Melody of my Life..

hmm havin many many doubts in my mind now.. =\ wondering about alot of things.. aint feeling reali gd.. =\ well.. hopefully everythin's nt as bad as i thot it might be.. i'm not a toy.. i'm nt someone whom u can play with.. i'm not someone whom u can betrayed.. tink carefully.. before any promise is made.. i hate broken promises.. and i hate lies.. so pls dun lie.. i know he's smart.. i know he's sensible.. and i know he can think very well.. i hope all these wont be proven wrong one day.. =\ maybe i'm having such doubts is cos this is a very special one.. i've nv been thru things liddat.. i've nv been thru alot alot alot.. hope things wont end up as wat i thot it wil.. ok i'm having very very bad thots of the consequences now.. =\ i shall leave it to god.. god.. pls take over.. clear these doubts in me and let me have the rite mindset for everythin.. -loves-