didnt go sch =X overslept la! hehe~ anyway rot at home watch naruto~ whee~ very nice sia!!! omg can my other episode like dl faster?!?! rahh!! XD anyway tml dance cancel.. ask me isit angry? haha.. i dun see the point of getting angry la.. it's not my life.. i'm not anyone to add any pressure to anyone.. ^^ everyone determines themselves wat they wan to be in life.. work harder and get wat u really really wan.. or dun so so hard and never be where u wan to be.. or even.. dun even care and give up.. haha

they're al old enuff to tink for themselves.. no need for me to care or bother their life or their way of doing things.. yeap.. not my business so i'm not gonna get affected at all ^^ grrr.. my poor 3250 is stil in the maddy mad mode lol~! is relai damn cute la.. the light blinks like techno! hahaha! and dearie got me a memory card le ^^ so happy siak! whee~ i noe how to press my keypad le lol! cannot press like normally from the side.. muz press the bottom.. -.-

nvm.. hard to explain also haha =X ahh.. so boring.. dunno wat to blog about also.. hmm.. oh ya.. tink dearie and kelvin got abit of misunderstanding =\ i mean kelvin og HHIG.. aiyoyo.. hopefully things get better ba =) and also dearie felt rather down today =( tink he's too stress le.. haiyo.. *hugs* juz hope that the rest of the guys wil noe his hard work for them ba =) and also hope they wil noe dearie's "goal" or "plan" for them so they'll work toowards the same goal ba =)

tml die also have to go sch le lol =X cannot pon so much YET! lol =X but anyway i got 3B and 1C for the past week.. 1 more module grade haven come out -.- slow sia! faci muz be lazying! =X wahaha~ anyway i like my enterprise faci XD he very funny la.. frenly also.. and he dun make us go thru 6 bloody same presentation over and over again.. ZzZzz.. too dreading~ and he let us choose wat time we wan to go home! XD lol!!!

hmm reali dunno wat to blog about.. haha~ tml guess after sch wil hang out with W25E peeps ba ^^ the onli day where mr vern wil be free to hang out with us lol! but mr nic confirm buay sai one -.- he got church lol~ so see how ba.. and tink i'm gonna get a big shock from andy's hair! lol! damn red la!!!! siao lang~ thn tml nite needa get my nails done le.. very ugly now lol!! seems like i'm a busy person too! haha! yay! ok gonna talk to dearie abit more thn go koonz liao.. miss him la! XD nitey!

i rather spend my time worrying for other things..
why do i have to do everythin?
it's not as if i'm the head or leader..
everyone shud be responsible for their own actions..
we live our life ourselves..
no one else..

very very very sleepy~ @_@ in class now for presentation.. but i'm like so damn tired lol~ didnt slp late lei.. alept at 1am.. dunno y stil so tired.. =\ later might be goin to gin class.. sian.. my 10bucks =\.. oh ya! my 3250 ok ler! ^^ damn damn damn happy sia!!!! and it's surprisingly ok de lol~ cos daddy brought back ytd.. but i on.. same thing.. got the "NOKIA" there for damn long thn hang =(

thn i thot "hais nvm lo.. keep as memorial =(" thn i charge for fun.. thn til like very very late ard 12.45am.. i heard "dong" like those charging thn the phone sound.. lol! thn i see.. can on le!!!!!!!! XD damn f*cking happy!!!! but thn hor.. my memory card lost! CB! tink the shop person take.. knn sia! if they purposely one i fuck them upside down ar! but if accident thn return be back thn ok lo.. forgiven..

grrr! dulan! X( but stil happy cos finally got hope le ^^ and hor.. my number pad cannot press one lol!!!! muz press damn hard =\ thn ir ealise.. if i hold my phone horizontally rite.. thn can press easily.. lol!!! damn funny! like playing game.. thn i type sms wil die lol! but happy la! music not spoile.. but my camera dunno why cannot use =\ weird.. oh and my screen no light.. or rather the light on and off lol!!! techno sia! =X

ok my phone's ok but sound very bad condition.. ok i admit it is in a bad condition.. zzzzz even i cannot help but wanna laugh at the way i sms lol!!! =X but happy la! gonna settle my number pad and light.. and camera.. thn SD card.. thn POOF! a new phone again!!! XD whee~ i go sian in class le.. buai~

felt like shit.. stone like mad.. and damn sian.. =\ lucky enuff today's faci's gd.. and i mean damn gd! he gave us our RJ question during our 1st breakout.. can imagine?? lol~ and he even gave the guidelines for the ppt.. haha~ thus.. we're done like since dunno how long ago.. lol~ and i tink we can release by 3pm today.. cos he onli make 2teams present.. and suay enuff my team kana -.- but nvm la.. easy easy haha~ ok i tink i wanna go slack le ba.. juz now found shinhwa de lyrics.. damn damn happy sia! midnight girl so nice!!!!!! ok bye~

BREAK DOWN =...(

it's terrible to feel this way now.. =( felt like i'm the worst person in this bloody fucking world.. i'm so damn tired of everythin.. and i mean EVERYTHIN! =( i shouldnt let the emotions in me get the head side of me.. i shouldnt have been so harsh to her.. =(

i'm sorry..

i shouldnt have let him FELT that "i am enjoying here while he is busy working there"

i'm sorry..

it dun feels gd to have to find my frens to "accompany" me when he's not ard.. AT ALL! du i wish to have him ard? dun i wish to see, feel and hear him? dun i wish those too?

I DO!

i'm a human.. a bloody HUMAN in this bloody WORLD! this world of stress.. this world of tired life! i can feel~ i have feelings.. i'm not a machine that works to make everyone happy..

who'll make me happy than?

i juz wanna be a honest gf to him.. i dun tink i deserve the "scolding" from them when i'm being honest to him.. why do i have to lie to him when i'm reali with my frens waiting for them to go home? i believe he wont wan me to lie either.. unless he dun wan a honest gf.. they say i'm not sensitive enuff.. well.. maybe..

=(

it feels sucky when i'm the one who's at fault WHOLE DAY! =\ it dun feel gd when i have sadness but cant share it with anyone.. it feels sucky.. when i have to bear al the stress to myself.. is this life? i dun wan a tiring life.. i dun wan anymore stress.. and i dun wanna give myself anymore burden and dun wanna be a burden to anyone either!

