it's very funny! =\
i was listening to some songs in cab while on my way to work and suddenly she came across my mind.. suddenly felt the heartache to lose her as a close fren.. guess things gotten too harsh previously =\ well, still i tink i'm not in the wrong.. i'm stil angry over her poking her nose into my issues.. let it be~ have been reading her blog recently and was actually quite glad that she's doin pretty fine now while she's facing her worst nightmare.. but just read some stuff that aint very nice and felt quite a heartache again.. i wish to tell her i do love her as a fren.. but it's just.. hais i dunno wat to say =\ bf says i'm being too soft hearted but oh well.. i'm a soft shell crab =x in my lifetime onli few ppl are truly my closest fren and she happen to be one of them.. how can i not feel for her in times like this? sigh~ all i can do now is to give her my deepest blessings and hope that ppl ard her now can truly understand her and love her ba..

min..
jiayou..
i reali do love u..

a cpl stays tgt but doesnt understand each other at all.. this cpl sleeps beside each other every night.. but sad to find out that they both dun understand each other at all.. even his frens says so..

"u shud try to find out things about him urself wor.. initiate to talk to him ma.."

"i know i did.. but wat i get back is 'i'm with my frens lo, u dunno de..' wat else can i say?"

"i believe i noe his things more thn u do"

"i believe too.. infact i believe everyone noes him more thn i do.. haha"

another case..

"where ur bf?"

"at home lo"

"why he nv pei u one? he got work in the morning?"

"errrr ya he's busy with his job"

(in my mind: i dunno where he is i dunno who he's with i dunno wat he's doin)

another case..

"who's iko?"

"my couple"

(in my mind: oh cpl? not gf? aww~~ *cries*)

another case..

"omg where u? how come i cant find ur rm?"

"rm 18.."

"pw?"

"other ppl invite me one"

"oh thn i go play myself ba"

(in my mind: oh i'm not even invited to play with his frens.. why? am i a hidden gf? his frens are anti social? or am i anti social??)

we were online at the same time.. but we rent even pm-ing at all.. not even in the same rm.. and wat i saw? 2 girls in the same rm as him.. i know they're his frens.. i'm not jealous over him playing with girls.. i'm just sad that i'm just a hidden gf.. do they have to lock rm? btw they're ALL at my house without me knowing.. all at same place need to lock rm? hmm i wonder.. i reali wanted to trust him.. alot.. but his actions aren't even telling me that he's transparent to me.. how can i trust someone that cant even trust me with things? sigh~ i dunno how to get the message across anymore.. i'll just keep shut and just let it be..

i'm sad..
very very very sad..
a hidden gf :..(

Stitchy is love!

Wheeeeeeee xD here's the 4 stitchy bii caught for me last sat at suntec hehe~ all different sizes wor kekez~ the miniest one is clipped to my bag so day day bring him out xD the other 3 too big to bring out so just hug 1 to slp at nite while the other 2 watch me to slp xD anyway it's the first time a guy ever caught bears for me :) ty bii **loves** guess he spent a big bomb on it =\ thou many might say "isnt it better if he use the money to buy something else for u?" nope~ to me i think this is where the heart comes in ba :) the effort, patience, money, time spent.. hehe xD

happy girl i am

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sorry for spamming but bf says i nv mention him in my blog.. so here it is :D
tml thn update more with the pictures of my newly caught stitchy by bf xD
nite nite

it's funny how KPO singaporeans can be.. like SERIOUSLY~ issues between me n him need other ppl to come and scold n advice us? omfg~ we're no longer kids u noe =.= he mentioned that his campmate took his phone and replied the sms to me for him.. to his dearest campmate.. hello do i even noe u? do u even fking noe wat is goin on? listening to one sided stories doesnt help anything u noe? and for ur information.. it's best not to listen to a single side at all ok? stop poking ur nose into someone elses matters.. who are u to reply on his behalf? are u his gay bf? or his father? kaos~ get a life.. and also to miss chen.. stop poking ur nose into our affair also i beg of u get far far away from me.. i dun need ur lashing u noe? who are u to call me shameless? u very not shameless meh? omg~ dun force me to say things out :) and who are u to say things bout us? are u in the r/s? no? are u his gf? no? are u even his sister? no? and do u noe his THAT well? more thn me? NO~ so pls.. stfu and control ur own life. cant even handle ur life properly stil wan care bout other's life.. wat a joke.. i guess he just have very very very KPO frens ard him.. it's no wonder he always gets influence so easily.. ha~ to these frens of his.. pls la.. let him have some say in his own life can? stop trying to control it for him.. do u guys reali tink u understand him that fking well? u guys reali noe wat he wants? u guys might noe wat he need but definitely not wat he wants ok~ pls let him have some say.. if not he'll forever be this weak.. u're not helping him at all by doin all these.. my advice.. let him have a SAY.. thanks..

a note to u shin: i wont say i'm a perfect fren.. maybe i'm not even a gd fren to u.. and i have no rights to even comment on ur frens.. but still these frens are just trying to control ur life.. telling u things.. be it truth or untruth.. go ahead and listen to them if u wan to.. my advice is please get a firm stand for urself.. u're too easily influenced.. u need not care bout wat i say.. just leaving a note thou.. just wish u all the best in ur life and hopefully u can finally grow up having ur own firm stand n not being pulled ard by others.. you wanna noe ur weakness? it's not that u're soft.. it's not that u're too nice.. it's just that u always dun voice ur own opinions out.. why is it that when we're tgt, u can voice things that u dun like out so clearly? and yet now u're letting ppl controlling ur life? tink about it and hope u'll be a stronger guy that a girl can lean on ba.. tc

now i noe the truth :)

to think i stil care for someone when she's being down.. to think i still wish her all the best deeply from my heart.. to think i still don't wan to confront her even if she betrayed my trust.. to think i still treat her as a fren deespite she being a hypocrite.. i was dumb~ the biggest fool to even befriend her.. to be called shameless by her? omg~ i wonder who's the shameless one that sleeps ard with guys.. oopss i didnt let that secret out did i? :) no wonder her bf dumps her :)

from now on, dun ever mention chen xuemin this name in my life.. i've totally removed her from my life and wants nothing to do with her :)

hypocrite..

heartless creature..

to think i still ask nicely if i could have my dog back.. i've got every rights to get him back dun i? when the agreement was broken, he broke everything.. i'll never be soft hearted to him.. i guess i've paid him back everything.. ya i still owe him money.. dun worry i'll pay back.. i'm not that shameless :) and dun forget he still owe me my dog :) i'll get him back too.. call me shameless call me bitch.. i wont get soft ever again towards selfish creatures like these people :)

totally disappointed!
i'm not a maria~