Melody of my Life..: July 2009

Sunday, July 26, 2009

AhHhhHhHHhhHhHhHhhhHhhHh!!!!

sorry pardon me i reali got the urge to give out a loud scream and blog watever happened today~ went to City Harvest for service today with Angel Mike and omg la he's reali sweet! he got me a new bible! i've lost mine =.= and he even tabbed it for me! OMG~ XD to get a bible is easy but to tabbed it is OMG-ly hard la! u need to get the pages out for every book in the bible and VERY nicely paste the tab on it. i doubt i can do a gd job thou =\ but anyway THANK YOU LOVE! ^^

ok service~ i tell u! i was never such a crybaby for a longgggggg time liao x.x CHC invited this Taiwan artiste name Wawa to perform us a song written by her and she wrote it for Jesus ^^ and i tell u! the song i hear liao i chui T.T she was inspired to write this song when she was facing a r/s breakdown.. and she mention one day she just was so tired that she could lift her head up and suddenly she heard a voice saying to her "Child.. i'm always here" (i translated it =x) and she felt that as long in her life, there's Jesus, it's more thn enough.. and this same sentence knocke on my head when i was at CHC last week! during last weeks' praise n worship, there's this song that only goes "More thn enough, u're" and just repeat.. isnt that so?! God.. is more thn enough for me~! look at me! i've been spending my everyday much more happier now! needless to seek things to fill my emptiness, needless to sulk everyday feeling life is useless.. and also! remember the dream that i always sees? the image whereby i'm in a empty room kneeling down while Jesus's on a stool and me reseting my head on his lap while he stroke on my head? the same image appeared while i hear this song!!!

ok anyway back to today's service.. after hearing she sang, I CRIED LA! OMG~ X( the lyrics are reali straight to the heart one =\ and her voice~ woolala too power x.x she's so gonna touch alot alot more hearts with her works ^^ and today's sermon is on the Book of Matthew chap 8 - 10 and also 1 Corinthians 11-12. i feel it's more about loving the weak and not sucking up to the riches.. sorry my ang moh not very good but i try ok!!! X( anyways, there's this sentence i like alot "We're not to come to the church asking wat the church can do for us, instead we're to come to church asking wat we can do for the church". and this sentence "reach out to the poor and lost sheeps not those with riches or the elites of the world". God wants to bring back his lost sheeps not those that are already back! and also another learning is "if there's hatred and anger in our heart, how are we going to touch the hearts of others truthfully?" i'm just summarising wat i've learnt today ok so dun expect much i've been reading my new bible for the past 1hr plus and i tink my brain is alittle overflowing now x.x

ok this post is not to nag about wat happened today but is to share how touched i was today in CHC! the songs today were good as well! and i can stil remember the words.. one of it was "unfailing love, so unreserved, because of you, i now can live.. you gave yourselves on calvary, and now i stand forever free.. my saviour rescue me!" awww~ i reali cant help but to tink that God's love is just~ OMGGGG~ XD keep feeling like tears are uncontrollable ANYTIME ok~ LOL~ too touched and hallelujah! i love Jesus ^^ i got this thing in my mind i'm trying to do.. i'm so gonna learn to love all even my enemies and forget wat is hate~ so i've been starting to pray for some of the ppl that i seriously do not like.. and hope it would help me forget the hate and learn to love the way God does :)

here's the lyrics of the song by Wawa that touched me to the max! i'll try to get it on my playlist right >>>> if my bloggy ya ^^

娃娃 - 有了你

轻轻的闭上眼，你就在我身边
你说，孩子，我永远都会与你同在
我一直不停的思念你

轻轻的点点头，你就在我身边
我说，耶稣，我要永远躺在你怀里
我要不停唱歌给你听

有了你，我再也什么都不缺
有了你，就不怕任何的攻击
有了你，生命都充满着美好
有了你，就有了再勇敢的心
有了你，耶稣~

轻轻的点点头，你就在我身边
我说，耶稣，我要永远躺在你怀里
我要不停唱歌给你听

有了你，我再也什么都不缺
有了你，就不怕任何的攻击
有了你，生命都充满着美好
有了你，就有了再勇敢的心
有了你，耶稣~

有了你，我再也什么都不缺
有了你，眼泪都会变成甜的
有了你，生命都充满了奇迹
有了你，就有了再勇敢的心
有了你，耶稣~

亲爱的，我的耶稣
我有了你
我有了你

i love u daddy *loves*

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

ok enough about the unhappy things which happened~ to all that asked if i'm alrite.. thank you all so much (: and yes i'm perfectly fine (: dun wry little iko have moved on to a better life without him (: anyways this post is inspired by my dearest angel Mike :D his MSN nick "Pursuing simplicity = True happiness~" somehow hit something in my tiny brain..

