blah blah blah.. as usual i skip sch =X hehe.. went to dance prac with lush juz now at youth park.. it was a super slackish one lol =X cos they were half practising for this sat's performance and also for overdrive.. i not joining overdrive le lol =X dun dare la!! scary ok.. i was asking umshah.. "u joining overdrive?" he say "NO LA SIAO! AFRAID SIA!" lol! fierce! =X wish them al the best! lol.. i learn abit more of the item we're doing for this sat's performance.. hard la.. but have to learn.. haha..

didnt dance alot but sweat like mad! =\ anyway my eyecandy was at youth park also!! lol.. =X but he juz came to eat nia.. tat's al.. thn we dance dance dance til ard 11pm.. thn went to cine slack.. lol~ e-wan joined us.. thn we juz talk and talk la.. at least he speaks english.. tapa they al ar.. always mix malay.. i super blur sia.. story listen half way thn have to depend on my own imagination liao lol =X anyway heard that hakim not in lush le.. aiyo but i dunno la.. they also blur about it lol..

hopefully everyone's happy can le la.. =) thn me and karma took last train home tgt.. didnt noe he stay yishun lol~ thn chatted quite alot ar.. i ask him for comments on my dance.. thn he say i very self conscious and i'm very nervous when dancing with lush lol~ of cos la! they so zai.. thn he tell me to take it as a push instead of be afraid of it.. orh mr karma.. i wil =) but happy la.. got lush =) i'm su xingfu~~~ woohoo =)

dearie had a longggggggg day today with his proj =\ hopefully he's fine ba.. =) nothin i can help =( sobsob.. if onli my programming is better.. =\ ok tml science lesson.. gambate yo~~~~~~

rahh.. skip sch as usual =X hehe.. anyway just calculated my GPA.. here it is..

science 1.54 (D)
math 1.87 (D+)
problem solving 2.87 (C+)
Communication 1.82 (D+)
enterprise 2.21 (C)
overall 2.06 (C)

die le lor.. die le lor.. lol! sians! but stil got little bit of hope la.. maybe can bring higher juz a little little bit.. i must get 2.5 minimum by end of next sem sia! i noe most of u are thinking "ehh xinwei/iko first time wil care bout her grades so much sia!" it's actually cos i wan change course ma hehe.. and the requirements is minimum 2.5 GPA =X siansation liao lor~ nvm la.. hopefully can.. shouldnt be so lazy lol~ =X

met up with kiankuen juz now after dance pract to slack at 848.. he happened to be in yishun la.. lol~ so ya.. thn was updating each other about each other's life la.. rather fun thou.. os long nv meet le.. haha.. thn he say i yr 1 onli skip like mad.. yr 2 yr 3 dunno how to survive liao lol =X nvm la.. tat's juz me.. lady luck wil be on my side (i hope =X)

ok so today went dance with VIP for girl's nation battle.. erm.. doin rather fine i guess.. yeap.. not very fast but ok la.. at least got improvement le.. better thn last time we always slack and nv get things done.. =) happy sia.. finally everyone work.. this time even if nv win i also happy le.. cos finally VIP got tgt and compete.. even thou is not the whole crew.. but ya.. happy le =) i hope i didnt offend anyone today sia.. =\ cos we were choreographing.. but thn ya gave comments along the way.. and hopefully no one gets hurt or watever.. purely comments onli.. yeap..

met dear while for dinner.. =) well.. time shud be spent qualitily lol~ ok no such word.. but ya.. since we got not much time tgt.. thn we shud spend quality time tgt.. purely commiting that few minutes to one another.. but can see he today reali try to be with me like REALLI with me.. ok nvm i dunno wat i talking liao lol =X example.. we were walking thn got this precious thots shop he wan me to see if got my tatty bear ornt.. like relai spednign time tgt la.. ok forget it -.- lol~

i'm juz a happy person today =) other thn my GPA =( ok i must be kan de kai.. like the hammerhead shark ^^ hehe~ nites..!!

