replies to my taggies..
to me (the nice person on my taggy)..
chill~ thanks alot for standin up for me n supporting me always.. if u noe me personally could u leave a msn msg to me so could thank u personally? anyway i gotta agree with u for the "most ppl are not BORN w talents. ppl work for these talents." thanks so much for the encouragement :) ya regardin my bf, we've talk things thru and i guess things turn out really fine :D communication is the key ya? and i guess al of us learns as we grow.. so in this incident, i've learnt how to talk to my bf, and i'm stil learning how to balance time between my bf and my path to my dream :)
to ij (the coward that hides behind the screen)..
oh for ur information i'm not good at photoshop in editing.. i'm onli good at designing i tink if u reali noe me well like wat u've said, u'll be able to noe that.. but u dun :) sex sell? LOL.. if i does that and i'm stil in 3rd place, i tink that's kinda sad ya? oh~ dun tell me u do sex sell for fame?? i hope u dun cos it's a disgrace to u n ur family.. i have the tendacy to think of giving up half way but i did not :D so how u explain that? and dun feel sorry for me cos i dun need it instead, u shud feel sorry for urself for having to hide behind the screen pulling ppl down and not doin something better for ur life :) and like wat me had said.. why not u come clean bout who u are? and let's have a nice talk? we're all adults for ur info and we certainly dun need to hide behind the screen whole day like a child anymore ya?
afterall i noe who i am and what i am.. nothing can bring me down as i've found my strenght.. thanks to those who're really encouraging and supportive.. may the lord bless u ppl *hearts*
Friday, February 22, 2008
this journey..
had alot of thoughts after the launching of iTalentStar at MoS.. should i just quit? i dun blend into the entire group.. i cant speak properly on stage n even infront of the camera.. basically i suck.. ppl had always been telling me "dun quit!" or "u did perfect".. i noe al these are words of encouragement.. thanks to al of u (: but i'm feeling the strain here and the inferiority.. i'm not a born entertainer.. i'm not born a performer.. wat qualities do i have? almost none~ these people are all awesome~ they were great friends and great competitors.. so much have been learnt and so much i've seen.. afterall i do not have full support from my friends or family and love ones.. how am i to go on? where's my strength?
i ask myself "do i have the confidence? am i able to withstand the stress and tensions of all that's happening?" i noe i can do it if i can find my source of strength.. i didnt noe wat it was.. til today.. it was from my friends, family n loved ones.. when i was on stage, i freak out.. but i told myself that i cannot let tose that believes in me down.. i dun wanna let myself down too.. dun wanna regret "i did not do a good job!" again.. so i gave in watever i can to make it a good show.. and thank god everything went real well (: everyone was supportive be it my frens or the other iTalents.. we encourage one another and helped out each other alot.. reali thankful for these wonderful ppl (:
but now i'm deciding if i should go on.. from here on.. i believe more n more obstacles wil be in.. i'm already facing one which is from my bf.. he's against me joining.. he didnt say but i noe for sure he's not reali happy with this.. i dun wish to lost this r/s cos of a comp.. but yet i dun wish to lose this chance to shine n gain confidence cos of a r/s too.. i gave up on dance once for someone, i regretted and i told myself nv to be like that again.. and i noe if i were to give up now, i'll hate myself.. wat should i do? i've lost al my strength and determination to get goin.. i dunno what i should do from now on.. i'm all alone afterall..
Time
Travel!
Take me back
Before the tears
Before I hurt her
When I could help her
When it was easy to hope
Hard to find a reason to mope
When we could find the truth together
Have I lost that closeness forever?
It is my fault for so much of her troubles
And now the foundation crumbles, turns to rubble
Love
Battle!
Take me back
Past the fears
Before the fervor
So that I can cheer her
When it is easy to frown
If I lay my troubles down
I create my own world's weather
Perhaps a cloudless sky's better
The truest vanity is struggle
Where there shouldn't be one that's visible
If I learn to grown in strength, I'll find it best
To drop my past troubles and prepare for the rest.
i hearts those that gave me strength..
but need to seek for my strength once again..
i'm lost..
):
had alot of thoughts after the launching of iTalentStar at MoS.. should i just quit? i dun blend into the entire group.. i cant speak properly on stage n even infront of the camera.. basically i suck.. ppl had always been telling me "dun quit!" or "u did perfect".. i noe al these are words of encouragement.. thanks to al of u (: but i'm feeling the strain here and the inferiority.. i'm not a born entertainer.. i'm not born a performer.. wat qualities do i have? almost none~ these people are all awesome~ they were great friends and great competitors.. so much have been learnt and so much i've seen.. afterall i do not have full support from my friends or family and love ones.. how am i to go on? where's my strength?