=(

i need a fren too! i need a hug too! i need someone to care too! i need ppl to make me smile.. make me laugh.. TOO!

i'm a human too..
i need a gd cry.. =....(

wahh damn shag @_@ went to zouk with zhenwei, kelvin, JC, bryan, meiyan and meibao.. was fun la.. but zouk SUCKS! =X trance trance trance.. nabei.. so nice meh?! =\ we stay til ard 1plus nearly 2 am thn we went to lido mac to makan le.. cannot take the trance.. =\ we were al rather drunk lol!! damn funny! but i'm sober la juz see things spin nia =X and JC is GONE! lol! damn funny!

thn next to almost gone is kelvin lol! thn the rest onli tipsy but very fine haha! thn me and bryan actually can click sia! lol! cant imagine we use to "fight" online hahaha! thn everythin was normal lo.. no place to go so we went to cine.. thn zhenwei went home first cos he CMI le lol =X thn the rest of us went to Kpool.. the guys played while us watch.. thn til 4.30 there close le so we went to slack at LJS to wait for first train..

talk alot of nonsense la lol! thn when first train le we al took the same side one go home lol! i keep bugging them wahaha~ =X thn nothing much le ba.. club sucks but the hang out are nice ^^ cant imagine they al leaing RP after this sem sia! =( thn sian liao lo.. i left with W25E mates le =( sobsob.. nvm ba.. can still meet up one haha~ go koonz le.. nitey!

haha some ppl born without names tagged again.. lol~ i simply dun understand why ppl dun wanna put their name.. izit no face to see ppl? lol~ or their reputation like sai? =X haha anyway no need to entertain nameless freak ba.. i complain much or less is none of ur business FYI.. and this is my blog.. like i said not happy dun read lo.. no need to read and get piss wat lol~

ok anyway today was slightly better thn ytd la.. at least when we leaving there's "bye!" from most of them lol~ quite cute actually.. like very formal siak~ XD usually in W25E we wil "BYE!!!" thn this one is "gdbye c u tml" lol!!! jiuming~ damn funny.. but better thn nothing.. thn i was like damn damn damn "happy" over it thn keep telling the monkies of W25E lol~ thn i sya i wan buy 4D liao confirm strike! lol =X

today's problem mad one sia~ it's problem solving module.. shud be easy one lei.. but the prob today is walao ehh siao lang one~ lol! element la, atomism la, holism la.. lol~! simi sai?! but my team thou abit off track but ok la.. quite fun thou.. today got 5 more new frens haha~ ytd got 4 today got 5.. i tink reali can SLOWLY noe my new frens le lol =X

aiya i tink this class CMI la.. after this sem confirm wont be in contact one.. this is more like a CLASSMATES instead of FRENSHIP.. haha~ but thn it's ok la.. i'm not a despo for frens ^^ but i wont mind having man thou haha =X wahh very very tired.. @_@

i miss my bf la =( so many days nv see le siak~ rahh~ but nvm la.. praying for the day that we meet wil come faster lol =X *prays prays* missh him lots! ^^

went to esply.. dance.. ok la lol~ damn funny one.. gd to see them ok again ^^ very glad things are liddat now haha~ VIP rocks! XD we decide to use the BUMP version mix other thn the FIGHTER version mix le.. thou shorter but nicer haha =X woohoo~ gonna dance like mad! XD anyway lush was there, FTC was there and fuyo was there.. but my bf not there -.- but he's in my heart~ LALALA =X

i go makan thn KO le.. tireddddddddd~ nitey~ am glad tml's a no sch day phew~

prays that my class wil be better as days goes by..
and may it be ASAP =\

I HATE MY CLASS!!!!! X(
hurr i mean it man! i relai hate my class! everyone's so in their own world.. i feel no bond AT ALL! and i reali dun have the damn feeling to go sch.. see their face.. i sian.. see the problem statement i die.. =\ walao! how am i gonna survive this 4 bloody months??? =\ hurhurhurhur~ i relai thot of quitting sch sia! imagine how bad it is~

but i noe i wont quit la.. i'll be stupid to quit =\ but.. hurr! i hate my class =( after sch meet up with alot of W25E ppl.. reali fun sia! we scream and shouted as usual.. undecisive as usual.. and crap as usual lol~ thou it's very diulian ar =\ but I'M LOVING IT! but why muz end so fast? =( now this class.. the motto is "silence is gold" damn it! something i HATE the most! =( fuck la.. i reali hate it la! X( how?!?! 4 months! omgomgomg~

hais.. al of us dun like our current class.. =\ how i wish time wil pass faster now.. ket me get a 2.6GPA and POOF! i'm ogg to yr 2.. and i guess i'll be much much happier sia! =\ at least in yr 2 i'll be taking my OWN FAVOURITE modules.. no nid to take nonsense things like math, computing, science.. waste of my time and money.. and.. MY SLEEP!!!! damn it!

why cant my class be slightly more frenly? why cant they be more "themselves" instead of locking themselves up in their own circle?? why why why??? =( i cant even be myelf in the class la! it's like i have to worry if watever i do wil upset them.. i have to worry if i didnt do work they wil "backstab" me ornt.. fuck la..

it's so fake la! juz a damn fake environment~! i HATE IT!!!!!

omgomgomg i'm so damn freaking tired! X( didnt slp a wink last nite hurhur =\ cant slp la =( i roll and flip and turn on bed since ard 3am.. but til 6.30 i give up and went to get ready for sch le.. ok class's ok ba *i hope* they're too damn quiet =\ it's reali "silence is golddd" omgomgomg =\ and even til now ar..i onli noe like 3ppl? =\ too quiet le la!!! X(

wahbiang ehhs.. my team mate is ok la.. at least got talk.. and hor! got a girl hor nabei talk like damn yaya sia! nabeis.. but i shall not label anyone first la.. skarly like last time i label someone end up become not bad fren lol =X but thn my class this time is weird lei.. comprises of many different KIND of ppl =\ i stil prefer W25E.. at least more balance and normal.. or izit cos the bonding is there?

