:(

had some drinks.. and am getting emo all over again :(
i know i shouldnt.. but let me have a break from all the fake smiles and all the fake happiness can i?

aft days of acting all normal and yo yo frens..
i dun wanna deny that i'm missing u all over again..
i dun wanna hide the fact that i reali miss those days a hell lot..
i dun wanna run away from my own feelings..

our happiness did not last long.. but i reali was happy.
i smiled truly.. i laughed.. i cared.. i was alived..
but onli for a short while..
before u decided to let me be free and hoping i can find my own happiness..

honestly..
ur thoughts.. for me.. they're hurting me..
i dun wanna seek my own happiness..
because i've alr found them..

i've found them.. and lost them..

i blame myself for not being able to contain them..
i blame myself for not appearing on time..
i blame myself for not being able to make u wan me enough..
i'm beginning to hate who i am..


tell me wat can i do.. to have u solely to me?
baby.. i miss u.. :(

Happen to come across a beautiful song which my fren shared..

Lyrics is awesome.. kinda sad.. but still it speaks the language of a broken heart..

somehow.. i'm numb towards love songs.. kinda.. couldnt feel anything.. no longer feel sad, no longer feeling emo.. no longer feel..



i wanna feel my heart once again..
but..
how? :(

再一次感受自己的心跳

好希望能够得到一个紧紧的拥抱。。
好希望能够听到温柔的安慰声。。

好希望，好希望。。
能再一次感受自己的心跳。。

好想你。。

couldnt believe i stil have so much tears aft 5 yrs..
i'm not being emo nemo..
i'm just feeling sad for the 2 person that loved so much..
i'm just feeling angry at the twisted fate they shared..
i'm just.. missing our memories.. :(

i'm sorry.. i should be a strong girl by now..
but i am stil a girl aftall..

it felt like everything just came crushing back on me..
when wil i ever meet someone like u again?
when can i ever love like i've loved again?

ahhhhhhhh tears! stop flowing!!! it's irritating!!! pfft!

I'm utterly disgusted..

Perhaps one day when u finally understand wtf is the word "Love" is all about, than we'll talk. 

Or perhaps tat day will nv come..

Wake up ur bloody idea!

Be a Man and stop acting like a spoilt brat!

How old alr?! 

Whatever words u've told me.

Whatever "goals" u've had. 

They all suddenly just sounded like bullshits to me. 

Dun give me crap about how "wonderful" ur goal is. 

You dunno the word "Cherish", i assure u'll regret it freakin hard some day. 

This is coming frm someone that have been there done that. 

Dun believe? We shall see :)

Pissed off!

NO!

u've nv loved..
u've nv liked..
u've nv even infatuated..

this is bullshit.

Am thankful for everything tat has happened today..

Thank u and You :)