Melody of my Life..

lets breakup.. such a easy words that came out from his mouth.. well since it's so easy to end this r/s.. it juz means tat it does not weigh tat much to him.. he say my attitude is behind it all.. well.. maybe.. but haven i told him tat before we got tgt? haven i told him i do not have nice attitude? haven i told him al that? and he himself promise to make me happy with watever it takes.. but now?

he say i make him sad al the time.. izit?!?! i didnt noe.. so al my efforts of trying to surprise him.. trying to be a sweet gf.. trying to change for him.. trying to get used to his way of being in a r/s.. his way of loving me.. all these.. are nothin now.. i stil remember he said 'i wish to try to maintain this r/s at least til 5yrs so i can have a chance to marry u" yayaya~ more of like maintaining it for a month or so? it's not even the 2nd month!

i guess watever i try to say is pointless la.. maybe he'll be better alone.. since he loves his job so much.. i believe he wil be happier alone.. no more burden no more responsibilities in a r/s.. he can dota al he wans.. he dun have to worry for me.. he dun have to do anythin else.. and juz live his life the way he wans and happy with..

damn.. i'm already dressed up to meet him and now i have to go find sii to confide in.. to be very honest i am crying.. crying terribly.. =( the tears juz burst out =( he say he needs a more mature gf.. but arent him suppose to help me? help me grow? make me learn? why is he abandoning me liddat? i feel like i'm juz thrwn aside.. juz.. ignored! =( and damn! i'm wearing the stupid rainbow shirt now.. fuck! wrong shirt at the wrong timing.. i guess i juz go out and find someone to cry to le.. bye

shattered
left alone
dumped

p/s:i muz be strong and never to fall that deep ever again.. i will be strong!