ok i shud remember how weird we al behave when we first step into the class in april haha! cute la tat time XD but how time flies =\ i'm missing them LOTS! =( had breakfast with zhenwei and kelvin.. hurr see i so kelian have to turn to yr 3 frens =( classmate not bonded at all siak =\ maybe stil too soon ba.. i juz wish things wil turn out fine =
i missh W25E!!!!
and i totally dun understand today's lesson =\ DARN

burn my day off by doing VIP blog again lol~ i juz find the previous profile pics sucks la =X so i have to edit again and re-design.. and here it is!^^ imagine i even design til i dunno is late already lol~ i thot it was like about 10pm or so but it's already 2am!!! zaii =X i screen shot my process in photoshop lol~ nice rite?!?! muehehe~ the hardest was jyun one! walao! my brain died because of tat zzzzzzzzz lol~ but it's al worth it ^^











anyway had a real gd chat with them al today =) and i'm glad things turn out fine.. and hopefully wil be better ba =) well well~ tml's day for me to remix the song for chingay again zzzzzzzz my last 2weeks of holidays burn by VIP lol~ but i'm happy la ^^ emi~ faster come back ar~ i'm dyingggg~~~ lol! needa choreo for chingay also~ OMG~ X( but i'm sure the rest wil help la =) gambate~! i go orhorh le~ promise my mr bf that i wil slp early but.. erm.. now also early la hehe~ at least i slp 1 hour earlier thn ytd =X gd nite!

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ahh~ so long nv blog le.. cant imagine lol~ but anyway.. last few days ever since i last blogged, i was home everyday so no point blogging also.. my days were like eat slp, game and ya i did vip's blog for the past 2 days.. which also means i stop audition-ing for 2 days include today, 3day ^^ it's a gd thing thou tat i wont get addicted to it.. =)

anyway.. my day.. haha.. SUCKED =\ ok not 100% but at least 80%? =\ was supposed to meet dearie at town at 5pm.. but the rain was MAD! very very mad! so at 4.30 i sms him and tell him tat i'll be late.. and best part is.. he's not in a very gd mood =\ thus, my lateness made him worst! =( but i swear i didnt noe it wil make him feel so bad.. but thn again i'm like damn well known for being late ma =( and somemore this time not purposely one =( hais..

thn.. i met him at about 6 at pacific plaza.. cos he went to dance on us to check out the studio.. and the story sontinue to go down down down =\ we ate at mac.. and i noe he's in a bad mood.. so i tell myself.. "i have to act stupid or rather act cute at this time to make him cheer up" so i ask him mmy hair isit nice (i "perm" my hair but seriously it sucked =\) but his reaction is damn entertain me liddat =
so ok nvm i diam diam.. so i ask him wan to eat wat.. and he say "i got no mood to eat" wahhh~ this time i reali is sian til cannot sian le.. =\ i mean.. walao juz some small stupid gaing thing again! GAME! omg la~ ok la i shud say ya is their fault.. but thn he shud also tink tat wat felix say is rite.. "everyday dota at home not sian ar?" but dear got his point also when he say "they say is dota one lei" as in in chinese jiang hao hao is dota one ma.. ok lo so both parties were at fault for tat i diam diam..

thn jyun and sii called his phone cos aiya my phone is GONE la X( thn when sii called he say "my phone wan low batt liao" in a rather sian way.. so i got the "hint" la.. i noe it's quite sian when u're not in a gd mood and ur phone keeps ringing.. so i sms sii tell her TRY her best to contact me thru my phone dun call him.. but aiya she nv receive zzzzzzz -.-.. so nvm.. thn jyun wanna meet us at town thn go zouk tgt.. for tat moment, i was DYING for her to come ASAP!!! cos i reali too damn lost at wat shud i do le =
i mean.. ur bf there face so black.. and nothing u do or say can cheer him up.. HOW HOW HOW?!?! =\ i reali felt lost.. but this is stil lost de initial stage.. so stil ok.. thn in cab, dear did try to lame with us abit la.. so at least i'm happier.. but when reach zouk.. wahh lai liao =\ he start to be sian again.. so to me, at tat point of time "leaving him alone" is the best way i can tink of.. if not confirm quarrel =
cos seriously ar.. i stuck home for a week is cos i wanna save money so i can enjoy today with him =\ and i reali am expecting today ALOT!! =\ and i reali "doll" myself up and went out with a very very happy and excited feeling today.. but... ya this kinda thing happen so my day was like 3/4 turned off =\ i even wore heels! (i swear i wont gei kiang to wear them again!!! EVER!) pain sia my leg =\ my heel turned the rest of the 1/4 of my day off -.-

so in zouk, suay enuff, dear saw his boss from DA.. =\ suay ba? thn tat made his day totally GONE! so we had a "quarrel" in zouk.. ya this is the MAIN part tat turned me super super off.. b4 we quarrel, i was damn lost.. i swear i was.. so i keep trying to talk cock.. talk watever i can with jyun and sii.. to make the atmosphere not as bad.. but well no use la.. when they go toilet.. we quarrel.. =(

i noe he's reali f-king sian already.. so i say i rather he go home.. i mean.. come out is to happy one ma.. u come out but not happy.. thn affect everyone else.. very nice meh? i'm not saying he afect me la.. true he affects me.. but it's ok.. cos i'm his gf i shud share al these with him.. but wat if sii they al get turned off?? and sii is reali damn happy today cos her bf finally came back.. and everyone is in a gd mood.. everyone is so damn excited over the dance battle.. i dun wish to spoile anyone's mood.. so i ask him to go home..

i wanted to leave as well.. cos by that time reali al mood no more le.. dun even feel like seeing the battle =\ but i noe if i choose to leave.. sii wil get super super super sian and she wil get upset.. so i had to stay.. the battle was gd.. didnt see alot thou.. =\ when black rose got eliminated, we already dun wan see le lol =X so we went to drink and wait for yutaki's perf.. al i can say is ZAII! XD reali his strength walan ehh! =X

and during the drinking time, me and dear patch things up =) we noe each other both got fault.. and i told him why i wan he to go home also.. i dun wish he feel worst cos his boss is there.. =\ so i have to sacrifice my bf =( but ya.. at least we al learn from this incident la and we noe how to handle quarrels much better =) i noe i'm not a gd gf.. but at least i try to be.. i noe now.. that if my bf feels low or wat.. i dun need to do anything but juz give him a hug.. i hope things wil get better =) jyun they al were so worried bout us also lol =X sorry girls =) *hugs*

after the show we met yutaki.. lol!!! his reaction is "EHHHH!!! i was looking for u!!!!" lol!! dman funny.. he wan me come see i tink lol~ thn we chatted abit.. he say if we nv stop his class tat time, we might have won today.. =X oh well.. fate la =( but i swear i wil wanna be a champ one day!! ^^ thn i ask him about "tat time my bf went to ur class at SMU" lollolollol!! thn he "oh izit" (in a calm manner) thn i say "u noe larry?" thn he "oh ya.. larry the bboy?" (stil in a calm manner) "THE BREAKER AR?!?! HE'S UR BF?!?!?!"(not calm at all!!!) lol!!! damn funny!

