Stitchy is love!

Wheeeeeeee xD here's the 4 stitchy bii caught for me last sat at suntec hehe~ all different sizes wor kekez~ the miniest one is clipped to my bag so day day bring him out xD the other 3 too big to bring out so just hug 1 to slp at nite while the other 2 watch me to slp xD anyway it's the first time a guy ever caught bears for me :) ty bii **loves** guess he spent a big bomb on it =\ thou many might say "isnt it better if he use the money to buy something else for u?" nope~ to me i think this is where the heart comes in ba :) the effort, patience, money, time spent.. hehe xD

happy girl i am

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sorry for spamming but bf says i nv mention him in my blog.. so here it is :D
tml thn update more with the pictures of my newly caught stitchy by bf xD
nite nite

it's funny how KPO singaporeans can be.. like SERIOUSLY~ issues between me n him need other ppl to come and scold n advice us? omfg~ we're no longer kids u noe =.= he mentioned that his campmate took his phone and replied the sms to me for him.. to his dearest campmate.. hello do i even noe u? do u even fking noe wat is goin on? listening to one sided stories doesnt help anything u noe? and for ur information.. it's best not to listen to a single side at all ok? stop poking ur nose into someone elses matters.. who are u to reply on his behalf? are u his gay bf? or his father? kaos~ get a life.. and also to miss chen.. stop poking ur nose into our affair also i beg of u get far far away from me.. i dun need ur lashing u noe? who are u to call me shameless? u very not shameless meh? omg~ dun force me to say things out :) and who are u to say things bout us? are u in the r/s? no? are u his gf? no? are u even his sister? no? and do u noe his THAT well? more thn me? NO~ so pls.. stfu and control ur own life. cant even handle ur life properly stil wan care bout other's life.. wat a joke.. i guess he just have very very very KPO frens ard him.. it's no wonder he always gets influence so easily.. ha~ to these frens of his.. pls la.. let him have some say in his own life can? stop trying to control it for him.. do u guys reali tink u understand him that fking well? u guys reali noe wat he wants? u guys might noe wat he need but definitely not wat he wants ok~ pls let him have some say.. if not he'll forever be this weak.. u're not helping him at all by doin all these.. my advice.. let him have a SAY.. thanks..

a note to u shin: i wont say i'm a perfect fren.. maybe i'm not even a gd fren to u.. and i have no rights to even comment on ur frens.. but still these frens are just trying to control ur life.. telling u things.. be it truth or untruth.. go ahead and listen to them if u wan to.. my advice is please get a firm stand for urself.. u're too easily influenced.. u need not care bout wat i say.. just leaving a note thou.. just wish u all the best in ur life and hopefully u can finally grow up having ur own firm stand n not being pulled ard by others.. you wanna noe ur weakness? it's not that u're soft.. it's not that u're too nice.. it's just that u always dun voice ur own opinions out.. why is it that when we're tgt, u can voice things that u dun like out so clearly? and yet now u're letting ppl controlling ur life? tink about it and hope u'll be a stronger guy that a girl can lean on ba.. tc

now i noe the truth :)

to think i stil care for someone when she's being down.. to think i still wish her all the best deeply from my heart.. to think i still don't wan to confront her even if she betrayed my trust.. to think i still treat her as a fren deespite she being a hypocrite.. i was dumb~ the biggest fool to even befriend her.. to be called shameless by her? omg~ i wonder who's the shameless one that sleeps ard with guys.. oopss i didnt let that secret out did i? :) no wonder her bf dumps her :)

from now on, dun ever mention chen xuemin this name in my life.. i've totally removed her from my life and wants nothing to do with her :)

hypocrite..

heartless creature..

to think i still ask nicely if i could have my dog back.. i've got every rights to get him back dun i? when the agreement was broken, he broke everything.. i'll never be soft hearted to him.. i guess i've paid him back everything.. ya i still owe him money.. dun worry i'll pay back.. i'm not that shameless :) and dun forget he still owe me my dog :) i'll get him back too.. call me shameless call me bitch.. i wont get soft ever again towards selfish creatures like these people :)

totally disappointed!
i'm not a maria~

i've never felt so drained in my entire life.. giving and giving.. it's tiring.. no one understands.. no one will know.. i'll be strong and take all loads on me.. til the day i collapse.. i'll trade my dreams, my passion, my love for my survival in this world.

