Melody of my Life..

ok i'm super super tired! but i have to blog this as a reflection to myself ba.. VIP was the onli grp that got eliminated from the semi.. yeap.. sad huh? yes i am very very sad and disappointed.. not cos we got eliminated.. but cos i didnt do my best.. it's not even my HALF! =\ i totally freak out like mad! MAD MAD MAD!! my mind went black when i step on the stage and it's reali faking a smile, expression.. thou they say it was not bad.. but ya it's FAKE!

i didnt do wrong steps but my timing went haywire and i juz do the steps for the sake of doing.. not dancing at all! i cant feel the music.. i cant feel the atmosphere.. i cant feel anythin except "i'm gonna collapse" =\ serious! i was dancing and suddenly i feel like juz collapse.. =\ i tink i was too tired.. i didnt slp a wink.. ok or rather i slept.. 10min? haha~ but i didnt noe it wil affect SOOOOO badly! comments from dion and the rest were "messy.. iko/xinwei you slow one beat. you're not with the other 2 person" =(

for that moment.. i wan to die.. and i mean it.. i relai feel like juz burst out in tears and juz quit joining any comps.. =\ i felt that i bring VIP down and it was super terrible.. i juz dun wan anything to do with performing or competing anymore.. =( but thn after a whole nite of reflecting and getting comments from ppl who i tink wil tell truths, i tink i shudnt be so discouraged.. in fact, i shud feel the push.. th rush to do better! practise harder and go for more lesson.. and one mroe thing.. NO MORE laziness!!!

dear's comment was.. he tink we mark steps too much during practise.. thus our energy during the actual dance is reali LOWWWW~ and we're not VERY sure of our steps.. =\ erika say we reali got the "wat's the next step?" face =( but onli 1 gd thing i receive is that my expression is gd.. ok not REALI gd but at least i smile and TRY to feel the music (failed).. thn comment from yutaki is that we are not tight.. we're stil doin our own thing..

and he first thing ask is "why u al dun get more ppl?" i tink he means something like if we got more ppl we can play with the formation more and the choreo wil be more exciting.. =\ thn he say we also quite suay cos al the teams very strong.. and thn again.. dear said.. "almost al the teams are from studio wu or instructors so you al are already brave!" and yutaki's glad we joined comps as well as i guess it wil help us learn more and noe where we stand ba..

he also said that if we need help can ask him.. i tink i wil go back to his class.. =\ i reali need classes la.. thou i've improve alot from lush.. but thn again.. i need proper lessons to learn lines and proper guidance as well ba.. i'm way too lousy.. for once i relai tink i am not cut to be a dancer =\ maybe being a pianist is much better.. but.. my fingers are retarded for the time being cos too long nv touch the pianos le =( but no la.. i wont give up being a dancer!!

many say "when u lost once comps, al ur efforts put in went down the drain.." but no lei.. i dun tink so.. in fact i tink that even if we lost, we stil have those skilss that we learnt and those experience added to our "gallery" so i guess afterall no matter wat it's a gd learning experience ba.. and i'm glad that the other competitors cheered for us when we were being asked "who tink VIP wil get into the finals, clap!" i tink it's reali encouraging le.. =)

and lovynn commented that our style is too "hiphop-ish" liao.. cos other teams is reali SEXY! hot pants! small jackets! messy hair! sex moves! =\ and ours is reali dance dance type =\ somemore not sexy dance! -.- so i guess we're out of the theme as well ba.. i'm so so so tired that i cant even blog properly now.. i guess i wil post other interesting stuffs about today, tml ba.. gd nite everyone! and may god help me with my path to my dream -dance..

i wont give up
i wont be lazy again..
i wil work hard!!
i wan to be the best!!!!
and i believe i can if i perservere!
god sees and understands.. helps too..
lovess..