Melody of my Life..

My dad?? more like a asshole!

i have such a asshole father! f*cking hell.. can i ask u where got ppl side outsiders rather thn own family one?! a slave for money! prideless bastard that tries to save some face for himself! *PUI* that asshole gave me a good nagging session like 5min ago. and seriously, i've never ever felt so @#$%^#@#$%^& before! X( how can there be ppl that contradicts themselves SO DAMN WELL one??? pls tell me what on earth is he thinking. or rather.. are u sure he is reali 55years olds? more like 5yrs old hao ma~~~

this is wat he juz nagged at me..
see for yourself how nonsensical it is ok..

"i never ever think for myself.. al i think and care for is you.. if i care for myself my life would be much easier"

so is he trying to hint something? HA~

"i'm not rich.. even if i have no money with me i'll borrow and give it to u.. i'm always worry that you got no money to spend"

ISIT?!?!?! next thing i see is a brand new sony ericsson HP he's holding ^^ and IF that reali is the case, why the fuck am i stil so poor now??? i dun anyhow spend my money if u noe me well..

"why you always seems so bo chap about the family?!"

you think there's anything i can do??? FYI~ i'm not even of a legal age to decide what's gonna happen to my house! and btw, other thn my mum, i got no more family ^^

"the electrical bills are so high! can u save?!"

so u expect me to quit sch and work full time?! FYI~ this asshole dun even allow me to work PART TIME!!! when i work he stopped me, when i dun work he nag me.. WTF?! and why are the bills high? it's basically the fuck up tenants that on the light for 24/7!

"you think if you go rent a room outside, you can have all these freedom? u can bring ur frens up ur place? u can on the lights 24/7?"

i shoot him back saying that's wat the tenants are doin now.. he said the following..

"i dun care.. if without them, we wont even have the money to pay our electrical bills!"

WTF?! of cos they have to pay AT LEAST the amount for the electrical bills la! they wash clothes like 4 - 5 times a day, bath for like an hour, dun turn off the heater and lights! he sides them cos they PAY~ pathetic prideless ass~

"i just want you to study hard"

thn why the fuck are u nagging about everything else?!?!?!?! you tink my school work is too relax?

"which guy is your boyfriend? dun be a slut that sleep with every guy you know"

WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF?! can someone murder him for this pls?! when on earth i'm someone like this?! ok maybe cos everytime there's alot of guy-friends at my place.. but stil it's not right for him to think that way rite?! if i were to slp with any guy i noe, at least i would have gone on 1 by 1 not all at once?!?! and the basic is to lock the door isnt it?! but my door is always not locked!

and after i seriously raised my voice and shouted back at him, he kept quiet and change topic immediately.. ta ma de~ he explained that he saw me n my dearie hugging to slp few days back.. SO?! it's juz a hug to slp.. does he see me hugging everyone else to slp?! and isnt it obvious enough that the guy i hugged is my bf?! *faint*

i seriously dun understand why i have a father like this.. i'm not a child i repeat.. NOT a child anymore! i'm fucking 20 yr old and i noe how to think for myself! havent i been thru enough to learn wat life is??? havent i pass by the lowest point of my life by myself?? omg~ i seriously cant stand him.. can he or me just die?! X( i wan nothing to do with this asshole.. totally NOTHING~

if you murder him i'll be grant you any wish you wanted X(
my dad is dead..
i'm only left with my mum since i last remember..