thn he pat my shoulder and "wahh he ur bf huh.. not bad huh" thn gave me a very jian smile zzzzz lol!!! damn funny! lol!!! thn he ask us go for fusion hiphop class at studio wu.. hmm might be goin for it ba =) he intro one he noe wat is gd for us =) thn after tat we went to MOS le.. cos sii meeting irene there =) but b4 tat me, sii and jyun chatted abit about vip.. well.. jyun ar jyun.. dun so sian over wat happened ok? remember wat i say.. not onli u feel tat way.. al of us felt it.. and i feel tat i shud do something about it =) i hope u al girls wil have at least the minimal heart to put a lil bit of effort into vip.. i dun wish to see it go liddat =(

yutaki also say it's a waste.. jyun and sii.. u heard it urself from his mouth yea? he's disappointed u girls shud noe.. the way he say.. hais.. the onli student tat did yutaki proud is michelle~ cos they were the champ today! lol! quite sad for the rest of us thou =X but happy for her! ^^ anyway MOS was ok.. i dance abit nia.. cos leg pain.. wrong shoe la =( and after al the things tat happen today.. how to club?!?! =\ guihe and her cousin qiqi joined us later.. so they dance while me, royston and damien keep laming zzzzzzz lol!

alot of lame stuff happen la.. but funny thou =) tat's the 20% of my day tat wasnt so bad la =X other thn tat.. omg~~ and we have to pay like 23bucks to get into MOS.. omg~ =\ first time ever i club so ex sia =( but nvm la.. sii happy can le =) girl, u better love me more hor!!!!! big sacrifice for u ok!! lol =X i keep standing there nua-ing cos my leg reali is killing me =( wanted to sms dear.. but no reception at first.. after that, when got reception.. my phone batt died!!! wah! *bangwall* so i use sii phone sms him lo.. we talk abit also.. but i wanted to talk more =( but guihe need to leave early so she keep hurrying me to hang up and go club..

nvm la.. i'm missing him like mad man.. wanna hug him =( nvm i hug myself noe =X hehe~ thn club or rather slack for me =X til about 4am thn we went to mac.. wah.. HEAVEN!!! i need a chair man! for tat moment i thank god for this thing call CHAIR! =X and i hate heels! X( til now my leg is stil paining =( hurhur~ we slack abit thn took cab home le.. i was dying for a nice bath and nice massage for my 2 poor lil feet =( so i did tat juz now hehe~ and i'm very happy now ^^ wahh i missh him =( he go be pig le.. rahh~ call him tml ba =) i need ice for my feet man! omg~ pain =(=(=(=(

anyway pls link or visit and tag us at www.da-vip.blogspot.com ^^ not fully done.. but somehow it's there le =) i go KO le.. very very tired le.. needa end my day with a beauty slp b4 i slack tml off again zzzzzzzzzzz life's bored isnt it? ha~ nites..

i miss u..

am in a very very bad mood now =\ reason is MANY.. but i dun blame anyone la.. watever it is.. hais.. i juz simply hate this thing call GAME.. it makes us fall in love with it so deep.. yet it keep giving us problems.. prob like lag la.. nasty ppl la.. or evern ur bf prefer to get more "money" thn to play with u.. haha nice?? VERY nice! X(

nvm la.. i dun blame anyone thou.. i noe the hook of the fucking game.. for one moment i feel like juz deleting it and fuck it from my lappie.. nabei.. argh~ irritating.. anyway today went to rp lor.. wat else.. thn when coming home.. kas.. this mad guy.. reali is nabei cb.. not i wan scold but reali is nbnbnb! keep asking us direction.. ok nvm.. he from cheena i diam diam.. help lor.. thn in train he started chattin with us! siao lang!

like biantai la! ask nonsensical question.. he ask where we study blahh~ why we study til so late.. siao one! tell him also dunno! nabei.. ask so much for wat.. me and meiyan reali turn off like wat la! i dun care i snap a pic of him and post it here.. who ask him siao first.. and see the way he sit.. so damn inconsiderate la! tink back in cheena ar?!?! count him suay now i bad mood lor.. vent on him.. idiot!



anyway gonna post a few pic here la.. this is a crazy one =X me, jyun, sii and yiwei went to esplanade slack few days back.. and we saw this IN the river or watever u call it.. -.- ok not very clear.. but it's a packet of chicken rice.. with 2spoons on it got chilli and cucumber somemore!!! kaos! floating lei.. who the hell throw til so nice?!?! btw.. the person who did this.. u're polluting my beautiful country u asshole!



and this is the seating plan of shinwa concert.. ^^ ok mood better le.. erm abit small but.. i'm sitting at the darker green segment.. rite in the middle T34 row 25 lalala~ stil got a few more pic haven get from him.. so might post later.. but say first dun expect to see clear faces or nice body.. cos i tink u'll onli see a white patch there with the black or blue background.. =

this one i too high.. juz wanna get a shot of every single moment i can =X but hais.. didnt noe can bring camera in ( if not i would have borrow DV from emi and took video THROUGHOUT the whole day!!! =( such a memoriable day! hais.. sad sad sad~

the piggies.. they slept beside me everyday.. i see them everynite b4 i slp.. so feel like juz taking a "family photo" of them =X

and ya.. hais !!!!! my stupid result is out today =( reali stupid.. if my mum noe this i'll get killed.. and u guys remember to come my funeral k.. but thn i guess she wont noe =X she dun ask anyway =X but aiya no nid to retake can le la.. heng ar.. science got D+ and my overall got 2.4 if not have to reatke if i got less thn 2 sia.. =\

anyway i dl ALOT of new song =X from minwoo and shinhwa =X haha~ yea shinhwa madness now =X and i'm happily listening to them now ^^ ok let me end my day with a wide smile by seeing his face last on my blog ba.. ohh i miss hyesung =( gd nite..

