Melody of my Life..

i'm missing him so much that i tink i'm goin crazy =( i already forgotten when was the last time we went out on a date.. =( and the worst thing is i didnt even realise i was leading a "i'm not attach" lifestyle recently.. =( i noe it's my bad for that.. but thn i never ever have this kinda things happen b4 ma.. thus i reali dunno what shud or what i shudnt do..

it's like.. i wan to call him, sms him.. but thn i scared i disturb him.. or i dun wish to hear his sian sian voice when he's stress with work.. thn end up we'll quzrrel or being unhappy =( so i chose to let him find me instead of i find him.. and be silent and wait.. but i guess i was wrong.. i made myself live the life of a unattach and made him felt lonely =(

"i'm sorry dear"

anyway during the bboy jam.. he onli came out once.. tat's y i didnt reali blog about it.. it's not i didnt care ok =( and also his battle was a "damn clear who win la" that kinda situation.. but ya la i admit his moves were nice.. but i dun reali like the part where his face is so sian before the battle =X but well.. he helped out during the organising part.. so stress.. so sian.. yup.. cant help it one la.. i understand..

well.. i'm glad he did help abit by pushing zw they al to the cypher.. if not i tink i'll be damn sian cos i thot "why as a instructor u're not pushing them while i am doin the job?" but thn i understand his point as well by "let them go themselve if not this fri they're not gonna make it" cos it's like he wan them to be more independent also la.. so i kept quiet lo..

oh well.. many thos are running in my head recently.. i felt that he's starting to be "anti social" =\ but thn maybe is his work al that stress la.. took up so much of his time.. tat's y he cant even be social to anyone.. i dun wish my bf to the type whereby he's attach and forgot al about his frens.. =\ i no wan that.. neither do i wan him to spend ALOT of time with me in the future and never get to hang out with his frens.. his fuyo.. his breaking..

i like the old larry.. the larry that's always smiling and breaking with fuyo and FTC.. the larry that sees me and smile and play ard.. the larry that hangs out with HHIG after their lessons.. even thou we may not be tgt that time.. but the sweet guy is there.. the plainly sweet and ask for nothing in return guy is there.. i noe now is his crutial time for his sch.. tat's y i dun wanna complain.. =(

kelvin ask "why he dun wan take a break one day per week?" i replied.. "is he cannot.. not he dun wan" =( i onli hope that the old frenly larry wil be back once his work is over.. the ever breaking.. ever playing larry.. i never see him frown b4 we really got to noe each other.. i never see him being unhappy before we got to know each other.. is this why ppl always say.. "when u like someone.. dun be with him if u dun wanna see the imperfection.." is it that true? i hope not.. =
missing those days.. =(