Melody of my Life..

Our First Month..
on this rainy day.. on this filled with feelings nite.. it is our first month anniversary.. one of the days i've been waiting for.. but.. i dun seem to be reali happy when the clock strikes 12.. =\ it seems juz like any other days out there.. am i reali tat not special at al?? does our r/s reali means nothin to him? hais.. i dun wanna be sad.. i dun wanna cry.. but.. hais.. why?! i juz need more of his care.. nothin else.. is it reali that hard? why cant time turn back to when it was before x'mas? why muz god treat me this way? i'm juz a girl who needs love n attention.. i did nothin wrong did i? but WHY?! why is heaven so unfair to me? yes.. heaven did give me happiness.. but it lasted just for 2weeks.. 2miserable weeks..! well.. since i'm stupid enough to choose this path.. thn i shall bear al the consequences ba.. cant blame him.. cant blame god.. cant blame anyone but myself.. who choose to suffer in silence n to wait.. wait for the day when i can truly smile again.. well who knows.. the day might or might nt come.. but i'm willin to wait.. ha.. a foolish girl am i eh.. nvm.. i'll wait for the real HAPPY anniversary thn.. anyone's who's affected by this blog can simply hack care me ok.. i'm juz abit mad n needed a space to throw my nonsense out.. thanks..