Melody of my Life..

yawns.. sch's boring.. new faci today even thou it's our last lesson and thank god it's the LAST lesson!!! XD cocknitive is finally over!! anyway had a real nice slp even thou it's short.. no idea why but stil feel gd after the slp :D and lol~ i wasnt sleepy today but just feel like staring into space for a long long time no idea why.. can anyone explain? lol~ and now am in class doin basically craps.. the faci talks alottttttt and i'm like "yayayayayaya....." *yawns*

ok just a few thots on ytd's event at MOS.. i see alot of "happy" ppl ard doing their stuffs.. as usual like wat i always see.. frenching, kissing, licking, touching etc.. ya i noe it's basically nothing new in clubs and it's simply nothing good.. but like i said.. i see them "happy".. so are they reali happy? they smile, laugh, enjoyed.. but when back home i see those "happy" ppl being emo, being unhappy.. why? why do we humans wan to lower ourselves to that standard? to be FOC for everyone? especially girls! omg~ certainly i do not wish to noe one day that my bf is one of them.. =\ but i trust him thou =)

i certainly am gettin abit turned off by clubs now =\ ok i'm not turned off by clubs but am turned off by things i see in clubs.. some ppl are so fake! i'm beginning to wonder are the fakeys ard me now planning on something not as ncie.. =\ it's weird when someone tells u how happy he/she is seeing u being happy.. yet saying things which hurt u or make u feel bad indirectly.. and that someone is stil ur frens who acted so NICE to u! omg~ kinda scary.. i'm being paranoid? guess so hope so..

well.. other thn these not-so-nice things i had in mind, it's great meeting ppl noeing frens =) met alot of them but mostly had more impression of the girls haha.. guess was due to the forums and so on =) feel more comfy with them when we met.. the guys are all "hi u're iko rite? i'm XXX" thn i "orh ok hi!" thn tat's al the next min i forget the name le =X maybe afew names i remember but i cant remember the face! omg~ but who cares.. haha!

but oh well.. i got a feeling i wont be too much into clubbing as in a hardcore clubber.. firstly, i believe there's much more impt things in life thn that.. i need to make sure my life is spent worthwhile.. i dun wish to juz waste it away.. and hello i'm 20 this yr! which means 1/3 of my life is over! i have no faith that i wil live more thn 70 thou haha~ especially if my life is gonna continue liddat clubbing away, definitely i'll die before 60 =\

actually come to tink of it.. i honestly dun tink i can live long thou.. haha~ which is a gd thing thou.. i dunno i juz feel we humans are pathetic.. i was thinking of this since few days back.. and after ytd, i tink i can confirmed it =\ at the end of the day, we all reduces to ashes.. why are we chasing al the luxury, fame, certificates etc? sigh.. humans.. are all fools by nature.. ok i promise i wont be emo again cos i no wanna waste my time again.. life's short.. be pessimistic and move on in life =) god has his plans laid out for me.. =)