I LOVE SHINHWA!! I LOVE HYESUNG! AND I LOVE MY BF LARRY!!!! XD

whee~ went to shinhwa concert!!! and til now i stil abit cannot believe that i went for it ^^ i woke up at about 2pm.. thn~ a errible thing strike =\ i tummyache and menses cramp tgt AT THE SAME TIME!!! X( i dabian and vomitted at the same time as well =\ er xin rite.. i noe.. but tat's wat happened =( terrible sia.. reali is pain til i almost fainted.. thn i keep thinking "cannot dun go shinhwa concert!! i'll be a siao lang if i dun go!!!"

thn i took panadol and after clearing my tummy =\ i rested awhile on bed.. thn played audition to try to diverse my attention.. thn it was better le =) thn at about 6pm i meet dearie at kallang mrt ^^ whee~ my shinhwa!! XD thn we walk to indoor le.. but thn we walk big rounds zzzzz cos road block la.. change of this and that la -.-

thn we went to 7-11 to get cup noodle ^^ hungry ar.. i today whole day and ytd nv eat lei =\ and we took a very very lame pic -.- of snails lol!!! post it tml ba.. very lazy now hehe.. he also haven send me =X thn we went in.. OMG! my heart almost jump out =X hyesung lei!!!! XD thn we slack here slack there.. show starting! and i realise that camera can be brought in!!! adn no banning of recording!! NABEI! should have gotten camera from emi la!!! thn i can record the whole thing lei!!! hyesung!!! omgomgomg~

siansation la =( butnvm la.. memories ^^ thn wahhh the concert is POWER!!! hyesung sing i reali melt sia!!! XD and dongwan cute as ever lol!! i tink i wil get the vcd as well hehe~ memories ma =) wahh very happy sia! cant imagine i can go lei!!! ^^ omgomg~ i stil cannot believe i went =X i reali wanted to scream like mad juz now cos reali so damn high.. but erm my seat the area abit zzzzzzzzzzzz so i also zzzzzzzz =X and i tink dear dun like so i as diam as i can lo lol!!

omg la hyesung!!!!!!!! XD sorry ar i haven get over the highness yet.. hehe ^^ reali alot alot to blog about the concert lei~ but thn dunno how to blog it down lol =X aiya juz noe that they rock!!! but hor i quite shock at the response of the tix sia.. =\ like not as many ppl as i thot would go =\ i mean.. this is like so damn F**king rare and not many ppl go?!?! wtf?? i can say ar.. i wil go their next concert if they were to come again lol!! they too zai liao hehe~

omg la.. so hapy ^^ nothin can describe my happiness now lol =X i very happy ^^ muack.. anywa big aunt came juz few min ago zzzzzzzzzz everytime wrong timing one.. nabeis! i go find abit song le hehe shinhwa madness recently ar ^^ gdnite!!

thnks dear.. i'll nv forget today ^^ iL'u

ahh ytd sick like mad @_@ so didnt come blog.. dun even have the strength to touch my lappie la zzzzzzzz ok.. ytd's me and dearie's 2nd month anni ^^

HAPPY 2ND MONTH ANNI MY DEAR!! *MUACKS*

i woke up at about 12.30pm to cook spag for him ^^ wanted to wake at 10am hehe.. i'm a pig la =X thn done le go meet dearie at 2.30 or rather 3pm =X lol~ at raffles mrt.. thn we went to outram cos he got some shooting for some thing la lol~ after tat we went to thiong bahru thot of watching movie there.. but erm... stupid idiot the show we wan watch one no seat zzzzzzzzz.. so we went to city hall.. we went marina to watch lo..

thn we went to get tix for little man thn cos stil early ma so we went to eat at carl's jr.. my first time eating carl's lol~ not bad ar.. but i tink cos i sick so i smell the beef i wan faint lol =X wasted sia.. =( thn we went to watch movie liao.. very very nice show! lame til can go bangwall lol!!! very funny la~ muz watch k!! lol~! thn after that we walk ard and slack lo cos rain thn no where to go also..

thn we went to SMU cos he need to talk to aaron they al.. by thn i already sick til can die liao =\ but i dun wan go home =( cos i wan pei him.. it's like so hard thn can reali spend time tgt la =( but we went home at abbout 10.30 le lo =( stupid fever come wrong timing.. thn dearie send me home.. in train troy took same train as us haha.. thn thy talk al the way whil ei juz stand there lo thn at times i nod and smile lo lol =X

thn dearie send me home al the way to my doorstep ehh.. lol! first time sia.. =X but happy ^^ thn dearie actually wan acc me at home one.. thn mummy home lol!!! he faster u-turn lol!!! cute la XD thn he left le lo.. thn i reach home i fainted on my bed la! lol!! madness.. thn bathe and KO liao =X reali sick like mad =\ mummy also shock thn keep saying "siao zha bor finally sick ar" nabeis!!! !@$%^&

ytd no connection tat's y nv blog.. but anyway i also tink nothing much to blog haha =X ytd went esply dance nia lo.. thn hang awhile with yiwei.. thn nothing much le.. oh.. ytd ard 4am i dunno why suddenly feel like packing my room lol~! so i packed my "idol" corner and my keyboard corner.. haha~ found alot of funny thing lol!! al my younger days' stuffs lol =X

thn today wake up i busy til now -.- went to buy the "stuffs" needed thn came home and make them ^^ cannot disclose wat is it yet la hehe.. but is nothing special thou =\ but i try le la lol~ now dunno wat to do le lol~ but juz slack lo~ later gonna pack my movie tix into the album zzzzzzz alot sia!!!!! faints~ ok la i go slack le.. buai~

ok ignore my previous post alrite.. everything's fine and back to normal.. we juz choose to try again.. anyway.. went out to meet sii and royston juz now.. ok they're tgt lol~ expcted actually =X happy for her la.. he's nice.. til now i noe he's nice la =X hope he dun be a wolf in sheep's skin can liao.. (direct translation ar =X) confided in sii and felt gd actually ^^ ya she's rite.. there's no single party's fault in every downs in r/s.. i fully agree.. well.. we al have to learn.. and i hope he wont juz throw me alone go and die tat kind.. =
we went to eat at 925 for laksa.. wanted to eat at 928 but thn CLOSE LE LA!!!! X( i sad like mad =( nvm.. stil got 925 haha =p thn we ate and chat like as if we 1000000000000yrs nv meet.. lol -.- thn saw fangling, thn saw wanting and richard.. thn chensin and aishah.. =\ ok weird nvm.. when eatin that royston very lame -.- but i tink we can be gd talk cock buddies la lol =X i tink sii wil bth us wahaha~ shuang.. thn went home at about 10plus..

