Melody of my Life..

..Star..
juz now when i looked outta my window i saw this bright star.. guess wat.. i see it EVERYDAY! sometmes i wonder.. is it my guiding star? hmm.. weird.. hope it is =) at least something's there for me to throw my rubbish out to.. heehee~ oh i juz read shir's bloggy.. shir, if u're readin.. i reali wanna say sorry if i were one of them who made u felt that way.. i reali didnt mean to.. u're nt left out u noe.. it's juz cos u've been disappeared for quite awhile or shud i say u disappeared when we were at esplanade.. that's where al out topics come from.. u tink back.. the times when we were al dancing there.. as ALL of us almost everyday.. u're in the picture rite? i swear u r.. and am damn sure u're in our world.. i dun mean u're outta our world now.. but it's juz we have lesser common topics due to ur absence.. nobody's to blame.. not even urself.. cos u're bz is nobody wan de rite? hmm.. u shud have voiced out.. why do u tink we wont listen to u? why do u tink we'll onli listen to certain ppl? tat's nt the way we work rite? our way of workin had always been the same.. everyone voices out and we decide with the idea most ppl wan.. rite? unless u had voiced out and we reali did ignore u.. for me, i'm quite sure i didnt.. if i did.. pls let me noe.. cos i relai dunno.. ok i dunno wat i'm sayin.. haha.. erm.. to me, VIP if 1person is missin, i'll feel weird.. i seriously do.. whenever u're nt at esplanade.. u can ask emi.. we both wil say things like "eh shir nt ard.. no boa ar?" u understand the deeper meaning of tis sentence? it's like we're so damn used to u being ard, makin fun, play, crap, dance, BOA! reali.. if u're nt in our world, we'll nt even notice tis lil things rite? so darlin.. cheer up ok.. trust me.. thou we meet less often, we're nt different at al.. =) even me.. i wil start sch real soon.. and i have no idea how damn bz i might be.. and i'm very sure the times we meet wil be even lesser and lesser.. =\ but pls do noe.. u or anyone else are not left out! cos VIP started with the few of us.. and the ones that had always been ard are the ones we're al closer with isnt it? =) u see.. today's dance lesson me n u are like crazily tryin to learn the dance rite? if i didnt care bout ur presence i wont even ask u the stuff rite? babe.. if u do feel somethin.. pls voice it out ok? u muz let us noe.. remember kelly's incident? =\ she left us cos she didnt voice out and we didnt noe wat went wrong.. until the day she tell nard bout it.. so remember to VOICE IT ALL OUT!!! haha.. reali ar.. in fact to al VIP i tink al of us should have the mentality that we shud "say if we feel".. so tat each other wil noe.. and things wil change.. it's juz like.. u're bz with sch stuff and if u nv tell us we thot u didnt wanna dance cos u got no passion.. i'm juz exampl-ing la.. haha.. same thing wat.. imagnie u nv write in ur blog and i nv read it i never noe wat's goin on in ur mind.. thn i didnt do anythin bout it.. and thn maybe u'll juz "hate" us more, and maybe wat's worst u might felt more left out and one day like kelly.. leave us.. u wont wan that rite? so voice it out.. =) dun feel inferior, dun feel lonely, dun feel left out.. i noe it's hard to control.. trust me a felt tat b4.. imagine how bad a dancer was i.. =\ thn with VIP i'm like freakin stress.. remember the day i cried when we're learning "get on te dance floor"? haha.. i felt inferior too.. i felt left out when the crew's doin damn well in dance n i'm like so farrrrrr behind.. i did voice out.. to a few of them.. and it reali did help.. even emi.. few days back she got this "i wanna quit dance" mentality.. imagine if she nv voice out to me.. =\ things might have gotten worst.. rite? so now i've listed ALOT of examples n my post is like damn freakin long.. haha.. hope u reali do feel better le ok =) shall go out for subway one day =) remember! u're nv alone! =) -huggsss- ehh any other VIP readin this hor.. pls hor.. dun another one sayin u eflt left out hor.. haha! i dun wanna repeat this LONGGGGGGG post again =\ lol! but do voice out if anythin u guys are feelin ok! comments welcomed! haha! -muacksss-