wah damn sian.. rot at home whole day zzzzzzzzzz.. -.- went downstairs to get some food.. thn stuck home le lo.. did nails as well.. white and green haha.. aiyer my nose too dry, now peeling =( sobsob.. juz watched channel 8 de holland V repeat.. very nice seh.. alot of lessons on love sia.. thn got this part very funny..

got this guy ah huo.. very stingy one but when he and xiang yun getting married, xiangyun was choosing the package.. thn got this package 5K.. thn ah huo say "huh 5K ar" thn xiangyun thot too ex but thn ah huo say "it's too cheap!" lol~! very funny.. but very very sweet.. thn he say he muz exercise to get nice nice figure so take photo nicer lol~ it's like so sweet la.. they so old but stil so sweet lol~

ok i noe i very kame.. nvm i very sian i go watch tv le.. byeeeee

a song i love with al my life.. miss those days where joel wil play for me at avalon.. now who's gonna play for me when he's gone? hais.. dun wuhui.. joel's just a buddy of mine..

X japan - Tears..

doko ni yukeba ii
anata to hanarete
ima wa sugisatta
toki ni toikakete

naga sugita yoru ni
tabidachi o yume mita
ikoku no sora mitsumete
kodoku o dakishimeta

nagareru namida o
toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no
toiki o kanjite

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

LONELINESS YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE

SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE

TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

nagareru namida o
toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai kanashimi o
aoi bara ni kaete

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

(talking)
If you could have taught me anything
You would have found what love is
If you could have taught me what was on your mind
I could have shown you the way
Someday... I will be before you
Have you ever thought about that time?
I never imagined the pictures of that night
For now I will try to live for you
And for...
I will try to live
Try to live the love, the dreams,
And finally, the tears.

translation..


"Wherever we go is okay,"
You said
Now what may have been
Has been stopped by time

On that night that was too long
I had a dream where you left me
Staring at a foreign sky
I hugged my lonliness

My fallen tears
Are piling up on the winds of time
At the end
I feel your breath

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

LONELINESS... YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY... YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOODBYE

SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE

TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

My fallen tears
Are piling up on the winds of time
This feeling at the end
Makes my blue rose change*

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

My fallen tears are piled on the winds of time again
At the end I can feel your breath

DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

(talking)
If you could have taught me anything
You would have found what love is
If you could have taught me what was on your mind
I could have shown you the way
Someday... I will be before you
Have you ever thought about that time?
I never imagined the pictures of that night
For now I will try to live for you
And for...
I will try to live
Try to live the love, the dreams,
And finally, the tears.

chalet was gd.. but it would be perfect IF there isnt this thing call the COMPUTER! =( hais.. dunno wat to say la.. glad he spend time with me lo.. but abit sian la.. he is spending time with me.. but is it quality time? i guess not.. =\ spend time emailing.. spend time online-ing, spend time working, getting shows.. thn why call it our honeymoon? =(

why waste the money to go there? might as well stay home.. thot we could watch stars.. but.. hais.. nvm.. am rather disappointed.. i dunno why can for a day get away from my life to spend time with him but he cant.. hais.. nvm.. i should stop complaining.. to him.. work is always so impt.. work work work.. al is work.. if not.. thn dota la, laptop la..

no wonder he's having a degree in IT.. HA~ no wonder.. i dun deny thn i am happy he TRY to spend time with me and make me happy.. and i'm glad he somehow got the hint that at one point i am SUPER sian.. but thn.. why cant it be perfect for juz once?? for juz that 24hrs? or even lesser? if this is how a honeymoon wil be when we get married.. thn i tink i wont wanna marry him ba.. i dun wan a neglected, boring, sad and disappointed honeymoon..

haiz.. watever la.. i go rest le.. leg very pain and am super sick..

hais.. disppointment.. =(

HAPPY 50TH DAY TO MY DEAR!! ^^

yesh today's our 50th day anni.. haha.. he remembered it and so ask me out -.- i thot is for nothing go out.. chey~ haha.. went to cine to watch frostbiten.. not very nice la.. like no meaning lei =\ nvm la.. spending time with him makes me happy =) thn we went to SGH cos kok admitted! lol =X

but he's super fine.. lol~ they al very super lame.. kok act retard and dear took pic lol!!! thn they keep bitching about some bboy and someone else la lol =X names shall not be mention.. and it's juz for fun la.. nothing serious.. haha~ but it's reali reali reali lame til can bang wall! hahaha! thn after that we went home le lo.. dear's very very tired.. and i tink he sick =( but hope he's fine ba.. tues is our chalet!!! XD so excited about it haha =X but ya i reali cant wait to spend a whole day with dear chatting away =)