i've been forsaken..
i need a gd cry..
:(

it's quite funny when now i'm out of the circle to look at relationships in the point of a viewer.. haven been seeing MSN nicks like "let's stop contacting one another ba.." or things like "i'm sorry i've hurt you but t's for the best.." -____________- hello?! wat is the world becoming? or is it always like this? o.O why is everyone getting oh-my-fcuking-godly so emo? does stop contacting one another helps anything? does hurting someone helps the someone? and yet knowing that you purposely hurt the someone u stil tell the peron "i hurt u" wtf?! i'm seriously beginning to not understand this world of love and hate =\

i also realise we humans love to say things we dun mean.. or maybe we TRY to pass the msg across but failed most of the times.. example? when someone says no to something, n their heart it's always a "yes pls beg me pls yes yes yes".. this is human isnt it? dun deny.. it's the fact.. we're just lowly creatures that are seriously in chinese call "fan jian" =.= i 100% agree on this ok~ we reali need to learn how to cherish somethings or someone ba.. it isnt easy for 2 person to crosss path out of the billions of ppl in the world.. there's a reason why we appear in one another's life and dun regret when it's too late for anything..

stop finding faults with ur another half and fcuking think of his/her good point.. we tend to lose our mind and onli look at the bad side of things when we get involve in a quarrel or fight.. but my advice.. stay cool, take time away from the fight and use ur brain/heart to think.. how good is the person to u? how many happy memories you both spent tgt? and wat will happen to u if he/she dies infront of u this minute? i believe when these are taken into consideration, the love wil go grow stronger ba..

just my 2cents worth thou.. sprouting abit of nonsense here in my lousy blog to pass time.. am waiting to get to work thou.. lala~ oh ya in case no one knows.. i'm currently working at a lan shop at boon lay shopping center.. visit me if u're free :D ** no free coms thou =x hehe~


cherish..
is the key to success..

for those who have been ard me recently should have know that i'm currently goin through a "i-am-lost-" process now.. firstly, bf n me has ended our 6months-to-be r/s.. why? cos i'm stil playful.. i couldnt settle my heart and be a "good gf" that doesn't club, drink, game as much.. he didnt let me down.. i did.. guilt was all along within me since the beginning of the r/s.. everything seems stable and fine til i realise, maybe we weren't meant for one another.. we had very different backgrounds, very different circle of frens, very different lifestyle, different likings etc.. i know this is no excuse for the breakup as ppl always says "opposite attracts".. correct.. but not when it's TOO opposite ya? we've been trying to compromise to one another and trying reali hard to live in each other's world.. he tried reali hard i will say.. i wont deny, he's the perfect bf everyone dreams to have.. ok at least near perfect? but i couldnt give him my all.. i couldnt love him the way he needed.. the problem lies with me, not him.. ahh~ and there's lotsa ppl asking him to break with me.. including my best sister.. HA~ honestly, i'm very disappointed already.. ya i noe i'm not good, asking him to leave me might be the best and right choice :) at least he'll be free to find one that reali loves him the way he needed.. one that stop biting and slapping him.. one that suits and blends in his life more.. i do not need hypocrite frens ard me.. i do not need anyone to give me watever advices that u can tink of.. everyone knows how stubborn am i and i honestly am turning a deaf ear to them.. my lil advice, save ur troubles and saliva for nothing can affect my own decision.. have been spending a rather hopeless life these few days.. getting drunk, game whole day, just basically to rot my day off.. but i was truly happy.. it's been long since i had this kinda lifestyle.. honestly i miss it.. i know this cant carry on for life but still let me enjoy it while i can ya? i just feel both of us need time and space to adjust ourselves once again.. i couldn't breathe.. i was suffocating.. and the more anyone pushes, it'll just cross the line and i might face a terrible breakdown.. for now just let me live life the way i wan ya?

freedom..
i yearn for you..