Melody of my Life..

went to KSDP at youth park today.. wahh j-won very cute =X like xiao didi sia.. he like very yoshi lol =X ok nvm.. the lessons were GOOD!!! damn good! learnt poppin, hiphop styles and house.. walao.. doin house, my leg got tangled -.- but very nice! i like ^^

poppin's nice too.. so fun! the hiphop style.. walao.. his choreo very chim! and somemore we cannot see from our position.. and also he speak superrrrrr soft -.- in the end while learning hiphop style deary and me gave up lol =X and while doin house i also gave up abit hehe =X

very hard sia! the groove OMGOMGOMG! nvm i'll learn one day =) deary very funny.. when doin house i gave up, he say "eh why become is u acc me?!?!" lol! cos it was suppose to be he acc me =X but ya la.. very shiok.. =)

i'm a whacker, not a house dancer hehe =X but i''l learn =) after that went to makan at cine.. thn went esplanade.. saw lush =) learnt a few steps today.. SHIOKKKK! got this guy.. i dunno his name la.. i thot he very dao but no lei he very very frenly haha =) he teach me also thn he say he like my body =)

ok dun get the wrong idea.. in lush, the sentence "i like ur body" means "i like ur style of dancing.. ur lines ur way of executing the moves" so ya.. nothing bian tai ok =) he dance also very zai.. thou not as zai as maz la.. lol.. maz is like MADDDD! over-zai lol =X but they look alike ok nvm.. haha!

met deary's fren peggy today as well =) she's from m'sia.. she say she dun have any fren in spore.. except deary thn i added "thn me lei?" lol.. thn she say "ya lor now got 1 more yay" lol!!! she very cute.. she's a dancer i guess but she very very humble.. lol.. skarly she damn gd thn i faint lol =X

and saw liping and ivy today as well =) we went home tgt.. chatted ALOTTTTTTTT! lol! thn we realise.. OMG we know each other in sec1.. lol! and now al of us 19 yr old le sia! so long liao.. somemore we al forgot how the hell we noe each other le lol! cos i remember i got not much connection with northbrooks ppl.. except sisi who was from there..

but thn sisi and them also not sooo close ma.. how come i can become so close to them out of a sudden lol! somemore went to liping bday chalet when we noe each other awhile onli lol! mad sia! but fun =) maybe it's a fate la.. fated to be gd frens =) they say i slim down e.. whereas emi say i fat le =( omg la! hurhur.. i wan jianfei =(

they keep asking me "eh ur bf ar?" lol -.- i dunno how to ans lol.. juz say erm.. bf-to-be lo.. haha! =X i dun care.. unless the question is popped, i wont take it that we're tgt =p emi say i very bad.. but i dun care bleahh! XP juz added them in msn.. haha.. gonna continue bitching le.. hehe.. and also realise that roy's bday is 2days after me.. WAHH! i reali forgot le sia lol! =X

anyway.. that BLOODY JASON LIM!!! bluff me this noon.. say he kana accident ytd ma de! this is how it goes..

jason:eh where u? wan come SGH find me? very sian sia..

me: huh? why u there sia? lol.. i cannot lei goin town now..

jason: ytd i got involve in a accident.. broke my left leg and torn right nerve lo.. sian..

me: WTF! how come sia?! omg.. r u ok?

jason: i was try to avoid a grandma den turn to the other lane and got hit by a truck frm behind and i landed on his windscreen. the broken glass cut into my right shoulder back and torn my shoulder nerve.

me: WTF?! so drama? thank god u're stil alive sms-ing me now lor! how u feeling now? walao shouldnt have curse u that time.. ok i tak them back k? i curse u that u wil recover soon.

jason:feel like dying lor.. cant even get off the bed.. that's y ask u come thn can wheelchair me out ma..

me: aiyo.. choy dun say dying la.. ma de.. SHHHH! thn ur gf lei? nv go find u?