i have nothing to say after reading his blog.. my fault? i stil dun tink so.. see! ppl say b4 the guy get u or at the beginning of the r/s it's bound to be 100% sweet.. after that the girls is always the slave.. i get it man! watever la.. from honey to bitter. haha. how nice.. and it's onli a month plus.. cant imagine it.. ppl get honeymoons for 3 months.. i get for a week? ya a week.. after my bday.. i thot things iwl be so muc nicer.. but NO i was too wrong.. far too wrong.. how i wish i can turn back time.. to b4 we were tgt.. or at least the start of the r/s.. i reali wish.. at least someone sweet is there.. not this person who i quarrel with every now an thn.. it's juz like a routine.., a xi guan that's to say.. ppl ask me.. u not sian meh? i AM sian.. i am very very sian.. but wat can i do??? fuck the uni? fuck the fyp? or is it juz too bad that he dun have a understanding gf? too bad.. his gf here dun noe wtf is STUDY dun noe how impt education is.. and dun give a shit damn to her own studies.. ya he's too realisteic and i'm far too dreamy in my dreamland.. i hate the reality.. and i hate the cruelity of the world.. seriously if u were to ask me about my future.. wan i wa to be.. i have NO IDEA.. be a gd for nothing person? be a burden to everyone ard me? haha~ i'm juz a useless person la.. study also dun wan.. dance also CMI.. attitude sucks.. cant stay in a job for long.. PR skills sucks.. how? go die rite?? i noe.. if god didnt create me.. i might be happier.. fuck this life of mine.. damn it

damn it.. he always initiates sms?! as if! so al my sms sent we juz replies.. ya.. i shudnt have even tink so much "how happy he'll be seeing this sms" no point since to him he always initiates.. damn it.. i'm so fucking pissed.. how i wish i can switch roles with him for a week.. let him have a taste of wat this feels like.. idiot.. how more silly can i be??? mummy say i'm always silly in love.. i noe.. i acted them out.. cos i noe love is blind.. but wat do i get?!?! he's always always always forever rite.. and i'm forever wrong.. damn it.. FINE! age gap do exist.. someone's rite.. a guy so much older is definitely different from younger guys.. they ALWAYS tinks they're rite and we're forever onli a xiao meimei that needs to LEARN LEARN and LEARN! i learn wat life has install for me.. not wat HE have install for me.. i dun wan to learn things that i dun wish to learn.. call me stubborn.. i dun care.. i'm not gd at words.. so? wan me learn? i've been not gd at them for 19yrs and am not gd at my temper for 19 years as well.. piss me off and this is wat u get.. dun expect me to be a sweetie when i'm pissed.. dun expect me to be nice and warm when i'm pissed.. i'm heartless? yes i am when i'm pissed.. my attitude sucks? yes i am! i am i am i am! so? i dun care.. i've been so damn disappointed recenty bt have to hide.. cos i noe it's no choice.. but fuck it! i'm gonna let out on my blog.. it's MY blog anyway.. no one has the rights to comment on me.. not happy? dun read thn! i dun need one more person to boost my blog's popularity.. disappointment after disappointment.. al these leads to wat? a better future? a more sorrowful me? or a xi guan? one of my fren say "eh i see u liddat very xin ku lei" my reply is "bobian.. xi guan le" she reply "huh.. why liddat" i say i dunno.. haha.. silly? YES! i cant imagine how silly i can be.. how stupid i can be.. and how god damn pissed i am rite now this minute! damn it.. lets see how long more i can change this into a XI GUAN.. damn it.. he NEVER understand me.. NEVER! i'm no longer a xiao meimei.. sometimes listen t me as well.. dun keep arguing back.. u ask me to keep silent and tink.. how abt u? do u do that? i guess not.. previously there's a tiffle.. whichin the end he did realise the prob's with him.. and i appreciate that.. but now? is my fault when he cant go to the chalet which he promised? it's my fault when i initiate sms and he tink it's him who initiates more? it's my fault for him having no time for me to acc with? ya la ya la.. it'a al my fault.. can?

liyi told me this..
in a r/s where got u pei me or i pei u one?
isnt it al we pei one another?

i cant quite get it.. but somehow i agree to it..
in a r/s reali muz draw the line til so clear?
i dun understand why..

i'm super sian.. chalet no more i guess.. 99.99999999999999999% no more.. hais.. well.. nvm la.. wat to do.. =( hais.. juz wait for classmates' chalet ba.. hopefully they faster go book.. dunno wat to blog about la.. juz purely sian.. nvm.. bye

when i dream too much..
when i thot things would be that way..
i just make myself fall deeper..
and get hurt deeper.. =(

Nail arts~ japan one.. nice rite?!?!!