Melody of my Life..

HMMM~
today my mood is very up and down.. of cos up more la.. heex.. when i woke up i saw baby's sms sayin he didnt go sch -_- lol~! so we meet up at cityhall to shop around lo.. to me, shop around is juz a excuse la.. haha~ juz wanna spend time with him =) when i woke up b4 seein his sms i thot to myself "no no no i cannot see him so much later i become too dependent on him i die~" lol well tat's the mistake tat i always made in my past relationship ma rite~ lol~! thn when see the sms already argh~! i wanna see him~!! haha.. so we met up.. we went to suntec to walk around lo.. juz felt gd when he holds my hand and gives me the hug =) sweetie~!! heex.. i love being in his arms.. felt so warm.. we thn slack ard at suntec n raffles city lo.. i acc him to eat BK while waiting for erika they al.. we took few photos heex.. wanna upload them but dunno wat's wrong with this stupid blog.. juz cant get the pics up *%&^#^*~! irritating~! but nvm.. i happy can le.. heex.. he's reali sweet with his actions.. love him so much..! when erika they al reach already we went to esplanade thn.. juz dance there n slack lo.. as usual.. baby went there to study.. i mean "STUDY" bike lesson~! lol~! but at least he did study la.. =) i keep gettin disturb by dion they all.. argh~! idiot~ but nvm.. i happy can liao lol~! b4 we went home baby sat down n chatted with us.. am reali glad he did.. at least he do mix with my frens.. that's the most basic thing rite.. n better stil they clique~! haha~ dharni ash n him lame til i cannot tahan sia haha~! but i juz love to listen to him lamin with my frens.. =) b4 i left, we gave each other a half-hug.. lol~! shy la~! he wanted to send me home but i didnt wan him to cos it's rather late already n tml he stil have test.. when walkin home, dion asked "why u two nv hold hand one?" oh hoho~ hmm gd question.. wel the ans is.. we're shy~!! haha~ but i like this.. dun always stick to one another when we're with groups rite.. it's best to mix around.. deep down we know who's the special one can already~ dun have to announce to the whole world (thou i reali would love to~haha).. when reach home, i bathe and al la.. thn when i went to the kitchen to smoke(oopss.. sorry baby) it start to rain.. and poof~ here my feelings rised.. i start to feel abit emo.. thn i tink.. why he wanna hide our relationship.. and how long is he gonna hide.. i know he reali dun wan someone to get hurt la.. tat i understand but i personally somehow felt abit empty in me.. it's rather hurtin but at least the reason is acceptable la.. so i wont blame him.. i'll juz have to wait til the very special day when we can reali reali announce that we're tgt~ for that moment i wanna talk to the stars in the sky.. but no star to be found -_-.. i've been talkin to stars almost everyday nowadays.. lol~ and the weather seems to change accordin to my mood.. ever since G left me.. haha kinda freaky but happy that heaven knows.. =) when it rain today, i felt that heaven's cryin for me.. but i said to them "dun cry for me.. i'm happy enough.." and i mean it.. i'm reali glad he came into my life and loved me the way he does.. slow n steady~ i juz hate those guys who rushed into everythin n juz stick ot u like super glue.. i know it's to show ppl how "lovely" we are but i stil tink it's abit over.. so i'm glad i've got him =) well i did talk to sisi bout my emo la.. she said maybe it's tat we juz got tgt so definitely i'll feel rather empty n insecure.. but as time goes by, i'll see the truth.. hmm we come to this conclusion tat maybe he's too innocent.. haha~ yes~ he is~! such a little baby boy.. but i like his cuteness~ heex~! pure n innocent~ =) hmmm tink i shouldnt tink so much.. no more emo~!!! lalala~ i'm a happy girl haha~! oya i read his phone's sms today.. hmm tink he had a date with his ex on x'mas.. guess it was made b4 they broke.. of cos somehow my heart dropped abit la.. but i'm stil ok with it.. this kinda things i understand~ but when i ask him bout it he say he wanna spend his x'mas with me.. of cos i wanna spendwith him too.. but wat i felt is maybe he reali should go to the date? it's a promise made.. and i hate ppl breakin promises to me.. so i guess it wont be a nice feelin for her too.. on the selfish side-i wan him on that day!!! on the nice side-he should go.. argh~! i'm soooooo blur now.. mind is filled with mixed feelings.. >.< i'm missing his hugs now.. hurhur~ wish he is here beside me.. so i can juz hug him til i fall asleep.. in conclusion, my feelings today is 80percent happy n 20percent saddy.. haha~! oh.. sudddenly reminded of somethin.. today me n baby walked pass gelare where emi n G they al are inside.. lol guess wat emi told me.. she said after G saw us, he become very slow n stone.. haha~ why? he cant believe there's actually someone who'll ever love me? or he cant believe i'm in love with someone else? i've told him lots n lotsa time that if u dun cherish wat u have now, u're gonna lose it one day.. but he nv learn.. too bad.. he had totally lost me.. even as frens.. we're onli workin partners now.. i dun wan someone who took me for granted to be my fren.. no way~! ok i'm missin my baby sooooooo much now..! argh~! bang wall bang wall~! pray that my baby wil do well in his test tml.. hurhur wont get to see him til dunno when le.. hopefully he'll surprise me again like today.. *hint* haha~!!