after awhile, dear called.. say he juz left RP -.- so late sia.. thn tinking of coming over to meetup awhile.. so ya.. we met.. and chatted at the bus stop opp khatib mrt.. well.. nice talks la.. at least the ice within me melted.. ay first i stil wan telling sii.. i dunno how to meet him =\ cos i feel tat it's weird la.. like very "gan ga" =\ well.. in tat point i tink i'm super not mature enuff.. i'm not like sii who can reali reali be fren with the ex and can play ard so freely like real frens again =\ but i admire tat! til now i tink the few ex i can reali be fren back with and dun feel gan ga one is like maybe jon, jason, nic.. and NO MORE!!! X( see how childish i am =X

anyway i dunno why i keep dc now -.- and am damn sian over it.. my HP also sot le.. ppl keep cannot call in to me.. and it keep having no reception and batt suddenly flat -.- dunno wat's wrong.. very very sian over it.. hais.. oh.. and i just got this news from sii tat bing and ter no more.. =( i was FUCKING shock =( and it's been a month or so =\ walao i reali damn sad over it as well.. hais.. and the worst thing is i heard sii say bing works and pub now! OMG la! for tat moment i got the urge to cry.. i dunno why.. but i felt so sad.. =( hais.. well.. at least chinyau's there ba.. so shud be alrite..

reali hope she's fine with everythin and contiue leading a very happy life.. wish to cheer her up but i tink at this kinda state.. i reali dunno how to bring back the frenship =( well.. leave the job to sii and sharon and everyone else ba =) i wish she's fine.. *prays*

lets breakup.. such a easy words that came out from his mouth.. well since it's so easy to end this r/s.. it juz means tat it does not weigh tat much to him.. he say my attitude is behind it all.. well.. maybe.. but haven i told him tat before we got tgt? haven i told him i do not have nice attitude? haven i told him al that? and he himself promise to make me happy with watever it takes.. but now?

he say i make him sad al the time.. izit?!?! i didnt noe.. so al my efforts of trying to surprise him.. trying to be a sweet gf.. trying to change for him.. trying to get used to his way of being in a r/s.. his way of loving me.. all these.. are nothin now.. i stil remember he said 'i wish to try to maintain this r/s at least til 5yrs so i can have a chance to marry u" yayaya~ more of like maintaining it for a month or so? it's not even the 2nd month!

i guess watever i try to say is pointless la.. maybe he'll be better alone.. since he loves his job so much.. i believe he wil be happier alone.. no more burden no more responsibilities in a r/s.. he can dota al he wans.. he dun have to worry for me.. he dun have to do anythin else.. and juz live his life the way he wans and happy with..

damn.. i'm already dressed up to meet him and now i have to go find sii to confide in.. to be very honest i am crying.. crying terribly.. =( the tears juz burst out =( he say he needs a more mature gf.. but arent him suppose to help me? help me grow? make me learn? why is he abandoning me liddat? i feel like i'm juz thrwn aside.. juz.. ignored! =( and damn! i'm wearing the stupid rainbow shirt now.. fuck! wrong shirt at the wrong timing.. i guess i juz go out and find someone to cry to le.. bye

shattered
left alone
dumped

p/s:i muz be strong and never to fall that deep ever again.. i will be strong!

life's bored.. 100% agree! =( oh well.. stuck home whole day.. if u wanna noe how damn bored i am, i managed to get 2 and half blog done.. haha.. how bored? no way to measure.. i love those blogs alot sia.. guess wil use them slowly ba.. now stay with my tatty blog first ba.. am having slight headaches now due to lying down too much.. and i tink i'm gettin extremely fat =(

ate too much today.. muz dance more le.. tink wil get VIP to dance on wed.. for fun haha.. mum came home.. and went out again zzzzzz.. siansation.. nvm la.. she not home also gd.. if not the smell of her cig can kill me sia! =\ haiya i go slack le.. super sian.. gdbbye~

rots.. so damn bored.. well.. life la.. haha.. no choice.. went to meet dearie and fuyo today at queensway shopping center.. hmm nothing much lo.. walk ard.. ate.. thn nothin le.. ok i gave a black face today =\ but is cos i'm damn hungry!!! =( and many of u noe ba.. VIP when hungry confirm not gd mood one.. sorry to my dear ba..

but hope he from now on noe that his gf is someone who cannot go hungry for too long.. when i say i wan eat.. better find some stuff for me to bite.. =\ at least maybe like small snacks la.. maybe i'll be happier =X ya in this way am juz like a lil kid.. give food = happy =X hehe~ but wat to do.. nature born liddat.. i'm not bad le sia.. if is any of the RISE one.. wahaha~ sky fall down liao sia =X

anyway did this blogskin since ytd.. nice? cos my previous skin html is siao one lol~ if those using non internet explorer browser, will noe la lol~ i juz got netscape so have to get use to everything lo~ not as user frenly but thn it's better la.. abit more chim but no choice =( but the skin very nice muehehe~ =X and i got my hair dyed ytd..

it's a super wrong move i made =( super ah lian sia! nabei! tink le super sian sia =( see for urself ba =( =( =( al thanks to this bottle of monster =( but hor.. nice top haha~ PINK!!! XD





now here's abit of my mummy's funny photo which i took last week i tink lol~!!



muahaha =X it's in the super middle of the nite haha! cant slp la hehe~ ok now sian liao tink go game awhile ba.. gdbye~~

went out with sii to meet guihe, hazel, fish and carmen juz now.. too sian le la.. so juz go out lo.. meet new frens as well ma.. haha.. we went cine thn walk everywhere in town lo.. thn they went steamboat.. while me, carmen and sii went to find sii's "potential" lol~ ok la.. dun wanna comment much also.. she happy can le lo.. haha.. and as long is something "straight" can liao =X juz tat the guy better dun be the "fuck and go" kind if not i swear i make his lil boy cannot stand anymore in the future!