i ask myself "do i have the confidence? am i able to withstand the stress and tensions of all that's happening?" i noe i can do it if i can find my source of strength.. i didnt noe wat it was.. til today.. it was from my friends, family n loved ones.. when i was on stage, i freak out.. but i told myself that i cannot let tose that believes in me down.. i dun wanna let myself down too.. dun wanna regret "i did not do a good job!" again.. so i gave in watever i can to make it a good show.. and thank god everything went real well (: everyone was supportive be it my frens or the other iTalents.. we encourage one another and helped out each other alot.. reali thankful for these wonderful ppl (:
but now i'm deciding if i should go on.. from here on.. i believe more n more obstacles wil be in.. i'm already facing one which is from my bf.. he's against me joining.. he didnt say but i noe for sure he's not reali happy with this.. i dun wish to lost this r/s cos of a comp.. but yet i dun wish to lose this chance to shine n gain confidence cos of a r/s too.. i gave up on dance once for someone, i regretted and i told myself nv to be like that again.. and i noe if i were to give up now, i'll hate myself.. wat should i do? i've lost al my strength and determination to get goin.. i dunno what i should do from now on.. i'm all alone afterall..
Time
Travel!
Take me back
Before the tears
Before I hurt her
When I could help her
When it was easy to hope
Hard to find a reason to mope
When we could find the truth together
Have I lost that closeness forever?
It is my fault for so much of her troubles
And now the foundation crumbles, turns to rubble
Love
Battle!
Take me back
Past the fears
Before the fervor
So that I can cheer her
When it is easy to frown
If I lay my troubles down
I create my own world's weather
Perhaps a cloudless sky's better
The truest vanity is struggle
Where there shouldn't be one that's visible
If I learn to grown in strength, I'll find it best
To drop my past troubles and prepare for the rest.
i hearts those that gave me strength..
but need to seek for my strength once again..
i'm lost..
):
Sunday, February 17, 2008
iTalentStar..
i truly wanna thank those that had voted for me and had been encouraging me all the way **appreciates** this contest has just begin and yet i've already learnt somethings from this.. firstly.. i've come to realise that those who are/were close to you might not be the one there for u always.. and secondly.. those that haven't been contacting and even just a acquaintance, might be someone that's always be there when u needed them..
i'm very disappointed in most of them that i approached to vote for me.. i shall not name them.. they were the ones i thot that might be there for me when i needed them.. but their stunts are so "special" that i can easily tell either they're lying that "i've voted for u!" or talk half wat no reply.. thanks to u peeps that made me realise that i shudnt trust everyone i thot i could trust ard me (: and thanks for being a fren even thou i m ight not deserve u.. but i guess the barrier between us is made and it'll never be overcomed and i dun intend to overcome too (:
and for those that voted me.. thank u~ i'm surprised even frens that hadnt been contacting voted for me.. some even without me asking them to.. i truly truly thank them for making the effort.. from now on.. i believe winning ornt doesnt matter that much.. from now on i dun wan votes that's not sincere too.. i'm juz thankful for the true frens that go to extreme for a little fren like me.. and of cos i thank for my bf who's always there for me (:
and today's a "first" day.. lol~ why? cos there's alot of "first" in things that i do today :D
-first time i wear a cheongsam ever since i can remember..
-first time i went to tuas
-first time i performed in a DnD function
-first time i dance with onli 1 fren
-first time i be a back up dancer
-first time i smoke with a celebrity (LOL)
-first time i dance in boots (heeled)
-first time i didnt use blusher n lipstick for a dance
-first time i did a super last min dance
-first time i dance other thn hiphop
-first time i felt like a diva
-first time my bf waited for me for a dance!
yes my dearest dar waited for me entirely without a complain.. he juz entertain himself with his PSP XD cute dar~ anyway am quite happy with my appearance even thou it's non-hiphopish for a performance lol~!
abit of act cute candid here lmao~~~~
here's my dearest loveliest bf~! *i tink this pic look like i'm a girl from some brothel =xxx*
i love u joshua **muacks**
i love al my frens that's true **huggies**
i truly wanna thank those that had voted for me and had been encouraging me all the way **appreciates** this contest has just begin and yet i've already learnt somethings from this.. firstly.. i've come to realise that those who are/were close to you might not be the one there for u always.. and secondly.. those that haven't been contacting and even just a acquaintance, might be someone that's always be there when u needed them..
i'm very disappointed in most of them that i approached to vote for me.. i shall not name them.. they were the ones i thot that might be there for me when i needed them.. but their stunts are so "special" that i can easily tell either they're lying that "i've voted for u!" or talk half wat no reply.. thanks to u peeps that made me realise that i shudnt trust everyone i thot i could trust ard me (: and thanks for being a fren even thou i m ight not deserve u.. but i guess the barrier between us is made and it'll never be overcomed and i dun intend to overcome too (:
and for those that voted me.. thank u~ i'm surprised even frens that hadnt been contacting voted for me.. some even without me asking them to.. i truly truly thank them for making the effort.. from now on.. i believe winning ornt doesnt matter that much.. from now on i dun wan votes that's not sincere too.. i'm juz thankful for the true frens that go to extreme for a little fren like me.. and of cos i thank for my bf who's always there for me (:
and today's a "first" day.. lol~ why? cos there's alot of "first" in things that i do today :D
-first time i wear a cheongsam ever since i can remember..
