distract..

been trying very hard to act happy and distract myself from the pains..
met up with croy n yaggy for some sc time at starbucks..
well.. couldnt reali focus on game.. when they talk, i always was drifting away..
randomly, a fren text me "cheer up".. nearly cried :(
i know i have lost him..
but i'm stil awaitin for a miracle that he can contact me again..
it's such a small issue yet i've lost him..
i find it pretty ridiculous..
and i dun understand how can he just cut off all contacts just like that..
dun he miss me too?
are our memories that worthless to him?
i dunno.. i'm lost..

sigh..
thankfully, weekend's over.. just bury myself in work ba..
hais..

i miss u.