Melody of my Life..

argh fuckin cheebye la.. why the fuck am i affected by that stupid truth i noe? i shouldnt be since i've moved on! suddenly al the stupid flashbacks come again on my mind.. al i see is al the times we had.. al the beautiful memories n ugly ones.. i wish to tear down the shelter at my place nearby.. i wish to bomb sentosa if i can.. i wish to bomb citilink if i can.. i wish to bomb his house i wish to bomb even my own house.. cos al these are places with memories! i wish to juz delete everythin in my mind that's related to him! be it gd or bad.. if i could i wan to delete everythin that had happen from 7th dec til now! or maybe even before 7th dec.. i wish i had never wanted to go dance at citilink.. i wish UAN had never wanna move so that the dance studio wil stil be there and i wont have to go citilink n dance and so i wont get to noe him! i reali wish that he had never never entered my life! i reali do wish that! but oh well.. things can never be change.. al i noe now is i muz chant "he sux he sux he's the bastard" to myself so that i can move on easier n faster.. =\ i've always thot he's reali a nice guy.. and i thot he reali is tryin his best not to hurt me.. but i was wrong! oh man.. how wrong can i be.. should have listen to al my frens.. if he's reali so damn nice as nice as i tink, he wont do al this.. i now can reali see the clear picture.. i FINALLY see it.. there's reali NO MORE gd guys in this world.. NO MORE!!! fuckin cheebye xinwei can u fuckin wake up!! ARGH i wish i can slap myself now! have been very drunk for the past few days.. been drinkin alot.. reali shouldnt but i cant help it.. i juz wanna drink get drunk smoke n club and forget everythin.. i noe i shouldnt but wat else? better thn i cry everyday rite? i wanna smile too i wanna be happy too.. but how?! argh! xinwei u're a idiot!