thn we juz slack ard la.. boringg~ haha~ hmm hazel look like emi sia! 100% look like! sompa! lol! even carmen and sii say so sia~ thn ard 11pus go SMU there de kopitiam find dearie.. cos i bought a hairdye for him and myself.. i got abit like copper red for him =) i find the colour damn nice la hehe~ but i got honey nut colour for myself.. like brown.. cos i dun wan red le la.. abit no point lol~ so try brown lo.. since i nv reali brown b4 =)

quite tired now.. oh ya i got netscape le! yay! can check my stupid frenster and log into the stupid mtvasia webby to join the shinhwa contest le wahaha =X i'm joining like MAD la.. hehe.. walao concert tix lei!!! omg~ SHINHWA!!!!! ^^ i confirm yutaki got go one lor lol~ if not thn he dance for them! lol =X dunno wat to blog le.. kkz.. buaiz~

I AM NOT HAPPY!
FRIES?!
HER?!
FAVE?!
YES I AM XIAO QI!
AT LEAST I'M BETTER THN HER WHO ATTRACT ATTENTIONS!
AT LEAST I'M BEING REAL!
NABEI

hais.. PMSPMSPMSPMS~ again =( sian la.. went to find dearie.. thn went for movie.. thn went to eat.. thn go home.. dunno wat to blog.. but i very sian of my stupid pms again.. gdbye~

wahbiang had a super super scary dream =\ i dreamt that i was at this funeral.. somehow or rather the person is "related" to me la.. i tink is my fren's mother or wat.. and it's a malay one.. (i'm not being racist or trying to point at one race but it juz happen to be.. no offence yea?) thn at the funeral, the "rules" or rather practice is that we have to bring a bone of a dead person to so call offer to the dead =\ (i noe it's a super weird thing but it's a nitemare!)

thn very funny is, my mum is in the picture lol~ she went with me.. thn both of us each holding onto a box of bone =\ the one we holding onto is not related us one la.. thn there's actually like different "steps" to offer the offerrings.. thn the very first step is they wil put us al in different cubicals (i dunno how to spell la =X) thn make us BREAK the bones that we're holding =\ wahh this is one of the er xin part.. i was inside a small cubical thn i have to us a plier to k=juz break the bone that i'm holding onto! =\ i did not see the bone i'm holding onto but i saw the one in mum's hand one..

it was a BABY! damn it! thn i broke one small corner of it.. thn we walk to the next "station" which is to pass to a person there ans she wil put sweets inside the box.. but this is weird.. when it's my turn, the person open the box and i try my best not to look inside the box cos i'm damn sure it's damn er xin! but thn when she open hor.. it's juz a box of sweets -.- lol! it's like the bone change into sweets! lollollol!

thn she wil count the sweets in the box and either she wil take out some or add some.. i tink to get a certain amount ba.. thn next step is to bring the box to the coffin of the dead.. wah reali is nabei! when i was walking towards the coffin i shiver like mad! the procedure already made me wanna die! thn when reach the coffin, i dreamt that i look down, thn i tink suddenly she open her eyes stare at me.. thn i wake up liao lol~!! zaii rite!!!

thn after that i fell asleep again lol! cos stil quite early ma.. thn i had a second i dunno wan say nitemare or wat lol! it was that i am at this place kinda LOK KOK one.. like those.. wartime underground shelter ar.. but not realki underground.. ok it's more of like a building.. it's abit like OCH =\ thn i remember there were about 5 or 6 of us.. but i cant remember who's in my dream.. i onli remember at one part i saw salsabila!!! lol! my pri sch fren sia!

thn i tink the dream is something we were being chase after for something and it's reali like those war show lol! thn there's this guy whom i reali dunno is who in my dream.. i tink we quite not gd one as in we always quarrel one.. but we were running tgt.. thn suddenly left onli the 2 of us.. and we came to this deadend where we can onli jump out of the window.. so i pull his hand and i jumped out thn i pulled one of the wire outside the window lol! i tink i watch too much jackie chan drama liao lol!

thn we manage to land on the ground safely thn we ran.. thn we came to this "room" where it's like a storeroon.. very small.. and that's where i saw salsabila lol! tn when we were talking BOMB! there's a explosion! lol! thn i dunnow here sal ran to.. thn me and the guy ran again.. thn we hid in a bush.. thn got one guy(one of those chasing us) saw us.. thn he shouted "tink i cant see u?!" thn me and the guy with me one we ran again lol!!!

but i tink somehow or rather the guy did not catch up with us.. thn me and that guy escaped.. lol! thn i wake up liao.. and i dun wan slp liao.. nonsense dreams sia!!!!! buay tahan! madness! lol!!!! i tink i too stress lol! the first dream the setting is very like the "ghost game" show =\ scary hor? omg~ =\

wahbiang had a super super scary dream =\ i dreamt that i was at this funeral.. somehow or rather the person is "related" to me la.. i tink is my fren's mother or wat.. and it's a malay one.. (i'm not being racist or trying to point at one race but it juz happen to be.. no offence yea?) thn at the funeral, the "rules" or rather practice is that we have to bring a bone of a dead person to so call offer to the dead =\ (i noe it's a super weird thing but it's a nitemare!)

thn very funny is, my mum is in the picture lol~ she went with me.. thn both of us each holding onto a box of bone =\ the one we holding onto is not related us one la.. thn there's actually like different "steps" to offer the offerrings.. thn the very first step is they wil put us al in different cubicals (i dunno how to spell la =X) thn make us BREAK the bones that we're holding =\ wahh this is one of the er xin part.. i was inside a small cubical thn i have to us a plier to k=juz break the bone that i'm holding onto! =\ i did not see the bone i'm holding onto but i saw the one in mum's hand one..

it was a BABY! damn it! thn i broke one small corner of it.. thn we walk to the next "station" which is to pass to a person there ans she wil put sweets inside the box.. but this is weird.. when it's my turn, the person open the box and i try my best not to look inside the box cos i'm damn sure it's damn er xin! but thn when she open hor.. it's juz a box of sweets -.- lol! it's like the bone change into sweets! lollollol!

thn she wil count the sweets in the box and either she wil take out some or add some.. i tink to get a certain amount ba.. thn next step is to bring the box to the coffin of the dead.. wah reali is nabei! when i was walking towards the coffin i shiver like mad! the procedure already made me wanna die! thn when reach the coffin, i dreamt that i look down, thn i tink suddenly she open her eyes stare at me.. thn i wake up liao lol~!! zaii rite!!!

