Melody of my Life..

had a very emotive day lol~ or rather.. feel alot today.. gd and bad.. at first heard some rather saddening news from VIP.. wont say it much.. but thn ya it did bring me to the bottom once again.. =\ another person "giviing up" the dream.. the passion.. ya indeed.. everyone's different.. how we priorities things in our life.. well.. maybe her passion is not as strong as anyone one of us.. there's nothin else we can do for her anymore.. like wat another says.. "we've did our best"

and i suddenly thot.. "i have been to nice and soft to her.. i've always "protect" her from criticism.. til now she cant accept them.. lil lil setbacks, lil lil stress and POOF the passion's half dead.." ya la.. i noe la "every individual is diff" ok lo.. she noe wat she wants in life can le.. juz dun regret anythin like how she regretted giving up once..

thn after awhile..

tapa: iko u can come for practise today?

me: huh? for?

tapa: practise for PA comp.. you're in..

me: chingay?!?!

tapa: yup.. chingay

that gave brings back my smile for the day =) chingay from VIP is declined.. but chingay from lush is back once again! haha~ and the best part is.. from lush, 14ppl are joining!! lol! fun rite?!?! woohoo~ 14!!! i tink the whole of lush joining lol! looking forward to it =)

and settled some countdown thingy woth ann.. =) so i guess almost everythin is done =) next is to confirm the ppl for the performance =) which i tink is mostly settled haha~ sometimes i was wondering.. "why am i working so hard? why do i have to do everythin? why do i have to alias with organisers, why do i have to mix songs, why do i have to worry for every individual, why do i always have to be the one motivating them?"

but thn.. if i dun do it, who wil? at least this time round it's much better.. they're somehow helping themselves and me as well ^^ when i feel very very disappointed, they're there to cheer me on.. thanks ppl esp to shir ^^ i guess al of us have grown.. even myself =) i admit i do make mistakes here and there.. and u ppl helped me along the way =) *appreciates*

also had quite abit of emo in me thinking bout stuffs between me and dearie.. gd and bad.. first i thot bout our future.. wil al the quarrels gonna be like this forever? =\ wil we reali be able to accept one another as who we are.. i dun like it when he over stress himself.. but at the same time, he also dun like it when i'm too stubborn =X alot alot..

but yet again, i feel that i'm one of the luckiest girl to have him ^^ showered in love everyday, and someone who's there for me when i need him.. al this is enuff.. =) dear.. i dun nid a life of luxury.. i dun nid a guy who's damn successful in life or watever.. *juz enuff to keep us alive can le* i juz need u to love me the way i am.. may the days ahead be as the same as now.. but minus the quarrels yea? lol~ hugss..

i'm happy with my life..
i'm lucky to be in LUSH..
i'm lucky to have VIP..
i'm lucky to be with him..
i'm content..