hi baby.. it's vday.. a day i hate if u'll rmb.. i told u once that i hated vday the most..
it's one of the most useless day.. i believed that if a cpl is happy everyday, vday would be meaningless.. cos everyday would be happy vday..

anyway.. i'm not in a happy day.. i was in fact one of my downest day.. i felt lonely the entire day.. i felt all alone on a day like this.. i've always wished for a wonderful vday in my younger days,, but apparently it nv happened.. i was always alone.. i nv had any guys i like that ask me out.. nv had any nice dinner.. nv had any sweet dramas that happened on me.. vday.. is just a fairytale to me.. it's nv realistic.. and it'll nv happen..

i'm just happy if i'd ever receive ur replies..
this.. is more thn enough..

i noe i've lost u this vday..
but baby.. i've been wishing for u..
for this vday.. for this festive..
i wish i had u..

wat's the true meaning of vday?
i never knew how it felt like to receive love..
i nv knew how it felt like to spent a happy vday with ur love ones..
perhaps this life.. i'll nv know how it felt,,
vday.. just be gone.. please..
i've lost my love.. more thn enough.. this is for me..
please.. bring it away for me..

wondering.. how are u..

flooded with misses.

awaiting for the magical moment with the miracle words..
will it ever come true?

i wonder..
still.. thank god for a sweet friday :)

Everything wil turn out for the good

 This is a MUST SHARE..

amazing sermon i heard from Nick Vujicic again.. on why God doesnt heal ALL the time. tink of it.. i have been praying for healings every single night before i slp and when i wakes from all the heartaches i've been feeling.. i've been praying for healings in aspects to my BGR issues and feeling of inferiority in life, career and family issues. imagine if i was healed just like that.. wouldnt i have lost my compassion for mankind? wouldnt i not know how it feels like to go thru these? than how am i gonna put myself in others' shoes and help them when they're in need?

i've always been very proud of my compassion towards ppl and animals. i tink it's a gift from god to have compassion in me. some ppl calls it emo. but i feel for ppl. i feel sad when i see ppl sad. i feel darn happy when i see ppl smile/laugh because of something i did/said or just because of me. i was beginning to wonder why i wasnt healed.. i was beginning to wonder why is god allowing things happening to me the way it is. i was beginning to wonder has god forsaken me? and no.. this sermon came just in time.

i wasnt healed.. not at all.. i stil feel the heartaches.. the feeling of unwanted.. the feeling of inferiority.. the feeling of a broken heart.. the feeling of having no fatherly love.. but at least.. i truly know how it feels. who knows? 10yrs down the road, someone at my current age is gg thru this and i'd be able to help him/her.. and there, i saved someone.. i truly believe God has his reason. he never makes mistakes and he NEVER waste our time. if i'm still breathing now, than there is still a reason why i'm here.

He did not forsake me..
It's just not the right time yet to answer my daily prayers..
whatever he dun change/take away, he makes use of it..

super amazing message that comes from God..
Thank u daddy! ♥

 

Here's the link in case any random ppl jumps by my blog and wants to hear it for themselves :)

 

 

My intuition is telling me something..
If it's true..
I'll be damn disappointed..
Totally..

miss u so much :(

everything wil be different aft my one good cry

gdbye love..

What do i wan?

was asking myself what do i actually wan.. i came to a conclusion..
i just want a simple r/s.. no complications..

a r/s that involves onli 2 of us..
a r/s which starts because we love each other much enough to want each other to be The One..
a r/s with mutual trust and understanding..
a r/s with no lies, no hidings..
a r/s whereby we hold each other's hands and decide that we will hold this hand til the end..
a r/s whereby even in bad times, or fights, we'd stil care for one another..
a r/s whereby both of us will never ever tink of ending no matter how pissed we are..

it's not hard.. but i guess it's hard to get.. the onli word i can tink of here is True love.. cliche ya.. but True love overcomes all.. it's the onli magical touch here.. nth else matters..

我们都累了..

Let go and let God :)