Melody of my Life..

am wacthing a documentary show now.. it's about some volunteer helping old ppl who're dying soon.. suddenly i felt that.. life is so pathetic.. we live.. we fought for success when we're young.. we do al we can to reach our passion.. we do our best.. we stress.. we cry.. but.. when were nearing death.. life seems like nothing.. it's juz like.. "why are we fighting so hard to live now?"

i feel very sad for those old ppl who dun have anyone to "send" them off.. i see this scene where they place the ashes rite inside the rows where is not visible at all.. i see this another scene where the ashes were thrown into the sea.. i suddenly feel.. "isnt there anyone that wil come and pray to them?" "are they reali so lonely in this world?"

it's kinda sad thou.. to noe that.. one day.. even i might not have anyone to send me off.. not being emo here.. but tat's the fact.. death is rather scary.. it makes us feel helpless.. hopeless.. and it's reali the end.. the end of al the sufferings we go thru in life.. the end of watever we've built in live.. so why do we live?

hais.. i dunno.. but i felt that.. life is nothing.. seeing ppl ard me stress over work.. stress over every other things.. it made me felt "why the fuck are u so stress for when u noe 're gonna die one day?" well.. maybe i'm not mature enuff to tink.. but tat's wat i feel at least for now.. i see no point making ourselves suffer in order to be the best.. but yet again.. there's this saying "we onli live once.. made it a worthy one" well.. juz let myself learn as my "deadline" is approaching ba..

i dun understand..