Melody of my Life..

wahbiang i'm gonna F blogger upside down! NNH! i typed a damn long post juz now and i dunno wtf happen and my post juz disappear >=( nvm i type AGAIN! =( ok i was talkin about ytd.. i was freakin emo and i waned to blog.. but thn stupid blogger was down so i save it in notepad.. and i was tryin to be funny.. i say that i'm smart but thn again.. who the hell dunno how to save it in notepad? -_- ok i'm tryin to be funny AGAIN..

today went to sch.. break, dance, rehearse.. TIRED!!! =( and i brought home alot of orh chei again.. hais.. thot my orh chei family kana diaband liao.. now they gathering again =( my knees is fully populated with the orh family and my tummy got the chei.. =( damn sian.. everywhere like paralyse =(

after that went to town to find larry.. and also to see RISE's performance.. =) they're stil as great as ever.. juz that tis yr abit diff cos they dance less le =( at first larry told me.. "got 3 girls" i thot to myself "WTF!! dun tell me erin's back!!!" lol.. end up is ann.. haha also gd la! miss them al =) saw ash, gary and stacia.. after awhile fei came and dharni too.. wahh miss them all haha..

but sometime see them i super sian one.. -_- all ATTACH =( how sad can it be man =( but thn again.. fei told me she nv dance for 2month liao =\ it's like huh attach cannot dance ar? thn i dun wan attach liao =( hais.. attach ornt not i can choose ornt one la.. FATE haha sian.. hmm the feelin of seeing them again is DARN gd =)

and i'm glad al of us stil can talk like we used to be la =) hopefully one day we can dance tgt again ba =) thn went to dinner at LJS with larry =) ph ya! saw T haha.. finally ar! we met lol =X he's quite nice lei.. very chatty haha.. i like chatty ppl =) cos i'm a GOSSIPER wahaha =X after that we went youth park lo see the band performance.. wah the girl POWER sia! =X i dunno wat to say and dun reali wish to comment =X hahahahaha =p

thn we went to esplanade he say he wanna break.. so i juz went la since i got one more rides.. waliew everyday see my consession hor left 2 rides very sian one lei.. like wasted lol =X today finally use al le wahaha =p at esplanade damn funny la.. towards later vic, norbin, alex and lester keep playin lol! is relai relai mad! they play those old oldddddddddddd songs like "get down" "byebyebye" "as long as u love me" lol!!! madness rite?!?!?! i reali laugh til i wanna kisiao liao lol =X

thn norbin act playin piano lol.. he act he's sitting on a chair walao somemore can spin one hor lol bth! thn they lame til very late ard 12 thn we move to mrt le.. cos last train le.. haha me n lester chatted alot.. tink me n him closest liao in ftc.. lol we're the bitches lol =X we keep gossippin about others la lol =X oh ya his reaqction when they say he bite edwin is DAMN DAMN funny!! lol anyway if is me i also wil kill myself la.. bite him?!?! MAD!

ok very tired liao gonna watch my SOS le.. hurrr brain juice squeezing again -_- but i like sia.. so many lessons on love =) woohooo~ anyway gonna post wat i wanted to post ytd =) beyond here is no longer today's post =) buai buai~~~


7th June..

EMO!!! =(
was watchin SOS half way near ending.. suddenly super emo sia =\ NNH! where got liddat one sia!!! takki said to himself"if i had told u, u're the one i love.. wil our story be different?" reali is NNH!! bu this relai hit me real deep la.. i came across this somethin that says "when u love someone, tell them.. seize the day and have no regrets.. even if they reject u, u did not regret not leetin them noe.." walao i onli read it once.. and it's stuck in my mind like forever lol =X but aiyo super emo now sia!! =( thn i went back to check wat exactly did joel send me ytd.. it was actually somethin to do with his leaving to aussie =( here it goes..

Operation: Melbourne
Mission Objective: Obtain Mass Comm Degree
Mission Duration: 2 yrs 8 Months
Admin Move/Prep Move Out Timing: 110606, 1945hrs
No Move Timing: 110606, 1900hrs
Mission Commence First shot fired: 260606
Estimated RTU: 100609
Extended Mission: Double Major/Degree

i read until the estimated RTU i dunno y the wave of sadness fills me =( it's like OMG! why always liddat one?! last time the Soh family left for aussie as well.. thn slowly is joel from my church.. thn one by one leave =( why?! why muz we al be seperated by this stupid thing call boundaries? why muz we al be differntiate into COUNTRIES?! since we're a world as whole.. why muz men seperate them? seperation between life and death isnt enuff??

when we're alive we still have to get seperated?! hais.. i'm missing alot of things now.. ppl.. VIP, clover, stellarnine.. and when i was at cine today, i saw many clover thingy.. =\ i saw cute cutlery and almost bought them.. but thn i tink again.. it's ended isnt it? =( whenever i saw clover, i'm like CUI =\ even i play WM.. there's this item.. a 4 leave clover.. but thn again.. haix.. frucks! argh! shitty feeling! fuckanatahn!

anyway at least one thing i'm glad about.. i pluck up my courage and spoke to jun =) i msn her wishin her al the best for tml.. cos they're having performance.. and her response shocked me =) it's with a "muacks" it's been ages since we last played liddat =) and shit.. i'm missing everyone of them now =( tml ther'll be lush sompeting and also rise wil be performin.. but if u ask me to choose, seriously.. i wil wanna go for rise's =
u noe it's juz the.. the very different feeling.. lush.. true they're my crew.. no no! they're not my crew.. is i'm their member.. my one and onli crew is always vip.. somehow or rather.. i build it with the rest.. we started it.. we end it =( how i wish time could turn back =( it's like.. i dunnoh ow to put it into words but this song somehow hit it.. it's a chinese song by nicky.. but i translate it abit here ba..

the phone's still ringing, my heart's a lil rush
the familiar number's struggling
the acted strong front, the fake strength
after this moment of acting, brings more sadness..
the unpicked call is a kind of punishment
i shudnt tink but i cant let go
if we were to meet again, wat wil u say?
say u love me? or juz lonely?
forgive me for being cold, choosing not to be in contact
because i'm afraid u'll hear that i'm stil so sad.

the rest is on love la.. so not relai related.. but i think this is like F-king meaningful la!! i simply love nicky's song.. meaningful and omg damn sad =( it always hit straight into my heart sia =( hais.. i miss them.. in the middle of the nite again.. missing them.. tears rolling AGAIN.. after so long.. i've not relai cried.. but this time.. hais... but i seriously do pray for miracles.. this frenship.. this bond.. i once had them all.. but why?! why was it taken away?? =( who the hell took it away? i did not throw them how can they steal from me?! stole my precious of the precious.. knn!

i nv felt as sad as this i can say.. =( the wound of breakups can and wil be healed when time pass.. but the woun dof broken frenship cuts straight into u and never heals.. cos the broken pieces are stuck in there forever.. =( either u choose to stick them back provided they wan it that way too.. or u let it juz prick ur heart and pain like mad.. =( i'm choosing to stick it back.. i'm gonna lay down my pride.. i'm gonna earn back watever i used to have and watever that was stolen! to bring the lively, happy, fun me back.. this is the onli way.. i'm hiding.. i'm running.. yes i am.. cos i cant face anyone.. i cant move on without supports from them =( i need u ppl.. wil u come back??