the feeling i detest MOST >:(

again.. he's trying to push me away.
i dunno how much he reali wants me to leave..
the last time this happen, i was stubborn not to walk away.
the final thing that happened that made me walk away was his decision of settling down, with someone that's not me.

i didnt want to be a hinderance in his life.. i didnt want to make him waver..
i did not choose to walk away because i've stop loving.
i did not choose to walk away because i didnt want to wait on.
i did not choose to walk away because i wan to.

this time.. he's acting all the same again..
pushing me away, telling me to move on n saying stuffs i hate..
i had to make sure.. is this wat he TRULY wants?
if this is wat he truly wants, i'll just go back to the days how i walked away.
it isnt easy i swear. but since i done it once, i can do it twice.
life might turned a wreak for awhile, but that's the best i can do..
after talking on it, i'm glad the result wasnt the same :)
i teared.. yes in office.. fml!
but the gd thing about having small eyes? ppl cant tell :)

one or two of them caught it but i simply brush it off with "i chain-yawned" :p

i dun wanna be abandoned again :(