for those that know.. my life have been reali complicated for the past erm.. 2 - 3months ever since i met him.. i used to have a very blissful life with a perfect boyfriend, a perfect job, a perfect lifestyle (abit of clubbing is perfect ok~).. but i gave all of them up the moment he step into my life.. i've let my previously bf down by giving up his love for me.. his love was unconditional.. his love was true.. so very true.. but i did not cherish it.. he's just a very simple guy.. leading a ordinary til cannot ordinary kinda lifestyle.. working 8-5 everyday on weekdays, weekends will be dating time with me or staying at home rotting day.. and my previous job a very simple customer service officer with Sony.. same thing.. working 10 - 8 everyday and weekends spending time with him.. this kinda simple life is wat i yearn for.. but i gave it up thinking that it's boring..

i thn seek for new and fun things in my life and i guess i messed it up terribly.. but i thank God for bringing me out of this now.. it's onli been 2 - 3 month.. and i've seen it all.. i never wanna go back to this kinda lifestyle again.. i'm glad he left me because i might be the one preg not preparing to crack my brain over keeping or murdering the baby.. i do not and will not allow myself to be in that stand.. never ever~ i thank God for giving me friends like Rena who could give me a hand in my career life.. am learning some business thingy from her and might work on something real soon :)

and now, i'm picking myself up once again to be someone who lead a simple life :) i'm gonna stay contented with everything that's given to me.. never to complain and never to compare.. i may not be a super model or superstar with pretty faces or figures, i may not earn big bucks like those big shots are earning.. but i believe God has his plans for me and i'm so gonna love this new life he gave :) i was once told by one of the pastor that God's plan for me is to be a missionary! my immediate reaction was "HUH?!" lol~ firstly i dun travel, secondly i believe i'm so gonna breakdown seeing the ppl there suffer how am i gonna be strong enuff to reach them x.x but oh well.. i'm leaving it to God still ^^

i wanna touch lives, i wanna change lives.. i wanna help those ard me.. but i'm just so tiny.. i need You by my side to help me and guide me.. give me the right words and right actions to show ppl ard that i reali do care.. they're not alone.. remove my bad temper and stubborness and fill me with love and compassion.. i wanna make ur will be done.. love u daddy <3

be gone all satan's temptation

Monday, July 20, 2009

pls stop tinking that i'm a 3 yr old kid.. and dun bother to explain.. it disgust me to think he's actually like this.. being a father when he just broke up after 3 week?! omfg~ it seriously disgust me~ life with him are lies, lies and more lies.. even after break up? omg.. wat's the use? fking move on.. fking leave me.. i wan nth to do with u anymore.. disappear from my life ty.. stil wants me to wait for him? stil saying things like he misses me? omg~ dun make me laugh.. i must be dumb to have believe those haha! thank god i've left him.. thank god i'm not the one preg.. if not i cant imagine how my baby wil suffer.. i shud have known long ago this cheat.. he can even slp with me when he's with her! omfg! hahaha! i'm not ashame to say :) how else will he not cheat behind my back? haha~ dun take me as a kid pls.. dun try to tarnish my life with ur lies.. selfish bastard.. gd luck to him n her haha~ especially her.. hope she's clever enuff :) if not, she's just throwing a woman's face throughly lol~ sad for her.. move on :)

u disgust me

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Woots~ yts went for DF's outing and i guess it was VERY random LOL! we met at bugis for steamboat and head over to a pub at BQ for chilling after that~ here's some pic xD

Orange and me xD

Dragonflies and a few of us lol

wheee~

Grey from FOC, Me and Rena

Grey, orange and rena

Hani and Haru.. flash too strong le la!

Me and rena

Haru and rena

Very clever Haru.. u brought me into the darkness =.=

Hani and rena

Me, ai ren Kill and rena

dun ever try to train my waist =\

Grey, Me, Ari35 and Ai ren Kill~

the DFs~

Haru says : I'm tired laaa~

his eyes were always closed =.=

Grey and Rena

Kill and Rena

Ai rens~ x3

Grey, Rena and me~

Grey, Kill, Rena and me

His eyes are FINALLY open~

The sweet couple xD

i was trying to force a smile after the F up drink poured by Haru =\

Highlight of the nite! Truth or dare proposal from a random guy LOL!!

O.o?!

The flash is abit =\

Emotions are needed when singing~ wheeee

Camwhore time!

Ok the outing was not bad and i seriously tink its damn random.. D2D master, FOC master and member, i'm in D2D and E-NeT, plus DFs.. aiyo so luan! but stil it's fun! xD the onli regret is i got this damn tooth ache and i didnt eat much at the steamboat :( sobsob.. anyways here's the part 2 of my birthday photos at JB xD~~