-first time i went to tuas
-first time i performed in a DnD function
-first time i dance with onli 1 fren
-first time i be a back up dancer
-first time i smoke with a celebrity (LOL)
-first time i dance in boots (heeled)
-first time i didnt use blusher n lipstick for a dance
-first time i did a super last min dance
-first time i dance other thn hiphop
-first time i felt like a diva
-first time my bf waited for me for a dance!
yes my dearest dar waited for me entirely without a complain.. he juz entertain himself with his PSP XD cute dar~ anyway am quite happy with my appearance even thou it's non-hiphopish for a performance lol~!
abit of act cute candid here lmao~~~~
here's my dearest loveliest bf~! *i tink this pic look like i'm a girl from some brothel =xxx*
i love u joshua **muacks**
i love al my frens that's true **huggies**
Thursday, February 14, 2008
a few things to update here..
firstly, it's Happy Valentines'! XD i love my bf and i love my mummy!
dar gave me a surprise by travelling ALL the way down to fareast florist to get my fave calla lilies!!! OH-MY-TIAN XD!! i swear i love them and i swear i love dar *loves* and i tried for quite a long time to put them into a nice simple pink vase which i went to buy at mustafa hehee~ the stalks looks kiinda long but i guess that's lilies.. oh and i NEVER receive lilies in my entire 21 yrs of my life wheee~
dun laugh~ i noe the flower looks weird in the funny vase X( but i tink it's the prettiest i ever seen lalala~ =p
and my sweetest mummy bout this for me n dar for valentines! omg~ prettiest pink rose with the sweetest blessings from mummy!! and it's in the nicest wrapping! mummy sure understand me *fave colour!!* i love u mummy! XD
and i combined them up hehe~
tada~~~~ nice rite my art =x
and i made this for my sweetest baby *smoochies*
happy valentines to all with love ^^
next up..
biggest surprise ever.. i was selected for the top 20 contestant to represent singapore to compete in the iTalent star contest!!! o.O woohaa~ i'm kinda scared but anyway am gonna take it as my first step to boost my own confidence XD it'll be a nice experience thou (: and the guy boxed in blue is my fren! lol~~ small world! ppl pls vote for us ok? how to vote? lai~ follow these instructions..
step 1 - log on to www.italentstar.com
step 2 - register a account to be our dearest DAILY voter **i'm hinting..DAILY**
step 3 - click on vote now and SG talents
step 4 - click on the profile whose face u see most familiar here *ahem ahem*
step 5 - VOTE FOR ME!!!!
easy yea? hehe~ but in anyway wish al the best to al the other contestant too and of cos myself.. i dun need to win.. i just need it to be a beautiful experience for me (: am going al out for it.. cheer me on!
happy valentines to all~
firstly, it's Happy Valentines'! XD i love my bf and i love my mummy!
dar gave me a surprise by travelling ALL the way down to fareast florist to get my fave calla lilies!!! OH-MY-TIAN XD!! i swear i love them and i swear i love dar *loves* and i tried for quite a long time to put them into a nice simple pink vase which i went to buy at mustafa hehee~ the stalks looks kiinda long but i guess that's lilies.. oh and i NEVER receive lilies in my entire 21 yrs of my life wheee~
dun laugh~ i noe the flower looks weird in the funny vase X( but i tink it's the prettiest i ever seen lalala~ =p
and my sweetest mummy bout this for me n dar for valentines! omg~ prettiest pink rose with the sweetest blessings from mummy!! and it's in the nicest wrapping! mummy sure understand me *fave colour!!* i love u mummy! XD
and i combined them up hehe~
tada~~~~ nice rite my art =x
and i made this for my sweetest baby *smoochies*
happy valentines to all with love ^^
next up..
biggest surprise ever.. i was selected for the top 20 contestant to represent singapore to compete in the iTalent star contest!!! o.O woohaa~ i'm kinda scared but anyway am gonna take it as my first step to boost my own confidence XD it'll be a nice experience thou (: and the guy boxed in blue is my fren! lol~~ small world! ppl pls vote for us ok? how to vote? lai~ follow these instructions..
step 1 - log on to www.italentstar.com
step 2 - register a account to be our dearest DAILY voter **i'm hinting..DAILY**
step 3 - click on vote now and SG talents
step 4 - click on the profile whose face u see most familiar here *ahem ahem*
step 5 - VOTE FOR ME!!!!
easy yea? hehe~ but in anyway wish al the best to al the other contestant too and of cos myself.. i dun need to win.. i just need it to be a beautiful experience for me (: am going al out for it.. cheer me on!
happy valentines to all~
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