Melody of my Life..

totally shattered..

my heart was stabbed to death on 21st october 2007. sometimes i wish i was the blur and stupid type that always dun wanna find out truths. truths' out, promises broken. i remained nice even when we broke up.. wat do i get back? fuck up attitudes.. he say he treat al his frens with that kind of attitude? laugh-my-ass-off!! ppl ard us with eyes al can see what's the difference. everyone knows.. no one's siding whoever..

even if he reali treats al his frens liddat.. al i can say is.. i pity his frens.. i can be witness.. that his frens mostly are very nice ppl. and by being such a nice fren, they get this kinda attitude from him?! oh-my-god.. how unlucky.. i've already been thru it this few days/weeks.. i've seen the true colours of one person i used to love so much. it's so scary.. seriously scary.. i seem like i never known this guy at all.. why?! he told me this is the real him.. omfg~ spare me the shock pls.

haven i been nice enuff? i've always worried for his everything.. those who're close knows everything.. i dun wanna say here.. it's nothing nice anyway.. i give up.. i dun wanna be a toy anymore.. no longer a puppet with a nice and soft heart.. no more~ since things are liddta now.. i shall be someone u guys never know.. iko's dead.. the jeremy i used to loved is dead.. i dun recognise him anymore.. and i shall bury al the memories we had and never touch them again.

i admit there's stil abit of unbearingness in me to let go.. i thot we had a chance to be tgt again one fine day. i thot.. now it's al shattered.. dun wry.. i cried cos i juz had a tripped on a rock.. i injured myself.. the wound's deep.. and they juz rubbed salt into it.. i wil recover soon.. very very soon.. nothing can bring me down. i shall live my new life once again.. i shall be a hppy girl once again. i wont ever ever cry for useless things again..

i will move on..
i dun need u..
get lost..