thn after that i fell asleep again lol! cos stil quite early ma.. thn i had a second i dunno wan say nitemare or wat lol! it was that i am at this place kinda LOK KOK one.. like those.. wartime underground shelter ar.. but not realki underground.. ok it's more of like a building.. it's abit like OCH =\ thn i remember there were about 5 or 6 of us.. but i cant remember who's in my dream.. i onli remember at one part i saw salsabila!!! lol! my pri sch fren sia!

thn i tink the dream is something we were being chase after for something and it's reali like those war show lol! thn there's this guy whom i reali dunno is who in my dream.. i tink we quite not gd one as in we always quarrel one.. but we were running tgt.. thn suddenly left onli the 2 of us.. and we came to this deadend where we can onli jump out of the window.. so i pull his hand and i jumped out thn i pulled one of the wire outside the window lol! i tink i watch too much jackie chan drama liao lol!

thn we manage to land on the ground safely thn we ran.. thn we came to this "room" where it's like a storeroon.. very small.. and that's where i saw salsabila lol! tn when we were talking BOMB! there's a explosion! lol! thn i dunnow here sal ran to.. thn me and the guy ran again.. thn we hid in a bush.. thn got one guy(one of those chasing us) saw us.. thn he shouted "tink i cant see u?!" thn me and the guy with me one we ran again lol!!!

but i tink somehow or rather the guy did not catch up with us.. thn me and that guy escaped.. lol! thn i wake up liao.. and i dun wan slp liao.. nonsense dreams sia!!!!! buay tahan! madness! lol!!!! i tink i too stress lol! the first dream the setting is very like the "ghost game" show =\ scary hor? omg~ =\

went to smu pei dearie juz now.. ok not reali pei cos he didnt do any work after i reach -.- before i reach i rush to ben and jerrys to get him a single scoop ice cream.. hehe.. i run cos i scared close lol thn when i reach stil open big big -.- thn i thot i no money sia! got a big shock thn i saw my last 5bucks lol~ heng ar.. single scoop 4.50 nia arbo i mati lol~ so i got a cookie and cream for dearie =)

when reach smu already melted abit lol =X but thn dearie ate it hehe =) he thn went to dabian -.- nabeis~ wrong timing sia! lol~! thn we went walk ard like mad.. but very very sweet ^^ we walk to bugis area thn walk to city hall lol! =X saw alot of biantai hotel and "chick" lol =X thn saw a taxi uncle picking up "chicks" lol! we very kpo but nvm wahaha~! thn we walk til 11plus thn went to take mrt home le..

short but sweet nite =) oh.. he say he deleted dota le =\ omg la~ he sacrifice it.. =\ i dunno how to respond now =\ rahh~! i swear i'm happy that he do this for me.. but thn quite sad when i noe he did that also.. =\ ok nvm.. i'm contradicting lol =\ but I LOVE U!!! =X ok.. thn oh ya! in train i saw this fucking CB girl nabei sia! she throw a battery on the floor thn juz kick it aside.. nabei! wat if anyone step on it and fell down?!?! dun she have brains???

fuck ar i dun care i took photo of her and am gonna post it here! she's juz a fucking BITCH la! nabei! i diao her thru out in the train wahaha! this is her Fucking face! not very clear but ya.. this biatch!


see the way she sleep! so inconsiderate! the leg put liddat.. nabei! i tink the guy in guy noe i'm taking pic lol =X

ok i love taking pic anywhere i go lalala~ thn one dya i was in the train and i took this BEAUTIFUL picture!!!!! XD the girl was infront of me.. and nabei! she holds my FAVOURITE flower!!!!! WATER LILY(i tink it's the name la.. in chinese is bai he hua)! WITH BEAUTIFUL BABY'S BREATHE!!!! argh! irritating shit! thou it's a very plain bunch of flowers but i swear its a perfect one for me sia! how i wish to snatch from her!!! rahh! the super nice smell infront of me.. OMG~ the nice smell of bai he and baby's breathe omggg~ kill me pls~

i wanted to post my mummy's photo up but i guess bloggy is not happy -.- i juz cant seem to upload it =( nvm la.. tml i guess..

went to smu pei dearie juz now.. ok not reali pei cos he didnt do any work after i reach -.- before i reach i rush to ben and jerrys to get him a single scoop ice cream.. hehe.. i run cos i scared close lol thn when i reach stil open big big -.- thn i thot i no money sia! got a big shock thn i saw my last 5bucks lol~ heng ar.. single scoop 4.50 nia arbo i mati lol~ so i got a cookie and cream for dearie =)

when reach smu already melted abit lol =X but thn dearie ate it hehe =) he thn went to dabian -.- nabeis~ wrong timing sia! lol~! thn we went walk ard like mad.. but very very sweet ^^ we walk to bugis area thn walk to city hall lol! =X saw alot of biantai hotel and "chick" lol =X thn saw a taxi uncle picking up "chicks" lol! we very kpo but nvm wahaha~! thn we walk til 11plus thn went to take mrt home le..

short but sweet nite =) oh.. he say he deleted dota le =\ omg la~ he sacrifice it.. =\ i dunno how to respond now =\ rahh~! i swear i'm happy that he do this for me.. but thn quite sad when i noe he did that also.. =\ ok nvm.. i'm contradicting lol =\ but I LOVE U!!! =X ok.. thn oh ya! in train i saw this fucking CB girl nabei sia! she throw a battery on the floor thn juz kick it aside.. nabei! wat if anyone step on it and fell down?!?! dun she have brains???

fuck ar i dun care i took photo of her and am gonna post it here! she's juz a fucking BITCH la! nabei! i diao her thru out in the train wahaha! this is her Fucking face! not very clear but ya.. this biatch!


see the way she sleep! so inconsiderate! the leg put liddat.. nabei! i tink the guy in guy noe i'm taking pic lol =X

ok i love taking pic anywhere i go lalala~ thn one dya i was in the train and i took this BEAUTIFUL picture!!!!! XD the girl was infront of me.. and nabei! she holds my FAVOURITE flower!!!!! WATER LILY(i tink it's the name la.. in chinese is bai he hua)! WITH BEAUTIFUL BABY'S BREATHE!!!! argh! irritating shit! thou it's a very plain bunch of flowers but i swear its a perfect one for me sia! how i wish to snatch from her!!! rahh! the super nice smell infront of me.. OMG~ the nice smell of bai he and baby's breathe omggg~ kill me pls~