Melody of my Life..

SCHOOL?! HA-HA-HA

it's been crazy for me when i talk bout school =\ went to school ytd with maye.. but we didnt go class.. i felt happy being in school once again.. the atmosphere.. the place.. it's just.. so nice~ but somehow or rather.. i still couldnt accept the fact that i have to face these bunch of classmates.. this year, i receive the worst bunch of classmate from EVERY different class =\ why am i so unlucky?

indeed it's true that we have to take this opportunity to learn to work with different people as this IS the society.. but.. i guess i'm just not cut out to be that way.. i couldnt imagine myself workin for ppl that's so F*** up and being unhappy my entire working life.. i'm having this trauma period regarding whether to end my school life after this semester.. or to continue with it..

fairy darling is right.. what good does a lousy result can do even if u have a diploma? i can show everyone that YES I HAVE A DIPLOMA.. but on the paper al i get is just a D or maybe what's best is a C =\ i dun wan that to happen.. fairy darling was in that stage but she's lucky enough that her parents willing to let her take her degree so as to cover up her ugly diploma.. but for me? it's either a diploma or a O levels.. =\ i can dun even tink about getting a degree haha~

well.. some ppl tell me that cert is just a piece of rubbish.. experience is the most important thing.. but doesnt this society look at cert so much? a piece of rubbish cost like few thousand dollars? =\ i'm thinking of quitting and just get a job.. work and gain as much experience as i can.. seeing alot of my friends doing reali fine now even they drop out in sec school, made me have the thot "why should i continue to suffer in RP?!"

i used to be so anticipating my poly life.. now? no longer~ ha~ i'm very very disappointed in my poly life.. i thot i could join a poly dance grp and go for performance.. we need not be as gd as FB or NRA or TP.. but as long there's somewhere i belong to, a bunch of reali good friends, i'm thankful.. i thot i could get a few good friends from poly as classmates, hanging out tgt, lunch, movies, party at times, study for exams tgt like how i used to in sec sch.. but i didnt get it all.. =(

all i get was? a rubbish bunch of people that's so damn fake and condems not-as-good student like me.. i dun like the feeling of being alienated from people.. it simply sucks.. what should i do? can all of you who's reading this give me some suggestion? i'm reali reali lost at this point of time.. i'm reaching damn 21 year old in like 2 weeks time? but i still couldnt decide =( HELP!!!!

i'm so in need of help =(