and now.. my nose is being very naughty as water keep coming out of it -.- haha~ runny nose ar~~~~~~~~~ sians~! i was waken by it this morning -.- siansation sia! nabuis.. !@#)(*&^^&*@# i go see a damn lame webby le.. check it out ba.. http://go.funpic.hu haha~ abit of adult content alrite.. haha~ bye~

ok i'm super super tired! but i have to blog this as a reflection to myself ba.. VIP was the onli grp that got eliminated from the semi.. yeap.. sad huh? yes i am very very sad and disappointed.. not cos we got eliminated.. but cos i didnt do my best.. it's not even my HALF! =\ i totally freak out like mad! MAD MAD MAD!! my mind went black when i step on the stage and it's reali faking a smile, expression.. thou they say it was not bad.. but ya it's FAKE!

i didnt do wrong steps but my timing went haywire and i juz do the steps for the sake of doing.. not dancing at all! i cant feel the music.. i cant feel the atmosphere.. i cant feel anythin except "i'm gonna collapse" =\ serious! i was dancing and suddenly i feel like juz collapse.. =\ i tink i was too tired.. i didnt slp a wink.. ok or rather i slept.. 10min? haha~ but i didnt noe it wil affect SOOOOO badly! comments from dion and the rest were "messy.. iko/xinwei you slow one beat. you're not with the other 2 person" =(

for that moment.. i wan to die.. and i mean it.. i relai feel like juz burst out in tears and juz quit joining any comps.. =\ i felt that i bring VIP down and it was super terrible.. i juz dun wan anything to do with performing or competing anymore.. =( but thn after a whole nite of reflecting and getting comments from ppl who i tink wil tell truths, i tink i shudnt be so discouraged.. in fact, i shud feel the push.. th rush to do better! practise harder and go for more lesson.. and one mroe thing.. NO MORE laziness!!!

dear's comment was.. he tink we mark steps too much during practise.. thus our energy during the actual dance is reali LOWWWW~ and we're not VERY sure of our steps.. =\ erika say we reali got the "wat's the next step?" face =( but onli 1 gd thing i receive is that my expression is gd.. ok not REALI gd but at least i smile and TRY to feel the music (failed).. thn comment from yutaki is that we are not tight.. we're stil doin our own thing..

and he first thing ask is "why u al dun get more ppl?" i tink he means something like if we got more ppl we can play with the formation more and the choreo wil be more exciting.. =\ thn he say we also quite suay cos al the teams very strong.. and thn again.. dear said.. "almost al the teams are from studio wu or instructors so you al are already brave!" and yutaki's glad we joined comps as well as i guess it wil help us learn more and noe where we stand ba..

he also said that if we need help can ask him.. i tink i wil go back to his class.. =\ i reali need classes la.. thou i've improve alot from lush.. but thn again.. i need proper lessons to learn lines and proper guidance as well ba.. i'm way too lousy.. for once i relai tink i am not cut to be a dancer =\ maybe being a pianist is much better.. but.. my fingers are retarded for the time being cos too long nv touch the pianos le =( but no la.. i wont give up being a dancer!!

many say "when u lost once comps, al ur efforts put in went down the drain.." but no lei.. i dun tink so.. in fact i tink that even if we lost, we stil have those skilss that we learnt and those experience added to our "gallery" so i guess afterall no matter wat it's a gd learning experience ba.. and i'm glad that the other competitors cheered for us when we were being asked "who tink VIP wil get into the finals, clap!" i tink it's reali encouraging le.. =)

and lovynn commented that our style is too "hiphop-ish" liao.. cos other teams is reali SEXY! hot pants! small jackets! messy hair! sex moves! =\ and ours is reali dance dance type =\ somemore not sexy dance! -.- so i guess we're out of the theme as well ba.. i'm so so so tired that i cant even blog properly now.. i guess i wil post other interesting stuffs about today, tml ba.. gd nite everyone! and may god help me with my path to my dream -dance..

i wont give up
i wont be lazy again..
i wil work hard!!
i wan to be the best!!!!
and i believe i can if i perservere!
god sees and understands.. helps too..
lovess..

