Melody of my Life..

Juz A Day..
nothin much.. went to dance as usual in my mind stil filled with him.. i said i dun wanna tink so much but i cant la.. =\ ok nvm tink but dun do anythin much ba.. when at dance yutaki was askin us wat we actually wan? i was lost cos i reali dunno wat i wan.. i'm like a aimless dancer.. =\ i juz say i wan a crew? a crew where i reali belong? but for that moment i feel that every dncer is alone.. dancers are lonely creatures.. we may seem very happy n united on the surface.. but tink.. we're actually empty bins.. crews can get tgt but yes.. they can split up too.. see how many crews had been splited up? and how many lonely dancers are out there searchin for a place they belong? i'm one of them.. i've been searchin for over 3years.. and am stil searchin.. maybe i'm worst.. other thn dance.. i had nothin else in life i can do.. i thot i had a lot previously.. i had almost everythin in the world..! my frens, my crew, my colleagues, my family, my love.. but now.. everythin seem gone! gone in juz a few seconds.. =\ well maybe i am reali a shooting star juz in human form.. travelling alone is my fate and fulling other people's wish with silence sufferings.. travel n travel.. suffer n suffer.. til the day my flame dies off which is the day i can rest n sleep forever thn.. for now.. i'll juz fulfill my mission on this world ba.. giving ppl happiness but not gaining any.. no matter how tired i am no matter how torturing is feels.. i'll juz bear with it and hang on.. til my times up.. maybe thn i can rest.. at least when i turn back.. i realise how many happy souls i've helped.. i'll feel happy ba.. it's ok for me to suffer.. who am i anyway.. juz a ordinary girl who onli needs love but can never get it.. ha~ fate.. somethin which i dun wanna accept but had no choice but accepting it.. =\ fate had cause so much misery in life.. if onli i can, i'll capture fate.. haha ok was watchin "date with vampire" so got abit of inspiration to write this down lol! got alot of inspiration to write bout life this few days.. well thanks to my dearie who made me think so much recently.. now i'm struggling with this question "to face it.. or to run from it?" =\ ok give me few more days to tink ba.. got alot of question on my mind now.. how i wish he's stronger thn this.. hais.. nvm.. i'll give him al the freedom and time he need to tink bout wat he reali wan or need to be happy.. like i said.. i'm a shooting star.. who's here to grant u ur wish but suffer in silence =
Tv Review!!
watched "a date with the vampire3" wah biang eh! got this part hor.. yaochi love fuxi so much she tell him "as long as u say the 3 words (i love u) i'm willing to do anythin even to be ur mistress.." =\ but thn fuxi said no cos he dun wanna lie to her n hurt her.. thn yaochi damn damn sad she cried and granted him his freedom she said "is that 3 word so hard to say?!" she's very mad! cried terribly and said "ok nvm i'll leave.." thn she left.. i see le my heart "biang" sia! thn they were at a party but she's suffering alot.. she hide them inside her.. nobody knew.. thn suddenly her HP beeps.. she open the sms and saw the words "i love u" OMG OMG OMG!!!! she went to a corner and cried again.. fuxi went up to her to check if she's alrite.. she say she cried cos she's too happy.. they hugged thn he said to her "i realise i onli love u.." she's damn happy but thn he said again "this is al i can do.. the least i can do for u.." wah biang! so he do this juz to make her happy??? not cos he reali love her? =\ y guys always liddat?! they never know who love them the most and how to cherish them.. wahkaox.. if i noe fuxi.. i'll slap him for sure! thn maoyu, another girl said "yaochi maybe stupid to do al this willingly for fuxi.. but it's al this unconditioned love that she can n should be proud of.." yea i AGREE! and another guy also said this "believe in miracles and they'll happen sooner or later.. cos miracles are for everyone.. but onli if u perservere n believe in it.." hmm is it true? i believe in it.. but i aint seeing anythin now =\ maybe i should perservere? i dunno but this show hit me alot! the love that contains ahhhhhhhh! if onli my fate is like yaochi.. =\ but hor.. yaochi died in the end =\ sad hor! OMG! thn bupo(the guy who love yaochi so much) suffered alot =\ he cant get her love.. yet he help her n fuxi tgt =\ wahbiang! another "hero" in love.. i aint so wei da ba.. =\ but of cos i wish i'll be like yaochi ba.. hais.. dunno la! walao let me see this kinda story at tis point of my life =\ -faints!- okok nice show thou! ma xiaoling n tianyou got tgt FINALLY!they FINALLY can get married.. tat's xiaoling's onli wish b4 she die.. wahh power of love =\ ok i juz perservere and hope my fte wil be like yaochi ba.. =\ -numb-