jason: she at attachment can onli come after 6.. sian..

me: aiyo.. thn how? i cant lei.. later got dance at youth park and tml i got performance i sunday or monday thn go find u can?

jason: thn u owe me one mango pudding lo.. cannot lie to me!!!

me: orh ok lor.. thn i owe u a big tub lo since is i curse u one =X

jason: ok.. and.. i lied.. nice? haha

thn he called me saying..

jason: wahaha!

me: MA DE LA!!! NABEI @#$%^&*()!

jason: aiya i very sian ma.. dabian-ing now nothing to do.. thot i say til so drama u wont believe.. end up u believe..

me: walao ehh!!! cheebiang la! *continue naggin at him*

jason: ok la.. sorry lor.. but mango pudding stil muz give me..promise one..

me: no lor! u lie.. so i broke my promise

jason: it's different thing! cannot.. u muz give me..

me: dun wan! bleah!!

jason: dun care ar.. by sunday or monday..

me: bleahh! i goin out le bye!

ma de rite?!?! reali bth lor.. reali scare the hell out of me sia! end up i late to meet deary.. kaos >=( but reali ar.. i wont curse anyone liao =X not even jokingly.. very scary sia =\ and today's himchuan gorgor's bday.. dunno wanna =) or =( hais.. reali miss him alot!

it's been 5yrs since he left.. =( hais.. i stil couldnt find the pace where he is placed.. onli noe it's at guang ming shan the gratitude hall.. i went there 2 or 3yrs ago trying to search for him.. looking at 8000 over ashes.. but couldnt find him =( reali wish to find him now sia.. at least could go visit him.. i promise i wil visit him every yr his bday lei =(

i miss my gorgor.. =( alot! alot alot! =( why i quarrel with him b4 he died? why i didnt listen to him? why he nv even said bye b4 he left? which fucker wanna find him trouble? why the fucker kill him?! cheebye! i curse that fucker and his gang die ASAP.. cheebye! hope their whole family kana curse! no! i dun wan them to die.. i wan them to suffer on earth!

may the family suffer got struck with illness and they themselves as well! knn! hais.. tink i wil try to find gorgor's family thn gt info from them ba.. reali muz visit him le.. muz show him ALOT of things.. my o lvl cert, my n lvl cert, my dance accomplishments and alot alot! am sure he'll be very happy =) his wish for me is to graduate and study well.. so gor.. i did it! =) i finally get into poly! =)

and another reason wh yi love to eat nuggets is cos b4 he died, he actually told grace that he wanna make nugget for me.. cos that very day his home econ lesson teaches them abt how to make nuggets.. but we quarrelled so he actually ask grace to pass it to me the next day.. but who knows.. after the chat at abt 6pm+, he told grace he need to go out.. talk to her later..

and he nv came back =( hais.. and there goes my gorgor.. one of the closest ppl in my life.. one of the guy that helped me alot when i was down.. one of ppl that teaches me rite from wrong.. and one of the guy who teaches me that being a ah lian is nothing to be ashame of but being a lowly ahlian that bully ppl is thn ashame..

he's one guy that nv look down on me when everyone else does.. he's one guy that accepted me for who i am and helped mewhen everyone ard me avoids me.. without him i dunno wat i am now.. hais.. and now he's gone =( stil remember the last thing i said is "fuck la" and we nv talk since thn =( and the last thing he did to me is a slap on my left cheek.. hais..

if i noe i wil lose him.. i wont be so rebellious.. i miss him.. may my gor rest in peace.. love him.. =) once a gor.. forever a gor.. he lives in me.. always..

gor.. it's been long since u last visited my dreams..
wil u come tonite?
on ur special day today..
may u find peace and may u help me find peace as well..
thanks for guiding me even after u left..
thanks for al the words u left in my dreams..
i miss u..
happy birthday.. my dearest brother..
-with love-
xinwei meimei