tired tired tired.. my knee super pain =( but thn rather happy la.. everythin done le.. costume, dance, position.. but onli we're not very very tidy.. =( but i tink shud be ok ba.. hopefully can go into finals thn we shall reali clean up everythin.. so excited!!! XD but thn very tired.. tml early sia! 9am!! zzzzz tink i confirm late lol =X but i have to slp soon.. 1 more hour for me to slack online.. after that KO! lol~ but i lik eour costume hehe.. =X tml take pic thn post ba =) dunno wat else to blog le.. oh.. i scare myself thinking that street soul wil join lol =X but nikz help to check le.. they not joining.. hehe haha~ heng ar~ if not can go home liao lol =X ok i go play game thn zzzzzzz le.. nitey!!!!! wish me luck everyone! and may God guide me thru and show me miracle~ p/s: daddy jesus, i reali very guai recently le.. pls help us to dance properly and enjoy tml's show ^^ i got read bible le lei~ complete 2 chapter le somemore.. hehe~ =X

NITE~

received this email quite interesting and i tink it's very true.. so to al guys out there.. pls read this if u wan to understand how to treat ur girls better alrite =) i too naggy i add in a few comments and detail alrite hehe =X

1. If you like her...ASK HER OUT already!!!!!!!!
yes! why wait?!?!?! wait and wait and soon she'll be gone.. true life experience ok!

2. When you hug her, put your ARMS around her WAIST and hold her close!

3. When you walk next to her, get as CLOSE as you can to her
one of my long ago ex broke up cos we're too far apart lol =X

4. If she's the only one in your life, TELL HER. and mean it when u say!
yes MEAN wat u say! lol!

5. ALWAYS let her knows how much you like her, love her, or think about her.
assurance is damn important.. especially to me la =X cos i tink alot.. i mean imagine alot

6. Give her presents and cards for no reason, SHE WILL RETURN THE FAVOUR.. ALWAYS!!!
ok i always do that -.- but NONE of m ex liddat one.. nabeis.. well maybe my bf is =)

7. If she hangs up on you, call her right back.
wahaha! girlssss~ naturally born princess =X

8. Always offer to pay. If she says NO twice, then let her pay but make a deal that you get to pay next time (offer a date too)

9. Kiss her lightly every chance you get.
juz a pek on the cheek will do.. it's damn Farking sweet!!! especially those sudden one.. woohoo =X

10. Look in her eyes and kiss her on the lips, forehead, or nose.
err.. i dun reali like this out of no where.. unless the atmosphere is reali great hehe..

11. If she says she's cold, don't be an idiot and say "Me too" and stand there; give her your jacket or just simply hold her in your arms!
wahaha! i cant imagine a idiot say ME TOO! lol~!!!

12. Don't force her to do anything she's not comfortable with
yes yes yes!!! totally agree!!! ultimate turn off and PISSED!!! X(

13. Invite her to dinner or somewhere where you can talk, instead of the movies.
movies is fine la.. but need time to talk also ma =)

14. Try not to ask her if she's mad at you EVERY TIME you speak to her.
yes yes yes! very the FAN AR!!!! I-R-R-I-T-A-T-I-N-G!! if the answer is yes it means yes if no means no lol~

15. Always tell her you LOVE her only if you really mean it.

16. DON'T pressure her to do anything she isnt READY to do. when she is ready, she will let you know. She just wants everything to be more special and perfect. so appreciates what she does with/for you.
YES!!!!!!! raising both hands agree like mad!!!!

17. DON'T go and tell your friends anything that happens between you two, cause it will hurt her and make her mad...and it will NEVER happen again.
BIG MOUTH lol!

18.When a GIRL is quiet, Millions of things are running through her mind.
sometimes many til dunno wat's goin on in our head lol =X

19.When a GIRL is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
this dun applies to me.. when i stop arguing i'm too mad to argue lol

20.When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long will you be around.

21.When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.

22.When a GIRL stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.
we girls can feel alrite.. women's instinct =) and it's 99% true haha!

23.When a GIRL lies on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

24.When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
hehe.. super me la =X

25.When a GIRL says "I love you", she means it.

26.When a GIRL says "I miss you", no one in this world can miss you more than that.

that's all.. and ya.. downloaded afew songs.. old songs la.. got ai ni ka nong by wanzi.. very very nice!!! XD reali super nice.. it's a pop song but it's from canon D =) nice rite haha! and got dear's bloggie song.. ting ni tan gang qin.. by ocean.. very very nice!!! i LOVE the lyrics sia! so sweet! i also wan learn piano!!!! =X hais.. tink le also sad.. =( nvm la.. dance! =) next time work le.. earn money thn learn piano ba.. it's never too late =) i love al the songs hehe~ enjoying them now =) buai buai~