Melody of my Life..

sometimes i serioualy dunno why the fuck ppl wanna keep talkin and talkin bout nonsense over n over again.. i read her blog.. she talked about the conflict again.. ok fine.. if u wonder y dion they al can leave "peacefully" is cos firstly dion is not close with us.. and for ash.. is cos we juz dun wanna question anythin.. actually did u realise..

did u ask urself "why things are liddat today?" tink about it CAREFULLY! when u al wanna leave.. did i confront u? did i say "fuck la go la" i'm juz using tat phrase to generalised things ok.. if u can remember.. my response to ur leaving is "leave lor" and i kept shut.. watever i blog about is non of anyone's business.. rite?

who ask u to wan to talk to us.. ok tat i dun blame u.. i understand u juz wanna keep the frenship.. so i accepted.. "let's meet on fri" end up.. i dunno how the hack.. and why the hack suddenly u al change time.. thn al ur attitude are like "walao sian la" to meet us.. hello?! now is u al wan talk not us lei..

aiya watever it is.. the past is the past.. go n backstab bout us to my ONCE bestie la.. GO ON.. since is a ONCE bestie.. no longer anymore wat.. shudnt hurt much to me la.. i'll juz act blind or deaf lor..

for my ONCE bestie.. i read ur blog.. if u tink the last part of the "er xin" is use on u.. al i can say is our telepathy lost it's connection.. if u self admit i got nothin to say.. for me.. i'm not referring to u.. but i dun deny the first part is referring to u.. and i apologise here.. cos i forgot u gt ur celebration.. i swear i forgot.. if u dun believe it's up to u..

and if u wanna noe the reason y i dun wanna go.. i already told u b4.. and u said u somehow understand.. so better dun blame me for not goin.. i'm juz tellin u.. i'm not sayin tat u blame me or wat.. but even if u had already blamed me.. well got nothin to say..

and i tink i need to clarify for emi.. when u girls are sms-ing.. i was there.. i can onli say "electronics devices can make ppl get the wrong idea cos the wrong emotions might be passed as well.." got it? we interpreted that the way u reply is in a "fuckin" attitude u get wat i mean? the last sentence "thurs and fri evening i cant make it..i've got arrangements alrd" u noe ppl always misinterpretted it..

aiya i dunno liao la.. not gd at words la.. wanna listen dun wanna listen.. wanna accept my explaination dun wanna accept.. i cant help it liao.. my another ONCE bestie said "I We dont bother anymore about you.. just forget about the past and get alive!" when had u ever bother/care about me ever since tat incident happen?

and i also told her tat clov can always survive with 3"petals" but wat did she say? "no lo.. thn it wont be clo anymore.." and u too say b4 "love u stil" rite la hor! dun say things when u dun mean them.. and b4 u comment on anythin.. pls get al facts rite.. thanks..

since u said that.. it shall be it.. fine.. i wont bother u girls anymore too! frenship ended rite? fine! if u didnt noe. i do the video with al my heart.. but NON and i mean NON of u appreciates it.. al i get is a comment "nice video" tat's it.. how nice ehh? ha.. how stupid was i thinkin that maybe by doin tat things wil/might get better.. lol! i'm stil the fool the naive stupid fool in the end.. thanks for the hurt.. THANKS SO DAMN MUCH!

"we wont quarrel anymore.. cos i believe we're stable liao.."
"cherish each other b4 the day we never get the chance to again(when we die).."
"love u girls always"
"nothin can tear us apart"

these are jux few of the thousands words thn is in my miind now.. haha.. all proven FAKE! i dun mean they lie cos the dun mean it.. but somehow it's not proven rite? i never lie.. why? cos when i noe the very very first incident when me n her quarrel about recently over the LIES, i already tried to bury n i stil love her as much.. tat's my job done.. but wat is it now? everyone gangin up turning back on me??? fine!

life of xinwei had ended.. she lost everythin in less thn a month.. her crew, her besties.. EVERYTHIN! seems like the world's turning it's back on me.. haha.. well thn fine u fuckin world.. when u have everythin be careful.. cos one fine day.. u might juz lose al of them.. like i did.. anyway when she said tat in her blog.. i guess she dun feel a thing la.. she always tink she's rite too.. forget it.. senses cant get into her sometimes.. to them i am NOTHIN now.. so y bother? haha.. fine lor.. i shall not feel sad i guess.. when they wont feel a thing.. one last time.. take care.. get the LIFE tat u wan.. get them well get them done.. i'm outta it.. since u kick me out juz like tat when it means nothin.. gd bye is the hardest word to say.. but i shall say it now.. since u said it so many times.. thanks n blessing