Melody of my Life..

i had a terrible day.. all thanks to my stupid mouth again.. why do i always have to piss the one i love off when everything could be avoided? =\ sigh~ just went to jetty alone to have some reflection and catch some fresh air.. felt kinda lonely but i guess lonely helps us think better ya? i thot of alot of things.. especially between us.. i still couldnt believe i could hurt him so much.. i reali am so lost now :( there's like so much things i wanna say to him.. but i just dunno where to start.. the thot of him might stop loving me one day reali makes me so scared.. i just.. am so scared :( i wish i didnt drink that nite.. i wish i didnt say those stuffs that nite.. i wish.. i reali wish.. could i ever have a chance to be his good girl again? i didnt receive his imu and ilu at all today :( how could our love be so fragile? sigh~ i tink i deserve to be shot in the head big time.. i'm beginning to hate being me.. i'm such a idiot.. hais

i yearn for your hug..
i yearn for your smile..
i yearn to be in your arms..
i yearn..
for our laughter :(
baby i miss you so much :(