XD
i know it looks like 2 balls 1 red the other blue -.- but it's them la!
"BEEEP"
and the game starts!!!!
i told u it's full house didnt i? :D
"BUTOH LA!"
"REFEREE KAYU"
"@#$%^&&$#@$%^&"
the legendary kallang wave!!! XD
see the man in ermm pinkish top on the most right hand side of the pic?
i tink he tinks he's a manager of the lion's team or wat lol he was shouting "GET THAT BALL!!!" with ALOT of actions -.-
the cheers for the glory of the lions!
err sorry but that's the end of the show :D
and here, there's abit of anti-climax goin on whereby i gotta put up this
this is how RP student eats in the canteen.. HOW NICE -.-
shit me shit everything! i went shopping today and saw this! ARGH! one of the latest design of GUESS watch! RAHH! X(
i didnt dare to ask for the price as i noe i wil faint on the spot. so i went home and search online and it turns out to be $105 (canada currency i think) so it's nearly 200 sing dollar! *faintED* (_-_)
and i happen to come across this watch too lol =X but haven see the real thing so not sure how it looks like thou.. but it's cheaper :D 95 canada so i tink is around 20bucks cheaper thn the previous one? (no diff actually -.-)
ok anyway eyes are shutting so a summary of my day.. lesson was draining.. everyone died in class.. but watever.. went shopping with feng and bought 2 top.. a tee and a erm outter clothe? dunno wat is it nvm.. walk the whole of orchard and somerset.. leg muscles dead.. brain's dead.. lappie's half dead and i'm dead.. gd nite!
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